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420chan is Getting Overhauled - Changelog/Bug Report/Request Thread (Updated March 22)
"Betterhelp" by Kit - Tue, 26 Feb 2019 06:10:58 EST ID:VPGoW/is No.528211 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Can I sue those bastards that made the betterhelp commercial for giving me anxiety just to promote their anti anxiety program?
Kit - Tue, 26 Feb 2019 06:19:06 EST ID:VPGoW/is No.528212 Ignore Report Quick Reply
*Note if anyone uses this company thanks to my above message please give me 20% of your earnings doe the idea.
I think that's a fair price to ask.
Kit - Tue, 26 Feb 2019 06:20:19 EST ID:VPGoW/is No.528213 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Beatrice Tootgold - Tue, 26 Feb 2019 12:12:14 EST ID:ar75Y0S8 No.528216 Ignore Report Quick Reply
This is a legal question and should be asked on the legal board.

Please fucking help me by Nigel Dorrylock - Sat, 23 Feb 2019 21:31:35 EST ID:88pH+3QL No.528180 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Please help me, please. I thought it was the hair of the dog that i needed but it wasn't. Was it meds? No. I have no idea what the fuck is wrong with me. Please help me. I don't want to die, why do I want to die. I DONT WANT TO FUCKING DIE PLEASE GIVE ME SOME RELIEF THIS IS AWFUL. Please give me the stamina to get through this. I know I have the endurance to get through this. Please help me please, i didn't do anything to deserve this. I was trying to do the right thing please let me live I'll do anything please just let me live I'm stronger than this I can be stronger than this i know i can get through this. Thank you please i can learn my lesson i have to understand what this means and i have to do better i know i can its not so bad its not as bad as it felt a minute ago thank you
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Polly Brarrykock - Mon, 25 Feb 2019 01:58:15 EST ID:GI2Js8Jg No.528206 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Help yourself. You're all you have here mate. There's nothing I can do to help you, I'm a stranger on a message board. Even if we knew each other in real life, I couldn't help you. You are your only hope to survive, that's a personal battle. Whether or not you do is based on your will to live. If you want it, take it for yourself; living is a choice you have to make.
Fuck Beshhot - Mon, 25 Feb 2019 22:03:46 EST ID:aVIx2aXi No.528209 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Hey! Hey!!! Calm down. Take a deep breath. Focus on relaxing every muscle and force the calm all the way down to your toes. Don't let that voice repeat. Just be for a while. Embrace some silence and no movement. <3 I promise everything is okay
Hannah Cradgestone - Tue, 26 Feb 2019 01:04:22 EST ID:Lny7/LNo No.528210 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way,
Oh what fun it is to ride
In a one-horse open sleigh,
Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way,
Oh what fun it is to ride
In a one-horse open sleigh.

Dashing through the snow
In a one-horse open sleigh
Through the fields we go
Laughing all the way.
Bells on bob-tail ring
Making spirits bright
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Insomnia, anxiety, fucked up life, etc by Lillian Dricklepug - Thu, 21 Feb 2019 21:07:31 EST ID:iVyCQLW+ No.528154 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Any of you guys have tips on severe insomnia? I literally can't sleep at all, usually passing out about 48 hours awake, with panic and starting psychotic episode. I was a pretty bad benzo and alcohol abuser some time ago, but i'm clean now and i was able to sleep good for a good period of time after i cleaned up. But now i have several life issues, all my life is fucked up and i have to work 12 hours a day in the factory for shit tier money, which is only enough to buy shit tier food, utilities and other daily groceries, i don't even dream about being able to pay for housing.(renting a flat). My life is fucked up severely and i'm in so much anxiety that "pee comes from my arse" and my heart palpitates and i'm on the verge of panic attacks and psychosis all the time. I literally can't remember when was the last time when i slept more than 6 hours. I have to go to the factory to work 1,5 hours from now for 12 hours and i'm afraid i will fuck up working and losing the job or having a panic attack, i didn't slept more than 24 hours ago and even that was no more than 4 hours of sleep. I have shit tier medicine that isn't good for anything (quetiapine). And seems like i have to do this forever. I'm seriously considering to end it all. I'm having all kinds of problems like my teeth ache, despite i'm brushing them twice a day and eat almost no sugar. What the fuck should i do? The reason i have to work like a fucking slave is because i fucked up university and at the same time i: 1: have no degree of anything, 2: have to pay for university because i fucked up state-fellowship semesters 3: i don't have time for a normal full-time job because all of them require me to be there 5 days a week 8-16 and some of those days i have to be at the uni courses.

