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420chan is Getting Overhauled - Changelog/Bug Report/Request Thread (Updated March 22)
Exulansis by Caroline Tootspear - Thu, 16 Aug 2018 20:13:02 EST ID:2zlZGpe+ No.526180 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I'm probably going to lose my steady job tomorrow. I've had too many instances of not getting along with my coworkers, I'm generally regarded as the bad guy at work by people at every level and in every department. It would be nice to say this is all a coincidince or some sort of conspiracy, but the fact of the matter is that I am an asshole. A better way to phrase it would be that I'm not good at lying to people, I refuse to play into others bullshit and melodramas, and when I people fuck with me I become very defensive and retaliate.

This all came to a head today when I found out I have been denied a raise while simultaneously dealing with my coworkers problems. The details are childish as fuck and I know what I could have done differently to prevent all of it, but long story short I made my female coworker so upset she cried to our boss. Our entire team was given the ultimatum that termination of employment was coming down for someone, whoever that could be.

But I dont really give a shit about the job, it was never a devotion of mine or a stopping point. The problem I'm struggling with is a feeling of persecution, of un-belonging, of alienation. This is a recurring theme in my darker trips and in my waking life anxieties. It's like I'm a monster wearing human skin. No matter how hard I try, people inevitably glimpse my true character, which is unacceptable to the vast majority of civilized humanity. I don't want to whine about my life, I know everyone goes through bullshit, such is life. But I really dont know what to do about the whole thing.

I can take care of myself just fine, theres always other jobs. My health is great, I know what things to do when I'm feeling a certain way, what moves to make when I want something to change. Albeit, I have no idea how to become a better member of society. If I keep burning bridges everywhere I go there'll be nothing left for me but to run away to another state, like a hunted animal.

A huge chunk of life revolves around earning money to support yourself, and if I'm so maladjusted that it's increasingly hard to do this, I have to make a change. It's ironic in this case that next month I had three weeks…
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Caroline Buzzlewad - Thu, 16 Aug 2018 20:50:46 EST ID:cBYQH4Mo No.526181 Ignore Report Quick Reply
work on not being an asshole
Nigel Panningstock - Thu, 16 Aug 2018 22:29:26 EST ID:zDyW9uv1 No.526182 Ignore Report Quick Reply

>This all came to a head today when I found out I have been denied a raise while simultaneously dealing with my coworkers problems. The details are childish as fuck and I know what I could have done differently to prevent all of it, but long story short I made my female coworker so upset she cried to our boss.

Shit happens. Women are women so you should know better on that end. Also, if you are going to refuse to play petty office games then don't even bother worrying about trying to get a raise and just move to another job. Quicker that way anyway.

>The problem I'm struggling with is a feeling of persecution, of un-belonging, of alienation.

What exactly happen? Did you just berate your coworker until she broke down?

How do I get out of this? by Graham Pickshit - Tue, 14 Aug 2018 01:31:45 EST ID:7DhEjqUS No.526112 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'm 22 years old. Every single day, I come home from work, fool around with something semi-productive (guitar, learning spanish by textbook), and then proceed to get stoned and drunk.

I recently graduated college, where I finally realized how weird I was compared to most people -- back home I always avoided people because I lived in a small town where people would have severely scorned me had they known my family and I were atheists. On top of this, I have always sought peoples' approval even if it meant having only the most superficial kind of relationship with them. As I result I have struggled to "have nothing to hide" my whole life.

...I'm rambling. Anyway, at my university of 5,000 people, I was considered very eccentric -- people thought I was insane because of my expressions and mannerisms. Apparently, this was to a greater degree than what might be expected of a typical shut in/ asperger's case, and the only people that ever seemed to want me around were those in a never-ending pity party.

That said, I think it worth considering I don't have those one or two major social hobbies that most people have, be it be sports, DnD, or just studying together. My pops is a control freak and I have no reliable transportation and live in a small town. It's also true that I don't seem to have much reason to pursue one goal over another. I'm just working at a hole-in-the-wall Vietnamese restaurant where no one speaks more than necessary English. My only social relationship these days is over the fact that I can speak some Vietnamese. I want to change jobs already, though. It's dishwashing.
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Hugh Wangerfoot - Wed, 15 Aug 2018 23:08:16 EST ID:7DhEjqUS No.526142 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I tried a couple of therapists at uni. I dont bring it up because i dont want to explain my problems to my dad. He tends to not believe in the grip my thoughts hold over me, or in things such as my inability to make friends. He’s usually too into his own pity-party. He has chronic physical pain and is sort of a resentful artist-type who came from coal-mining wifebeaters.

