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420chan is Getting Overhauled - Changelog/Bug Report/Request Thread (Updated July 26)

Parents who are jealous of their children

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- Sat, 25 May 2019 13:40:10 EST QZOIDGBa No.529538
File: 1558806010643.png -(419804B / 409.96KB, 600x491) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Parents who are jealous of their children
So, i recently found out through a third relative, that the reason my mother was neglectful, abusive and mean to me throughout my teenage and adult life was because she was jealous. In her view, she wanted children that didn't outshine her in some way. I don't know if it's deserved, it didn't occur to me that I was better in some way, but it sounds fucking ridiculous. Since it was her admitting it, it's possible that it isn't the real reason, too. Does this make her an unusual mentally ill person or is this a common thing?
David Hushman - Sun, 26 May 2019 03:56:18 EST JCATCBbz No.529562 Reply
Oh yeah OP this is definitely a real thing. A lot of times it happens with mothers and daughters. It's extremely pathetic. Anyway don't take it too hard; she didn't kill you and you're better than her. Cheers motherfucker.

i dont enjoy a single thing

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- Fri, 24 May 2019 01:19:18 EST UZC9gHak No.529508
File: 1558675158802.jpg -(75133B / 73.37KB, 800x526) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. i dont enjoy a single thing
>play video game
>get stuck on some stupid part
>this is boring and gay
>cosntantly just rage out either pissed off 24/7 or just miserable and depressed
>try making money
>dont care
>try and do something
>dont care
>try and work out
>whats the point
>had a stupid scam to make money
>even that doesnt work anymore
>too retarded to do that
>it was shameful and made me wanna kill myself the entire time
>go outside
>whats the point
>live in small town
>no girls around
>one other person in the whole area to hang out with
>hes a drunk psychopath literal retard
>lay in bed
>realize my life is over
>just get pissed off or depressed
>wake up every day
>more tired than when i went to bed
>dont wanna talk to people
>can only talk to people online because i live in small town
>dont even like that
>no one to impress nothing to do always sad
>just tired all the time sighing and depressed or just screaming at my laptop or video games while im bored and pissed off at all of it
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Phyllis Briblingnick - Mon, 27 May 2019 16:24:13 EST fJyaqqmi No.529596 Reply
I agree, subjecting us to more of this 0/10 troll after 6 days are up is harsh. Should have been a permaban
George Worthinggold - Mon, 27 May 2019 21:37:56 EST VxtSuD4E No.529606 Reply
Do you think he's a troll? I think he's just a super depressed idiot stuck in house arrest that has a noisy dog next door and has a terrible lifestyle and outlook.

Who's he trolling? People into pitying him? I dont think he gets pity anymore.

I had vomited on the pussy

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- Tue, 21 May 2019 01:26:38 EST fUeqAUZs No.529472
File: 1558416398219.jpg -(26110B / 25.50KB, 767x431) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I had vomited on the pussy
So, my girlfriend once asked me to suck her pussy, by not having an experience I vomited on her pussy and we broke-up...
Up till this day when she see me, she laughs her ass-off, I kind of feel uncomfortable.
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Matilda Cizzlewill - Tue, 21 May 2019 13:18:55 EST Lny7/LNo No.529480 Reply
>by not having an experience I vomited on her pussy
Something tells me it wasn't the lack of experience that made you hurl chunks of chowder all over her clam. Were you drunk or was her cunt just THAT rancid?
Hugh Sablingpadge - Tue, 21 May 2019 14:38:43 EST AHzDZxeQ No.529485 Reply
Then you should be laughing at her, not the other way around. Her pussy literally smelled so bad that you vomited when you went down on her. That's fucking hilarious.

How do you deal with this?