What the literal fucking fuck should i do my friends? I feel like i will do some absolute madman thing if this continues like this.
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Shitting Gimblesadge - Sun, 24 Feb 2019 15:12:58 EST ID:2cRqUGEL No.528201 Ignore Report Quick Reply
go to the doctor. This is genuinely serious medical issues. Insomnia is treated like it's just a symptom of anxiety, or is just you staying up of your own free will but if you have chronic insomnia this needs to be sorted. There is help you can get on uni funding (at least in the UK, idk where you are), there are ways out of this, even if those ways might be tough.

Strong meds may help briefly, but from this brief description, you definitely need a lifestyle change. I was in the same position. For final year of uni I got almost no student loan (literally £30 to live on for the entire year after rent) because my parents (who I didn't speak to at the time) earned just over the bracket. I had to work every weekend delivering pizzas, try to keep up with uni work I failed the year before, try to find time to feed myself and money to literally just survive. I did an all-nighter in the library more times than I could count. Every staff member knew me by name because I'd spend more time there than anywhere else. And then I crashed my car and literally everything came tumbling down and it fucked me entirely from there to the point where I spent two weeks unable to move due to anxiety, and looking back also probably psychosis.

Go to the doctors. As soon as possible. Don't just ask for meds, ask for letters you can give to your university to help you cope with the course, ask for CBT if it's possible, try to get help financially so you don't spend every waking moment working or studying, or stressing about work or study.
Beatrice Tootgold - Tue, 26 Feb 2019 12:14:20 EST ID:ar75Y0S8 No.528217 Ignore Report Quick Reply

What the fuck pseudoscience
Charlotte Simmleherk - Wed, 27 Feb 2019 10:32:04 EST ID:REHV0FS7 No.528236 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thanks for the replies guys i'll try your advices.

getting own home by Charles Pashshaw - Fri, 22 Feb 2019 21:48:41 EST ID:dJEw/uJZ No.528170 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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how do I move on with my life, move out of my parents' house? I live in the north east, and hate it. I'd rather be living out west in arizona, or maybe the pnw. I feel like the only way to move on and start my life is to just do it or else I'm going to be close to 30 still living in the attic of the house I've lived in all my life. It's not cool, idk is it? I feel like I'm the only one especially around here who has to make food, try to enjoy my hobbies and such with my parents still around, not a great feeling, you know, maybe 1 or 2 ppl can sympathize.

The thing is, I'm majorly into music and I've been spending a lot of time playing music. But that can't help me financially, it's only a hobby that eats up most of my time. I'm pretty frugal, I've been supporting myself in every sense, with the free room, for a while now just making 100-200 a month..

If I save up maybe 1000 dollars would it be feasible to find someone online who can rent me a small room or basement for like 300 tops? Am I being realistic? I just need the experience of living somewhere else, I've been stuck in some nasty patterns of depression and I think a change like that could help me. I took a trip to arizona recently and loved it, and I know I'd love living in the pnw, just not california.

Anyone else in the same boat want to talk about it? I never talk to anyone about wanting to move out, being ashamed of still living with my parents.. I just want to be independent..
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Nathaniel Greenfuck - Sat, 23 Feb 2019 21:29:33 EST ID:ux+4Rp+2 No.528179 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Like the other person said, you need more money. 1/3rd of your income should cover bills/food, 1/3rd should go into savings, and 1/3rd can be left over for whatever to buy things you want. That's just some random bullshit I've heard before. More realistically I would say 50% covers bills/food, 25% in savings, and 25% for whatever else.

But you need more money. Moving out will change your depressive patterns, but being at home with your parents isn't really the underlying issue. I know someone who's in the same boat as you, except they apparently don't seem worried about being trapped at their parents house because of their own lack of effort. You have an ambition to change and better yourself, and that's one of the most important things ever.

I believe you can do this. You'll need a full time job making at least minimum wage if you want to afford living with one or two roommates. Being at your parents would allow you the luxury of saving a couple of months worth of paychecks, which is a HUGE boon. I'll try to remember to check back and see if you reply with any progress.