The therapists I saw were able to guve me a few pointers on how to conduct myself. I learned, for example, to be careful not to get so absorbed in what im sharing that I overlook how Immay be making someone uncomfortable. That was about all the help I could get. I read The Power of Now, which was some help to me. Still, i just feel that I can’t enjoy talking to people. I dont know how to match expectations, and unless I’ve had some vodka, I can’t even relax enough to have seemingly meaningful topics come to me, if that makes sense. On top of that, I dont see the point in pursuing romantic interests because i cant easily have sex unless im on a roll of having abstained from porn and masturbation for a few months.
Alice Sedgebot - Thu, 16 Aug 2018 12:02:14 EST ID:ka63e54W No.526159 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You need goals. Some goals will help you to be better at stuff. Example establishing a baseline of physical fitness. Other goals are for your soul. There's probably a dream you have. Think about doing that and if you cant figure out why. I am only 26 and im just starting but its worth. Find other waya to make money, see if you can go down to part time. At 22 I was a reclusive mess, now im much better. Inever sold my soul and im very fortunate that I didnt, even though I wanted to. Im almost done my undergrad in philosophy, and I found a genuine love. I gpt lucky, but I basi ally followed what was interesting to me. No regrets. Imma get tatted up, we are getting older and if youre not careful your soul might get trampled by your future.
Gropd luck nigga
Oh also being weird Is a good thing. It means youre sensitive. Try pot. I self medicate and it works. Try to keep a healthy schedule. Dont overinduldge in anything. Also get out of your gay ass small town. As bad as big cities get theyre better inmany respects for people like youand me. Fuck everybody who gets in your way. May you cut them down like icut mine down
Hamilton Blythestone - Thu, 16 Aug 2018 14:27:11 EST ID:Om/gGBzM No.526164 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yes, but don't just set vague goals break them down into milestones and break those down into tasks you do in one go. Also remember that you're always going to encounter unplanned resistance, build room for error in and when shit goes wrong and/or you fuck up the key is to recover. I think you should consider the future to some extent. If you're getting a face tat that's dumb but I work with people who sign off on 9 figure budgets and have tats. I kept my hair short for years but now I'm a wizard and it makes me easy to spot when I have to meet a new manager or whatever.

I'm almost the opposite, I spent years denying it but I love numbers and problem solving. Also now I'm working on putting together a band. Oh and I always thought I'd be unfit and I could never imagine being able to do a pull up and now I'm somehow ripped and shit. There's also a lot more room to compromise. I always thought the sort of work I do would be bullshit but then I found I can do it for a good cause rather than just helping enrich people who don't need it. I work out eat well and so I can pig out.

Anyway it's not just about doing what you love but being honest with yourself. Doubt yourself less. One of the reasons my music never went anywhere is I thought no one would dig it. Now I realise I just churn out quality riffs and let everyone else do what they like with them.

Oh and one more thing. I miss getting stoned but early on in my career I learned to do the productive shit and then use getting high to relax as a reward. Don't get home and light up a joint. Do shit then when you're feeling good top it off with a joint over dinner.

fuck it I need to vent somewhere by Lydia Murdridge - Thu, 16 Aug 2018 11:56:23 EST ID:TvrTTDtI No.526158 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Yeah, sorry I'm not freaking out over a bunch of retards shitting over themselves over a damn cartoon. Sorry I don't spend every fucking moment of my life constantly talking about how said retards are awful for society, because apparently trying to put my life back in order or dealing with the fact that one of my parents maybe dying is apparently not as important as circlejerking to the weeb version of the National Enquirer talking about weebs destroying the world or whatever the fuck.

What the fuck is your problem? Did you fucking ignore the fact that I explicitly said I was going through some shit right now? And then you act like I'm suddenly the evil of the world just because I'm actually trying to ignore stupid people? For someone who bitches about purity and shit, you sure are acting the same as the very people you hate. At least I'm willing to admit I'm actually fucking wrong every now and then. This shit is just old and you'll get tired of it too one day. At least I hope so.