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- Mon, 20 May 2019 01:47:17 EST MFpyraEH No.529458
File: 1558331237684.jpg -(235803B / 230.28KB, 960x960) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. How do you deal with this?
How do you deal with knowing that you will not see old age? How do you deal with it knowing that this is essentially the beginning of the end? I think about this so much to a point where it bothers me. I'm not going to be one of those people that say that Trump is the sign of end times, but it has been long coming and it eventually lead to this. I don't understand why there is so little reaction to this and I am telling you this instead of dying for what I believe in. The 2012 thing saw more attention than real scientific fact and shady moves by world leaders. I consider myself a nihilist. I don't see meaning in life. But another part of me wishes that something could be fixed. I guess I am left to smoking weed and playing old video games of my childhood, desperately wishing I could time travel back to 2005 or even the 80's and 90's and see why vaporwave loves that so much. I guess I might as well find a way to subside all my worries about this and have fun until we all die.
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Under Intact - Tue, 21 May 2019 10:59:19 EST MFpyraEH No.529478 Reply
What the fuck man? I cannot tell if you are talking to me or him. But either way, you're calling someones ego fragile when you are literally attacking someone and saying that you're healthier than them for, literally no reason.
Under Intact - Tue, 21 May 2019 11:06:01 EST MFpyraEH No.529479 Reply
Humanity isn't going to pop out of existence, but I know that everything as I know it will break apart and fall. I know that I will have to fight for my life while the people with all the money will live comfortably for alot longer. You're probably right though. I read the news alot, it is readily available on my phones home screen and I just sit there and read articles for hours sometimes. It doesn't help my mental health when my life right now is constant stress and worry and then go check what retard thing some politician said or did today. Or the progression of the Earths slow agonizing death.
Polly Gagglesick - Tue, 21 May 2019 13:31:05 EST dxVpQFbW No.529481 Reply
This bullshit doesn't help anyone. Repeating it just makes you think it's more real. Instead of posting a third thread about this and ignoring everyone's advice then you could do a thing or at least stop thinking like this.

A 15 year swedish old girl with enthusiasm managed to incite international protests s and now my country has changed it's laws. You produce clicks for shitty news sites. Do something or don't. But what you do now just hurts you.

I survived my suicide attempt

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- Sun, 19 May 2019 09:33:43 EST yv9CaPpT No.529452
File: 1558272823852.jpg -(73783B / 72.05KB, 1280x720) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I survived my suicide attempt
About a week ago I attempted to overdose on DXM and medication, I was brought to the ER and got treatment in the psych ward. I'm sure this gets said on here a lot but I'll say it anyways, shit matters. Life is worth it. If you are ever feeling like you want to kill yourself, talk to someone, don't wait, don't spiral. I hurt a lot of people by doing something so stupid and I regret it immensely, I might post the whole story in a bit, it's all pretty fresh and intense though so I'll try to get around to it as I process stuff.
Alice Habberchag - Sun, 19 May 2019 09:37:39 EST 2dpbGRKS No.529454 Reply
glad you're still alive
as shitty as life can get, it's 100x better than death (don't ask me how i know)
literally everything has a solution except death
Archie Billingstone - Mon, 20 May 2019 15:38:22 EST 138dZzdZ No.529463 Reply
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yay! keep fighting OP

you aren't out of the woods, take really good care of yourself

<<<<<<<<<<<<< here's a flower because people who go to hospital get flowers


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- Sat, 18 May 2019 07:23:26 EST E1gp9gc3 No.529432
File: 1558178606420.jpg -(78311B / 76.48KB, 746x918) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Fucccccccccccccccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
I'm a pretty avid poster, I really like giving advice to people struggling seeing as I like to believe I'm somewhat a good counsel. However, this time, I'm in sore need of some sort of guidance.

I've been in and out of therapy for many years, and for the last years I've moved home, basically alienated all of my friends since moving away and going sober, and missed out on high school since I wasn't ever able to finish. I'm 23 now, haven't had a job in years. All of this has left me pretty isolated and hungry for getting back into actually living, getting a education and girlfriend and all of that shit.

I had a pretty solid plan to move out after this summer, since my therapist had gotten me into a hospitalization with treatment directed specifically towards people in my situation, that is, people with anxiety and depression.
I'll just say that I'm sorry if this all comes out jumbled, I have to take breaks because I just get filled with frustration and rage.

Well, my therapist sent my application too late. I hoped to get into this treatment on Monday, but they told me that there wasn't room, but they would be happy to have me in September. This pretty much broke me, somehow. I was so sure I was going to get in, I had absolutely everything planned. Be there through summer, get better, finally move out again, and start taking up courses to finish high school while trying to get into a tune.

Now, my life is basically postponed again. After being postponed, and postponed, and postponed. I fucking hate living with my parents (they aren't horrible people btw), I fucking hate where I'm at, I fucking hate myself and what my life has become. I just don't know if I'll be able to be here till Autumn, I can't reach my therapist till Monday (and I've already left her a message to call me), I feel like I am going to lose my mind or explode. The feeling of rage and frustration is seriously so much to handle right now, that I just "combust" internally before I slump back into bed.