Don't fret. Let me know if you have any specific questions. I've personally been living on my own for 8 years now, with various girlfriends, friends, or even by myself, so I have a little life experience to share.
Ben Cartwright - Sat, 23 Feb 2019 21:51:05 EST ID:hBEhmcBg No.528184 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I had to move back home because I didn't want the person I was living with to suddenly waltz in and find out I had offed myself, so while I'm getting back into extensive therapy I'm living with my parents. Spent a stupid amount of money at first, mainly on necessities like clothes and new glasses, but also bought a ps4 and some shit. Now that I got some shit, I mainly use money for food, guitar strings and bacco. And then I'm saving 1600 dollars a month, which is basically enough to rent a small apartment.

Personally I think I'm a fucking genius for moving home tbh, it's nice to have a false sense of security when I move out again. I think you should start thinking about the same OP, don't focus on getting out immediately, get a job, like whatever, and start being a Scrooge McDuck. Move forward a couple of months, you'll have savings enough to find a decent place, and bought some time so that you'll be able to look into different jobs instead of just going to the first slavemaster because you're afraid you'll get evicted for lack of payment first month.
Also, when people ask you where you live and you feel awkward about it, just say that you're living at home saving up money to move out, because you want to be sure that you're financially secure enough to be able to work on your music for a while when you move to Arizona, people respect that :)
Ben Cartwright - Sat, 23 Feb 2019 22:04:36 EST ID:hBEhmcBg No.528185 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Not saying I don't relate tho, I'm going FUCKING crazy myself. But it really helps keeping my eye on the price, if you're doing good you might even be able to travel a little bit between states and see if you can find the perf place to be!

Void by Hedda Blythefoot - Sat, 23 Feb 2019 19:38:26 EST ID:3CwKFaQe No.528178 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I just need the occasional void to shout into and this is the spot. Haven't been here in years, I just need to shout profanities.

All my teachers told me if I didn't go to school I couldn't get as far as my peers that did, yet here we all are crushed against the same glass ceiling all looking for a crack. They said I would be dead by 18, more lies from the American public school system.

White doctors are the Asian drivers of medicine.

If you would rather sell your plasma than let the workers you directly supervise start a union when working for the richest company on the planet is the ultimate wild stallion move.

If I forget to sign for the fact I signed 1 vial of homeless person blood I don't hear the end of it for a week but an emergency room doctor cutting a burst legion on the side of your head will argue with you and tell you that isn't his job if you ask them to test the pus they are pushing out from right next to your brain with all their body weight.

Redneck yuppies are worse than both rednecks or yuppies. Pick a lane you irritating fuck.

Choosing to not adopt modern ass hose technology and consciously choosing instead to mat their feces into their asshair with something they have to buy on a regular basis shows how blindly dedicated to corporate interests diametrically opposed to our own self interests the American public is. The paper industry has you in their pocket people, making weed illegal was just a ruse. Bidet all day.

That is all, thank you.

is ethical non-monogamy actually a thing? by Jarvis Shakeham - Tue, 30 Oct 2018 16:04:40 EST ID:OhXZg5XK No.527501 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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because yeah, i get all the theory. everything looks good enough on paper. but in practice i have only seen it fuck up peoples lives/ relationships.
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Frederick Simmerweck - Fri, 14 Dec 2018 07:01:27 EST ID:USUZpST+ No.528147 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'd go with not doing anything about it. You love her, she loves you back, you don't need to bang all the time or run away together. What else do you need? You love your family, don't you? Your friends? You can be non-sexually physically affectionate with them can't you? Provided you don't get greedy and actually betray your partners, I don't see why you can't just get along happily.
!scyTheNg3k - Wed, 20 Feb 2019 22:06:12 EST ID:rIosAB57 No.528149 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Ethical does not imply practical. It might be ethical to give all of your money away to charity. It usually isn't considered a good idea. And it definitely isn't any fun.

What isn't ethical but nonetheless tends to be endorsed and practiced by "ethical" polyamorists is when someone manipulates/threatens their partner who would prefer a monogamous relationship into accepting an open relationship. Pretty much nobody actually likes open relationships so poly types often choose to do this, with typically disastrous results.
Cedric Perringshit - Sat, 23 Feb 2019 03:34:29 EST ID:GpnyD+Rs No.528172 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Ethics don't exist independent of class character and material circumstance.