Planning to say this to my gf of 1 year who I've been living with by Alice Dittingridge - Sun, 29 Jul 2018 11:30:56 EST ID:7hD/JfFv No.525799 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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do you think it's ok?

"So listen, you know this is the first time I ever lived together with anyone, and I guess I learned about myself through this new experience.
Basically I don't think I can ever live with anyone. I need to be able to do what I want when I want, having to do things for someone, having someone tell me what to do, how yo do it, I don't like it.
I just can't be with someone 24/7 I guess. I'm just not the type of person who can do that, I guess it's my personality"
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Oliver Fellypug - Fri, 10 Aug 2018 06:48:25 EST ID:IJsz4t4O No.526049 Ignore Report Quick Reply
dude you're a stallion. it's clear this chick has hardly any emotional interest vested in this relationship. i agree op dropping this all at once is kind of a 'bomb', but when is not? the fact that she's trying to turn everything around is a red flag and she comes across as manipulative.

also being an adult & having no reliable means of transportation is bush league. blaming it on your partner for not wanting to carry them everyday is betamax

gtfo im tired of the pedestals your types put up for manippy women
Beatrice Bennermod - Wed, 15 Aug 2018 15:47:02 EST ID:TAsVGYKT No.526136 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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so I'm posting this from my mom's house, it dragged on a little but I finally left today.
Already feel much happier and "lighter" like a burden was taken off of my soul.
We're still gonna see each other though.
anyway, thanks for caring everyone.
Martin Murdlock - Wed, 15 Aug 2018 16:51:32 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526138 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I’m glad dude, enjoy the space this creates for you.

Bumps by Cancer? - Wed, 15 Aug 2018 00:44:19 EST ID:kBLz5tje No.526127 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'm pretty sure the bumps on the back of my head are not from bug-bites, however, i can't exactly observe them with a double-mirror. I have two bumps, irregullarly placed, behind my ears, behind my skull... i cannot determine them to be bug bites; they occur within my hairline. I have anothwr bump, growing from a conspicuous ordinary skull formation on the right back side of my head. The nodules are sensitive, but i dont feel exact pain.
Martin Murdlock - Wed, 15 Aug 2018 05:24:50 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526128 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Sometimes you can end up with spots because of all the hair follicles.

I had one grow in that lasted maybe 2 weeks before eventually popping.
Nell Senninghadging - Wed, 15 Aug 2018 08:51:27 EST ID:cBYQH4Mo No.526130 Ignore Report Quick Reply
alien eggs

Internet buddy swooped my girl by Caroline Greenstock - Thu, 09 Aug 2018 10:54:12 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526024 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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During summer, my internet friend of many years, who I met up with once before when I happened to be in his city, came and stayed at my house for a couple days. We've had a pretty decent friendship, neither of us is particularly proactive about contact but there's a respect when we do. We bonded over mental health problems in a facebook community, I've tried to kill myself many times, hes a bit crazy etc.

Anyways, came over and we had a good time, smile on my face the entire time. I introduced him to my friends, we got drunk and everything was chill. He expressed interest in my friend, who I've "secretly" loved since I met her, I've never hooked up but I've tried initiating stuff in the past via messages and fell flat.

They basically kissed and stuff out of sight at some point during a drunken night out and some pretty intimate bonding stuff happening. No one saw, he told me afterwards. He didn't know, I hadn't told him. I told my girl that he has a girl back home, which was true but it was in the early stages like a couple weeks of knowing each other, so it didn't seem too serious and he certainly didn't seem bothered. But it was kinda hard having him make quite small comments about her afterwards, like how he fancies her or chuffed he had a crack at that. I made some kinda salty noises back at him and he doesn't seem to raise it anymore at all. We haven't spoken since my last message where I told him "okay we get it u like her" and he made a zipped face emoji. Now we just interact through likes on social media, as normal, as we usually do. Contact is usually specific, not filler.

>Here's my problem though. I'm not who I said I was in this story, I'm the guy who came to his country, stayed in his house and pulled his girl. Now me and her are secretly having a long distance relationship because basically, he isn't emotionally stable enough to handle news like this without there being repercussions for her and arguably me. I'd rather not upset him for no reason, but this has now passed the 1 month mark of "my girlfriend, in secret", we have basically entered an agreement to meet monthly and we can'…
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Beatrice Sittingson - Mon, 13 Aug 2018 09:47:52 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526103 Ignore Report Quick Reply
She told him the other night.