I can't even watch a series, or play a game, or read, or do anything before I just give up. I can talk to my parents of course, but it would be pointless as they can't do anything to help, and right now they are more or less a manifestation of my rage, so I'm afraid I'll just flip out at them if they even tried giving advice.

I know all of this sounds incredibly pathetic. I don't know if I should just move, just so that something happens. I'll obviously be considerably poorer, and I might even end up being more lonely if I have to live with complete assholes in a city. But at the same time, there is this slim chance of me feeling relieved of just change. Something, anything at all.

Or if I should stay till Autumn and hope I don't kill myself while waiting. This is, somehow, the rational choice I guess, but at a considerable cost. I'll know for sure that I'll just keep on feeling like this till Autumn, I know I'll throw away my summer, and I'll know for sure I'll just keep on being a pathetic loser for a little while longer. There is some safety in that.

I simply don't know what I'm going to do.

I should perhaps mention that I had one session of ISTDP at the treatment clinic, because I visited Wednesday (prior to me knowing I wouldn't get in) to get to know how things would work. That was pretty intense, and I'm not sure, but I kinda feel like that session brought forth something in me. Has anyone else had any experience with this during ISTDP?

And before people tell me to smoke more, I do usually smoke a little bit, but after I toked on Wednesday I got such a huge panic attack my body basically convulsed because I trembled so much, felt kinda like all the bad aspects of acid. I watched Mad Men and all was great, until something struck me as so sad it basically felt like I was punched in the face and became retarded. Yes, I made the thread about feeling bad on drugs lol.

Thanks people, I've posted here infrequently through the ages, and I'm sure I'll keep posting shit in the future. I would go work out instead of writing this stupid shit, but it's just too much at the moment, I just fucking cannae be bothered.
Augustus Fesslehat - Sat, 18 May 2019 15:16:06 EST dxVpQFbW No.529440 Reply
If you decided to wait to autumn you wouldn't have to just sit at home and do nothing. Would it be more tolerable if you took up a routine on other things? Start learning a musical instrument? Practice a little every day, maybe a couple of small sessions per day. By the time September rolls around you won't be amazing but you'll be actually able to play things on it.

You only waste the time if you do nothing. Like why post a thread OR work out? Why not do both?

I can't comment on a lot of the rest but if you can't get treatment maybe there's things you can do to add value or lay groundwork in the mean time.
Reuben Windergold - Sat, 18 May 2019 18:23:01 EST 2dpbGRKS No.529442 Reply
so your solid plan to live life was to wait for your therapist to send an application for depression treatment?
don't let that shit tie you down, get a job and then get education, girlfriends will appear


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- Sat, 18 May 2019 06:39:50 EST SnMldkwK No.529431
File: 1558175990645.jpg -(699370B / 682.98KB, 2880x1520) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Well..
I'm hungry, but I don't want to make a sandwich. There is no-one here but my dog and when I ask him to make me a sandwich he just farts in my general direction while curled behind my pillow like a fortified Frenchman. I haven't given up hope yet. I've been trying to develop psychic powers so the sandwich will make itself. So far I've only summoned this five legged blob creature that smells like cheese. I suppose it isn't dangerous but the powerful smell of Gorgonzola penetrates my nostrils like a great guardian god breaking wind into a dragons cave. It makes me hunger for an even better sandwich that I have not the means to craft. I have decided to pack my things and roll my computer chair out into the world in search of the perfect ingredients. I've brought the blob creature along so it's mighty smell may fortify my will and be as a herald to the people I approach as I go on my way. When I complete my quest it will be time to part ways so the torch may be passed to another chair rider in search of sandwich.

Haven't been on our honeymoon-trip after2 years... why does it make me so angry?