Death or glory by Emma Bebberville - Sat, 25 Aug 2018 20:15:27 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526349 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Anybody ever worry if it's too late to live an inspired life? Is there a wave that we can miss? I feel like I may want to commit suicide if that's the case
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Charlotte Fivingwell - Tue, 11 Sep 2018 11:29:59 EST ID:cM+TFQKr No.526633 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I agree with this post. nothing's more rewarding in life than seeing your son grow up well. if I managed raised my kids in such a way that they don't crave constant attention and approval from strangers, I'd be pretty fucking proud of myself.
jist - Fri, 22 Feb 2019 21:48:39 EST ID:smsM7AFC No.528169 Ignore Report Quick Reply
find the courge to grow (song). its not a wave but sort of an idea that induisis passion in life, you can be a piece of shit not wanting to be anything but a regular pigion holding a job. this is what some are scared of to not make their own pursiuit of happniess wiether it be bringing infromation to one another to creating somthing thats depicts the modern age for yourself that people can or want to relate to. a craft, hobby, or just a way of living. the fundmentals of being in the mode to make somthing for yourself or others. now as far as suicide i think its a stupid concept we have enough things to atleast fix you or find things that inspire others that can change their life or find sintamentallity in. its like this if you see somone not making somthing of them selfs be their lighthouse to shine out into making their own light man. once you understand death IS the only thing thats garrenteed it wont stop you from making your own happiness man. read a book on this stuff and help yourslef and others out dood
Sidney Pidgelodge - Sat, 23 Feb 2019 06:09:28 EST ID:ffVpGLbu No.528173 Ignore Report Quick Reply
QQ is one of the boards where dredging up an old thread probably is a "necro" OP won't see this or resolved their problems or they haven't absorbed the thread by now and were never going to. Is this a poorly written markov bot? Can the coder please make it not dredge up threads when shitposting on /qq/? Thanks. nb

Where do I go from here by Phineas Billingstone - Fri, 22 Feb 2019 00:10:35 EST ID:zax3ipf6 No.528157 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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2019 started off terribly for me... New Year's Eve on of my best friends died of a heroine overdose ( i didn't even know that he was using, I still fucking pissed off at him he was like my brother, he was a fairly successful bar owner) On top of that after taking time of work to grieve ,3 days),my manager took me off a class that I was scheduled to teach citing that I was no longer reliable I put in my notice.
I taught SCUBA diving and honestly I loved what I did but the industry is pretty fucked up. I worked 10 to 12 hours a day 6 or 7 days a week to barely make ends meat and from what I hear from others in the same industry it is pretty much like that everywhere. Given the conditions I was teaching in are by no means tropical doing what I loved was almost enough. I was on the brink of quitting anyway and my friends death served as a catalyst.
The very next weekend my Grandmother passed away, in my younger years she saved me from suicide we were very close. However, i had spent so much time focusing on my career i hadn't seen her in 5 years. I have a few good friends one of them offered me a job a the same bar my deceased friend co-ownded, I took it but being in that building hurt me so much emotionally that I had to walk out tonight. I have spoke with other people but its just the same platitudes that people always offer. I had though I conquered depression and achieved so much but now I sit here a my moms house a broken shell of a person wondering if I have the strength to ever rebuild and move on. My heart is broken and my world is shattered. I havent came on this board in close to 8 years or a chan board in general. I see all the other posts currently up and I feel like I let all the 420channers from the day down.

For everyone going through the girl stuff and the anxiety stuff just know it gets easier. It just takes work for getting out of your comfort zone. I did it. It got better I was happy but it was like watching a razor's edge.
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Hedda Suddlefoot - Fri, 22 Feb 2019 00:34:41 EST ID:rSf6zVo9 No.528160 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Grief is a bitch man. There's nothing anyone can say really. It's only what you want to feel.

No one wants to feel like shit all the time but I mean do you want to feel like your friend and grandma are still with you now as spirits? Or in some other universe you're all having a drink together? Are you going to meet in the afterlife or are their energies scattered until they become trees and birds? Will you become stronger from knowing them or are you going to be a husk? Those ideas can seem to be an insult or they can bring some kind of comfort. Human condition.

Shits hard. Feel and decide what it all means. You're not fucking up.