He took it fine, seems jokey with her but said nothing to me.

Things seem good for now.
James Goodspear - Tue, 14 Aug 2018 20:23:22 EST ID:ka63e54W No.526122 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Uh dum dum he is repressing his feelings
Martin Murdlock - Wed, 15 Aug 2018 05:27:08 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526129 Ignore Report Quick Reply

So what. If someone ain’t gonna commit to a public statement, it’s not on me. I ain’t here to think for 2 people fuck that.

Anti-depressants, the destruction of the libido, and my sex life by Shit Bunworth - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 21:15:13 EST ID:jMSpSY/k No.526093 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I've recently started taking an SSRI (citalopram) again for the first time in several years. Last time I used it it was a massive help, it got me out of a deep rut and helped me jumpstart my life.

I'd been falling back into a mental rut over the last few months and could see all the warning signs of an impending crisis if left unchecked, so I've made the decision to go back on medication.

This is all fine and dandy except for one problem - last time I took these things, I was single. The fact that SSRIs drop a nuke on your libido didn't bother me, and I in fact saw it as a welcome bonus while I focused on getting my life back together.

But now I'm older and I have a wife who's something of a nympho. She craves sex. And right now she's pregnant and entering second trimester, which means all the hormonal adjustments are making her even hornier than usual.

How do I deal with this? The last few times we fucked I wasn't able to cum, I could feel myself kind of vaguely getting close but then the feeling sort of disappeared and I gradually went soft. It's been less than a week since I started taking the meds and the effects are getting worse each day. I have the day off work today and the idea to have enjoy some peaceful jerking off struck my mind, so I loaded up some porn and...nothing. There was some definite physical twitching down there, a half chub, but mentally I was just completely disinterested. I flicked through all sorts of things that I'd normally be interested in and I simply could not get myself in the mood.

I'm kind of happy that I'll be able to avoid porn for the foreseeable future as I have my own personal ideological issues with it, but the effect this is going to have on my marital relations is going to become a problem.

What do, /qq/?
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Wesley Pickman - Mon, 13 Aug 2018 13:26:03 EST ID:JRefmd5a No.526104 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Smoke some weed and see if it helps any. I found it to be decently helpful with SSRI side effects, extremely helpful with SSRI withdrawal effects, and the weed itself gets substantially potentiated, so if you get horny from it then this might be enough to temporarily enable you to get off.

Of course, it wouldn't be a good idea to smoke around/with your pregnant wife, so YMMV and it might be kinda awkward being high while she's not. A relatively low-dose edible (accounting for potentiation) might be your best bet if going this route.

Alternatively, there are other classes of antidepressants which are less notorious for this particular side effect, or if you really find that it's helping you, there are adjuncts that can be prescribed to try and counteract the problem (though in my personal experience, weed was the most effective for actually restoring some sense of libido, rather than simply addressing mechanical issues).
Isabella Fanlock - Mon, 13 Aug 2018 14:42:02 EST ID:TdF2zjDy No.526106 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Whatever you do discuss this with your doctors. They WILL make fun of you. Asking anonymous potheads was the right call. Try putting spiders in your ass, works for me everytime.
Eugene Buzzshaw - Tue, 14 Aug 2018 01:29:41 EST ID:JqxelPRJ No.526111 Ignore Report Quick Reply
lol I just stacked an amphetamine prescription on top of it

Leaving it behind by Oliver Duckcocke - Tue, 24 Jul 2018 12:12:12 EST ID:ka63e54W No.525708 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Anybody ever say fuck it to their old life and make a drastic, burn the boats kind of change?

think I wanna
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Martin Fuckingridge - Thu, 02 Aug 2018 19:01:22 EST ID:wJavO91C No.525899 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I got in a relationship with a man who wound up basically being a psychopath. He was extremely abusive but it took time to come out in its fullness. He established control first, then did as he wished. Also kept me in by threatening to kill my cats, kill me, kill my family, kill himself, usually all of the above. He abused the fucking shit out of me.