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- Thu, 16 May 2019 08:21:07 EST 2JM1BnoY No.529399
File: 1558009267074.png -(53484B / 52.23KB, 471x489) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Haven't been on our honeymoon-trip after2 years... why does it make me so angry?
>married to a perfect nerdy girl
>not enough money for a honey-moon-trip
>saving our asses off 2 years long to finally travel to somewhere nice
>both of us pretty overworked since bosses require much of us but pay shit
>holidays got constantly rescheduled because our bosses were assholes
>work-situation got unearable I quit some days ago
>still couldn't find anything new

>We both decide to finally book a nice holiday thats not for rich assholes but at least has a way to spend 90% of our time in the water

>Wife quit the job too but found something new already
>She will do a training end of this year
>Me wanting to book our honeymoon as long as there are still savings
>she's more interested in her new job, won't book anything until next year

I feel fucking angry, kinda afraid she leaves me.
I just wanted to give us something relaxing and fun because we've been through so much shit money- and work-related stress wise. Too many burnouts and depressions in the past months.
I feel like we need time for ourselfes and I don't think that going out to some fancy dinner or short trips to a near town will cut it.

Am I selfish?
But I can't imagine working for another shitty year and still not beeing able to have free-time and a real holiday!
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Augustus Ginnerspear - Fri, 17 May 2019 11:44:07 EST 2dpbGRKS No.529422 Reply
just go to a cheap third world destination
Molly Monnerspear - Fri, 17 May 2019 13:08:13 EST dxVpQFbW No.529425 Reply

I mean what you want OP is not entirely trivial. You want some special relaxation time but the honeymoon means about as much as the wedding. Also keep looking until you find a not shit job.

Taking some time off to actually enjoy one another's company without stress will do you some good. Let go of the honeymoon and the big holiday and being such a materialistic idiot about it. Honeymoons meant something when people didn't live together for years before marrying and all that shit. Now if you can't get any special time at all you have a different problem. But try a compromise first. There must be a middle ground that isn't a huge splurge of holiday but is some time off.

Also is your wife insecure in her employment or otherwise feel she's not very good at her job or just like that in general? Or is she a workaholic?
Doris Finkinhock - Fri, 17 May 2019 18:51:09 EST jsezWUKc No.529426 Reply
Get a job. Don't go unemployed. Especially don't go unemployed, and then go on holiday. You'd spend money you don't have. This will raise flags to your wife, who will either cheat on you and justify it because she's married to a deadbeat unemployed husband who is irresponsible with his money, or just divorce you.

Get your shit together before considering taking a vacation. You can't just bLaMe WoRk for not going out and having fun. The fact you were both in shit jobs shows that all you'd be doing by taking a holiday is desperately distracting yourselves/each other from the shitty situations you're both in.

Alcoholism, suicide, etc.

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- Tue, 14 May 2019 17:16:46 EST 4VrAyNJw No.529369
File: 1557868606880.jpg -(91854B / 89.70KB, 640x799) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Alcoholism, suicide, etc.
I have never in my life seriously considered violent suicide, in the form of doing drastic immediate damage to my body, i.e. shooting, cutting, hanging, etc. But I know and am fully aware that I am slowly killing myself with alcohol atm.

When I am sober, I have constant anxiety, like edging toward a panic attack, and some days it climaxes into actual panic. Called my country's equivalent of 911 yesterday because I thought myself into panic while taking a walk and getting out of breath to the point of my chest feeling heavy, and I couldn't breathe.

Suspect might have fucked my heart or something with years of binge eating (currently underweight tho, bulimia or some shit I guess) and alcohol. Been just sitting isolated in my room for like 6 months now tho also. I used to ride bicycle a lot, every day, far and fast. Did physical exercise often. Back pain never got better.

People say drugs are bad for you, alcohol kills etc, but chronic pain, it's like an endogenous drug that has no ups, it's just a constant downer, it fucks you up, seriously. It makes you stupid, because always feeling the pain distracts the brain from active thinking. Always thinking about the future, hoping to be free from pain.

A year sober. Was still in pain. Knew that freedom from pain was just a few drinks away. Maybe pills work too, but I just can't be assed to fuck with that. Mostly ever used Darkweb for weed, and the doctors I don't trust. They tried to figure out what's wrong with me physically but they found nothing, and still my hands feel ice cold, then super hot, circulation is fucked. They said exercise more; i did, seriously I did, went to pysical therapy as well, nothing got better really. I just wanted relief from it all.

So I started drinking again in dec 2018, still doing it. Just wanted a moment of relief from this fucking shit, couldnt' sleep, total empitness, felt paralyzed from pain. Now I'm no better, alcohol didn't solve shit, but at least it numbs me.