He said that one day I was gonna walk through a door and see both of my cats sliced open with their guts strung across the floor. That's just an example, theres much more like that.

He slowly separated me from all of my friends, isolated me.

When I finally got myself out of that horrible situation, years later, my friends were all pretty much moved on. Some of them thought I was dead.

I've found it easier to make new friends than to try to rekindle old friendships. Also, some of them have moved away, and many of them have parted ways from each other. But, it's also difficult because they want to know how I am and what I've been up to all these years.

I've changed my name, had the court records for it sealed so he cant find me as easily, changed phone number, lost all my clothes and nearly all possessions just getting myself the fuck away from him. Also psychologically I am not the same as I was before and I never will be. I'm still me, but I'm very different from the old me.
Frederick Happerwell - Fri, 03 Aug 2018 01:01:40 EST ID:+kSQWH2i No.525904 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I did a huge change in my life 3 years ago. Fell in love with my friends ex and moved across the country(literally coast to coast). FLew to LA. Hitch hiked to Vancouver, BC. Lived together for 3 years. It was magical and I really did change a lot of habits but slowly devolved into an even worse state then I was before. Guilt from the way that we hurt my friend was immediate but a lot of other problems slowly came up. We were both heavy users of MDMA, Coke, Ket., Booze, Speed before we up and left. All of that stopped when we made out big move. We both got pretty well sober except drinking sometimes. It was really nice for a long while. Felt like a productive human being for the first time in my life and actually felt real love for once.

It was after the first year in Van where I started doing cocaine again here and there. Not very often. She did as well but even less. By year two I was doing cocaine a lot again and she was still only doing it here and there. She was getting promotions at her job(she now runs a dispensary from this and makes good money.) We had a lot of trouble during this time. Working in a kitchen 50 hours a week made it so hard to spend quality time with her and the fact that I would get off at 12-3am encouraged my bad drug habits. By year three she left me because I was barely a boyfriend. Got raped by a dude while I was sleeping at a drug party a month before she broke up with me. Lost my job a few months after she broke up with me(weirdly not about the drugs or anything. just went to a wedding that I booked off under one chef and then a new chef came in and didn't know. It was weird and dumb. Only time I've been fired.) Then I lost my new apartment the following month because I upgraded to a nice bachelor apartment before I got fired because the old chef gave me a raise. Got my job back a few months later though . The owner called me and straight up said they fucked up which was nice. I worked two shifts there and was like...I'm going home.

So within the last 3-4 months I got raped, lost my girlfriend, lost my job and then lost my apartment. I moved back home across the country after that. I'm doing better now but definitely a bit jaded and defeated.

So that…
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Ernest Badgetit - Mon, 13 Aug 2018 16:54:41 EST ID:ka63e54W No.526107 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Op here
Im gonna get face tats

College n shit by Hamilton Clullerfoot - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 22:13:01 EST ID:+1ykBe6C No.526095 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Recently sold my soul for five years and now have the GI bill so I can go to college pretty much wherever I want. I went for a year about ten years ago but dropped out because I had no clear goals and didn't know how I'd pay for it. I still don't know what I want to do but sometimes I think, fuck it, I'll just go to art school.

I've always had potential as an artist. I've done many portraits and have been told by a lot of people that they look just like the subject. Not trying to brag but I've always had a good eye for this kind of thing. Only problem is I'm a depressed motherfucker and haven't done any art in a long time. But I think art school would really nurture some skill and set me on the right path, be it game design, story boarding for films, comics, etc.

Other things I've thought about going to school for: music therapy (again haven't practiced in a long time but I have a lot of experience), physical therapy (related to what I did in the military but it would be a lot more work than any of the other choices), hydroponics/aquaponics (not great with machines but I really want to learn about it), zoology, and foreign languages.

TLDR: I have the ability to go to art school with little to no consequence and it might actually be really good for me.
Phineas Fublingbirk - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 23:02:58 EST ID:QH8rpn75 No.526097 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I had someone tell me once that studying a foreign language in university is not really worth it because it's the kind of skill that you can attain outside more easily. Especially for something like Spanish. Probably depends on the language you were thinking of, if you could see yourself living in a foreign country that plus your military experience would be good. Learning a new language and immersing yourself in a different culture is the kind of change that could be good for depression.

You probably wouldn't ever be paid for an art degree, but if you're doing it for yourself and you earned it through GI bill, why not? From the tone of your post it sounds like you are looking for justification to do this, but haven't for a while.

If I were you, I would start doing the type of art you are interested again in free time while doing gen eds at the college. If you find yourself really enjoying it, do it, with the knowledge that you might not find employment based on this after graduation. After all, you only have one life to live.

If it's something that you enjoy, but don't see yourself doing all day, one of the options you were thinking about like languages or a more professional degree like PT/music therapy could be a better idea.

Take this with a grain of salt because it's coming from a stranger from the internet, but paint/draw whatever it is your ass off while doing your general education and if you still love it commit. Otherwise do something else. If you don't find employment doing this, you'll still have a badass and satisfying hobby that will impress people and provide an outlet till the day you die.
Jarvis Febberback - Mon, 13 Aug 2018 08:27:21 EST ID:jhxT8BUJ No.526101 Ignore Report Quick Reply
a depressed artist... boi, you're in for a wild ride
art school was fun for me though there's a lot of pretention and half of it is knowing how to network, specially with this social media craze

welding by Sidney Backletene - Wed, 08 Aug 2018 20:35:21 EST ID:OWx1ClP7 No.526017 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I was terrible at highschool and barely passed, my teachers all told my parents that if I applied myself harder I'd make it, but some stuff just stumped me, mainly math.

When I graduated back in 2011 I didnt know what I wanted to do with my life. I liked photography so I took a class at a local tech school, paid cash, and never pursued it afterwards really.

Than In 2014 I found this program a few hours away from my house for media/ video production. I got suckered into this bullshit program and moved. After a semester and a half, I was starting to realize the school was a complete sham, and all the sudden theres all this stuff on the news about how they lie about job placement rates and they are significantly lower. I dropped out and moved back home. Now i'm 10 grand in debt, but I got alot of real world experience and made some close friends that are now some of my best friends, so theres that.

I moved back home in early 2015 and got a job at a factory. An old friend kept telling me, "you gotta get back into school or you'll be a loser forever!" I listened like an idiot. In September of 2016, I quit my blue collar job and went to college for psychology.

March of 2017 I got a lawsuit. I was also starting to realize that school wasnt for me, I liked the blue collar life more. So I dropped out to go work at a factory and pay my debts. The lawsuit was 6 grand which is paid off now, the school was about 18,000.

I currently owe $14,000 from when I went for psych, and a little less than $5000 from when I went for video. I really have no interest in going back to school, but I want to start making some real money. I currently make $20 an hour, might not sound like much, but Im in a cheap area where my bills after rent come to $1200 a month.

I want to get into welding now. Its a 1 year program for a tech degree. I don't want to get into an apprenticeship through the union, too much hassle and commitment.

The problem is i'm terrible at math, completely terrible, like freshman highschool level is the best I can do. and a college math course is required. I dont want to go to school and get nothing out of it for the 4th time and im very weary, but i also want to learn how to weld.
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Archie Gennerfoot - Thu, 09 Aug 2018 15:07:19 EST ID:UlAQsiZR No.526034 Ignore Report Quick Reply
No, I just meant I don't know how to get into it. Seems like a great trade to be in.
Augustus Dassletick - Sat, 11 Aug 2018 13:35:00 EST ID:XF5YxyN/ No.526072 Ignore Report Quick Reply
There was a buddy of mine who kept failing his algebra courses. Some people don't math. I'm studying at nursing for the same reason, I want to travel although contract work is supposedly the pits. Talk to the guys at work who've welded and see how they did it. Ask about their worst jobs.
Hamilton Clullerfoot - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 21:46:04 EST ID:+1ykBe6C No.526094 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I've heard about scam for profit schools getting shut down. I think there's probably some kind of class action suit for students that got fucked over. Also other legit schools that will take some of the credits out of pity. Look into that shit OP.