I just want to be numb. I guess I want to die, but I somehow fear death, or my diea of death. I believe, or have believed, that life contains a problem and that my purpose is to solve it. If I die, time has run out, and I won't be able to find the capital-T truth. But as time goes on, it seems there is no such truth, no transcendence, no eternal psychedelic nrivana to be had. Just this life. This life, whatever the fuck it is, with its pain and bullshit, and ... just all of it.

Simply breathing is a privilege. Part of me hopes I wake up tmorrow, but for what? I've nothign left to do, but I also have nothing to die for.

Life is weird, and scary. at least we have language... imagine th eloneliness without it.
Clara Shittingstone - Fri, 17 May 2019 10:46:55 EST 138dZzdZ No.529421 Reply
This sounds really painful in many ways OP. I hope things get better for you.


there are various therapies that help people deal with chronic pain... if you show up drunk or tell them you are an alcoholic most therapists will want to work on that first though, which might be good too

Oh my god

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- Wed, 15 May 2019 20:35:53 EST E1gp9gc3 No.529394
File: 1557966953703.gif -(2490573B / 2.38MB, 256x195) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Oh my god
I'm having a full-on drug induced panic attack

please send slayer
Oliver Decklewell - Thu, 16 May 2019 04:07:12 EST h0psPJz3 No.529397 Reply
This ........... too.......... shall.........linger eternally
Barnaby Cucklebury - Thu, 16 May 2019 14:24:53 EST 138dZzdZ No.529413 Reply
everything is fine, count the blue things in the room

Grand dad passed away last night

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- Thu, 16 May 2019 12:42:28 EST pNgQLU7V No.529407
File: 1558024948352.jpg -(59044B / 57.66KB, 640x640) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Grand dad passed away last night
Can we get some bumps for my last grandparent i didnt see enough
Cedric Sagglestock - Thu, 16 May 2019 12:48:44 EST Lny7/LNo No.529408 Reply
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I miss my grandparents. My grandfather used to take me walking through the woods to collect acorns and stuff, best memories ever.

I'm the youngest of five grandsons though, I hope he didn't resent me or see me as a burden to my parents. You know, the kind of things they think and say behind their children's backs.

"You need to seek mental help"

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- Wed, 15 May 2019 11:49:02 EST mx986IvR No.529373
File: 1557935342663.jpg -(49440B / 48.28KB, 720x694) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. "You need to seek mental help"
Ok so, im 27, have a job, neurotype.

I'm the brooding musical type and people take my downtrodden state as depression and shit and assume that I need to seek mental help. I keep telling them I dont need help, I need YOU to listen, the counselling is not YOU and that it keeps pissing me off to the point that I am angry. Literally the whole reason I am angry and supposedly need help is because people play me out to be angry and self centred.

"Have you tried ignoring them"
Cant, last time that happened I had to explain to a police officer and a caseworker that I was literally having a down day because the Goddamm progression in my song didnt come out the way it seemed in my head and that I basically need to ball my notepaper and try again.

What do you do when people think you're literally bipolar regardless of your actual mental health state?

Every time I try to seek help they tell me to "cut toxic people out of my life" I know three real people, B, D, and K. They know that I'm likely to lie on the couch for no reason, stare out the window humming scales, or just play with a small object.

What do you do when people think your crazy when you're angry and depressed when you're not angry?

Jesus fuck i cant keep explaining that I have a very dull sense of social skills to every cop that comes to check up on me because I decide to go shell it for a while.
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pl0x - Wed, 15 May 2019 12:34:49 EST mx986IvR No.529382 Reply

The only time people dont bother me which is fucked up, is when I'm playing video games, like literally I will be playing Halo for several hours and not a single person will come and ask me to do anything.

But they assume its ok to pester me when I'm "Making noise" as my mother once put iit.
pl0x - Wed, 15 May 2019 12:37:15 EST mx986IvR No.529383 Reply

How is it that virtual accomplishments warrant direct attention...
But very real studying of musical theory is brushed aside as a fruitless venture?

Is it because I'm not making garbage radio music?

People still listen to jazz and classical all the time right?
Cedric Sagglestock - Thu, 16 May 2019 12:53:37 EST Lny7/LNo No.529410 Reply
Fuck, teach me how. Every time I smile in public people think I'm THE person to approach for their weird requests.

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