OH Jesus by Emma Blythehall - Tue, 31 Jul 2018 21:15:58 EST ID:p8F58cXv No.525859 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>get in relationship with bomb girl
>were moving into together this month
>ding dong
>hello its the Chinese Olympic Training Federation please take this 175k salary position as a strength trainer for a select team
>given 3 days to decide
>will be living in china for 2 years
>dont want to leave girlfriend
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Angus Fiffingfatch - Sat, 04 Aug 2018 15:07:14 EST ID:9041791l No.525933 Ignore Report Quick Reply
American here Posting from China right now. You will have a great life and will not regret your decision to come. 175k$ a year would be absolutely rockstar status here especially considering that the exchange rate now is 6.5 yuan to the dollar. It would be the right choice even if it was just 175k yuan a year depending on where you live. Your entire life will change for the better and you will almost certainly have numerous girls who who will cater to what you want, be it casual hookups or a wife and kids. Without exaggeration 90% of Chinese locals treat foreigners with kindness, the other 10% don't say anything. I can tell you for fact that coming here has been the best decision I have ever made in my life, been here for more than 2 years now. Congratulations man, welcome.
Graham Sashwotch - Sun, 05 Aug 2018 05:25:25 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.525934 Ignore Report Quick Reply

2 paths - ride or die

Come to an arrangement where the two of you ride it out for 2 years. I'm sure if both of you agreed to two trips to see eachother, that's 4 meet ups a year. Then supplement contact with phone calls, video chat and messenger. Send gift packages back and forth to keep eachother sweet inbetween. Stack your cash for 2 years, return rich and with an interesting set of experiences under your belt whilst being given the space to have focused on it. Pick up shit where you left off.

No future. Maybe message her once you get back. Sorry man, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.

I suppose the third option is turn down the job. Clearly you are competent and employable enough to get some pretty hardcore job offers. More will come, this will pass, you get your love story.
Phyllis Crublinglock - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 13:42:09 EST ID:Qy3FigJL No.526092 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm assuming that you haven't updated us because you didn't buy a vpn before coming to China, so you can't post, right?

Sly Insults by Basil Claywill - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 01:22:34 EST ID:LPyo2MRT No.526080 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Tonight, someone made a "positive" comment about my appearance, except it was obviously a backhanded insult. Sarcasm/insulting, not genuine. Now, I might be an ugly motherfucker, but I'm not stupid. I can tell when someone is making fun of me. It made me feel bad and self-conscious. I wish she never said anything at all to me.

But the question is why? Why can't people just mind their own business instead of trying to put other people down? What do they get out of it?
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Walter Pommerbanks - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 08:18:34 EST ID:5OlhhPjl No.526086 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Attraction, i.e. what a person might consider sexy, is fairly subjective. Maybe mostly subjective.
Angus Goodforth - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 10:25:47 EST ID:jvGbfw/x No.526088 Ignore Report Quick Reply
people shit-test, that's how it is.
the purpose of a shit-test is to test your "frame", which is your general confidence how you carry yourself etc.
it's an evolutionary thing.
men do it to select you for their "tribe" (group of friends in modern times), women do it to select you as their partner. it's also just a habbit, she doesn't necessarily consider you a potential partner but would do this because shit-testing is part of her behavior.
just be aware of this, it's easier to handle when you realize what it is.
you to "pass" the test by showing you take no shit, that it doesn't bother you.
so in this case you should have said something like "fuck yeah, rocking the 90's nerd look" (idk about the details of you and the situation but the point is to show you're self-aware, you feel good with who you are, even if it's not true pretend it is).
Basil Claywill - Sun, 12 Aug 2018 12:13:06 EST ID:LPyo2MRT No.526090 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm self-aware, but I'm not confident about it. So you think I should just embrace it and be able to laugh at myself then? Easier said than done though.

Well. That was a thing. by Nicholas Blicklenutch - Fri, 10 Aug 2018 03:24:28 EST ID:Rc6WhEsE No.526046 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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> havent gotten laid in over a year
>Had multiple fiances, very much a "Lover" sort of guy.
>Peeking around on leolist just cause my buddy told me about it.
>"Well, maybe i can get a really nice massage and a blowjob."
>She's gonna prolly be a 2/10 but whatever. Call her, set it up, go to her apartment with 200$ and my keys on hand only.
>Hotter than anticipated, was a 9/10, kinda chick i could never score with. 34 DD tits and an ass bigger than most torso's.
>Pay 200$ for an hour, she has a nice clean apartment and a dog. Casually answers door in fishnets only.

Honestly, not the kinda guy to just go looking for sex or anything, i just wanted to experience i guess, sexual freedom. And i missed the romantic sex i had in the past with fiances.

>Get massaged for 30 minutes, have conversation about her quitting smoking and her life, how she started doing it and gaining some perspective. More interested in this than her, literally soft the entire time just enjoying conversation.
>Finally i look at her and ask if i can fondle her tits.
>Sure, just my only rule is no kissing.
>Get hard
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Matilda Ningerwell - Fri, 10 Aug 2018 10:13:08 EST ID:jhxT8BUJ No.526052 Ignore Report Quick Reply
yeah, she was being nice cus $200
sounds like you have waaay more problems than just fucking and cuming
Nicholas Blicklenutch - Fri, 10 Aug 2018 15:07:00 EST ID:Rc6WhEsE No.526054 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP back. After some bong hits last night and an intense fap session and a peaceful contemplation and some sleep.

Bit of a different opinion now.

It was an incredible confidence boost. And the Sexy Therapist correlation makes a lot of sense and is how i would describe the whole thing.

A little confused still, but eh. Shit happens. In ways, my only issue with this now is after a year and having this pornstar experience i sort of realized getting laid just isn't my priority.

I feel that it has eased my fears. But also showed me i'm looking for some nice person, that i miss taking somebody out. And i guess, makes me feel like in a few ways i have qualities and a personality that i just gotta expect there's somebody out there that wants my cheesy ass.

Not sure how i'm gonna figure that out, but this did make me feel like it might be worth trying again with somebody. I can see how a guy can go down this rabbit hole and just screw hookers but in my opinion, it's not really worth it, i think what made this all worth it was the fact itd been a year and it was a nice confidence boost.

Couldn't imagine getting a hotter chick. But realized that it's maybe only 5% of what i actually find attractive.

And if all else fails, i got the perfect images in my head for years of satisfying fapping.
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Matilda Cendlemick - Sat, 11 Aug 2018 13:29:17 EST ID:mvOpBSLj No.526071 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Some of my best hooker experiences have been where I didn't even blow a load. Yet walked away satisfied for the attention I got.

How do you meet women? by Caroline Drunnersare - Thu, 09 Aug 2018 22:30:53 EST ID:3iiv2Jrb No.526042 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I'm 27. Never dated/fucked a girl until a random hookup 4 months ago with a friend from IOP who I hadn't seen for 4 years. Casual bangs every month or so since then. Caught feelings for a minute since didn't understand the situation until a few weeks ago. Anyway I want to keep having sex and find other women to do so with. I don't drink/use anymore so bars are out of the equation and I don't work with any decent looking women who aren't attached to someone else. I've been using apps with limited success but would rather meet someone in person.
How do you guys meet women/any advice?
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Phoebe Tootstone - Sat, 11 Aug 2018 00:56:40 EST ID:jfR0c7UU No.526062 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Hang out at a college campus and casually hit them up. Legal age to fuck, and men ages 25-35 get LOADS of attention assuming you aren’t a wallflower. I did this before going back to college, and now? I just ask to hang out /study and get a bj by that night. Women 18+ fresh out of their parents custody looking to experience freedom. Can’t go wrong (unless she was really 16 or you do this in your 50’s)
Clara Wobblewell - Sat, 11 Aug 2018 11:13:15 EST ID:UlAQsiZR No.526069 Ignore Report Quick Reply
> I fair relatively alright on apps (average 1 match/week)
Pay for it. Youll do better.
Matilda Cendlemick - Sat, 11 Aug 2018 13:07:21 EST ID:mvOpBSLj No.526070 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Get a job in the food industry. So many, many, many women. And the hostess are always going to be eye candy. Sucks it doesn't pay good, otherwise I'd switch just for that reason.
Office jobs can pay good in the right industry. A good ratio of ladies.

Sucks that most good paying trade jobs are all sausage fests. We need to make a bigger push for women to enter more trades, just so we can dilute the problem down.


Shit. You've got pretty good luck then. I could usually never get more than a few back and forths of conversation. Other than some of the random girls that I've ran into that I already knew, but that doesn't really count. Since I already had their numbers to begin with.

There's a lot of ads for Events and Adventures for singles or something. Thinking of checking it out, if it's not retarded expensive.
That and maybe some of those group event meet up sites.
If nothing else, seems like fun just to go do random shit.

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