It's not depression yet.
David Chickledock - Fri, 22 Feb 2019 11:56:34 EST ID:USUZpST+ No.528162 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah man that's a lot of recent hurt, it's to be expected that it's still going to suck. You're far from finished though.
Cedric Bardgold - Fri, 22 Feb 2019 19:03:18 EST ID:acdpEDOJ No.528166 Ignore Report Quick Reply
A lot of shit happened in a short period of time? did you expect to be okay?

Just try not to let your life go down the toilet entirely. Try to keep your head above the water and then when that's not in question start thinking about how to move forward. Your grief will take a long time to process but it's a burden that will get lighter but also your ability to carry it will increase. I've found accepting you'll be okay eventually but not right now is probably the best attitude towards your misery. It will diminish in time but don't expect anything more solid than that.

Struggle with women but loss and bullshit is something I've seen a lot of. I didn't handle it all perfectly honestly but maybe if you can even take a little of what I learned then that'd be great. Everyone has regrets and makes bad judgments and mistakes unless they're really fucking lucky.

Where to meet dateable women? by Charlotte Dellerford - Wed, 12 Dec 2018 08:42:18 EST ID:ZBd6lcme No.528097 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Where does one find dateable women? I spend all my time at work, at home on the computer, or out biking. I have to go elsewhere to find them, obviously, but where? (Btw, don't tell me to try to find a woman at work. All the women at work are old, fat, married, and/or incompatible culturally/religiously (wears a hijab, barely speaks english, etc).)

I admit that I've never had a serious relationship. I've been told to find someone who shares my interests, but is that actually important? Thinking about it, I'd rather have a relationship with a quiet, calm woman who likes, say, keeping centipedes as pets, than a loud, crazy woman who likes programming and biking. Furthermore, just because they share your interests doesn't mean they share your values. What's a man to do?
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Hugh Blatherridge - Fri, 14 Dec 2018 07:13:02 EST ID:ZBd6lcme No.528148 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>In terms of compatibility it sounds like... well you don't really want answers but confirmation of your pre existing opinion really.
I don't want confirmation, because I wasn't asking about it. I was asking about where to meet dateable women, not how/why to expand what I consider dateable.

>Still I'm going to offer mine in the hope I'm wrong: There's a middle ground.
>You need to have some things in common so you can enjoy time spent together and you need to have values and general priorities well aligned. There will be conflict no matter how alike you are but being completely different is asking for trouble. Someone who will push you gently out your comfort zone sometimes is good in moderation. Someone who goes and does their own thing keeps their mystery too. If you hold radically different values and will not compromise or question (either of you) them or if you have totally different natures it will be unlikely you'll last very long. The loud girl might drag you constantly to parties and always want to go to shitty clubs where they can't even get playing chart music cheese shit right and never enjoy a quiet night chatting with friends or maybe she'll occasionally drag you out dancing or to a cool party but be able to enjoy the quieter nights.
>It's not a case of one or the other. There's usually only one way you know the real measure of all but the most extreme people and that's to give them a chance. And to find someone who'll do the same for you probably thins the herd quite considerably anyway. And if you're signalling right it thins it to a group slanted to be more like you.
I appreciate your response. I'll try be more open to experiences that I wouldn't normally do.

>Where to actually meet them is beyond me though.

>People who say it gets easier as you get older are full of shit.
I am somewhat "older", and I agree. Back in university I had so much time to hang out, and it was so easy to do so with friends and friends of friends. (Furthermore, everybody is about your age and unmarried!) Now that I'm working full time, I have less time, most of my university friends have …
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Sophie Claystock - Thu, 21 Feb 2019 15:27:58 EST ID:hqnA/Xhn No.528151 Ignore Report Quick Reply
join a cycle club? volunteer somewhere offering free bike maintenance classes and make friends with the other volunteers and possibly date them??

interests are important because you can't just walk up to someone and say "let's spend forever together" you have to talk about something so you can see if you click
Wesley Hushgold - Fri, 22 Feb 2019 10:26:09 EST ID:ZeT1Hol+ No.528161 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Just find someone youd actually be realy good friends with either way that you can crush on and fuck

Welcome Back by Mintzs !GD3wBpep0Y - Thu, 21 Feb 2019 12:48:10 EST ID:d5kHsYag No.528150 Report Reply Quick Reply
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Same as before people, if you are having any problems, come talk to us!
Phineas Cillyshit - Thu, 21 Feb 2019 18:30:44 EST ID:GdChDXkH No.528153 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I hate my job. I have this constant feeling that I could be doing waaaay better, but nobody ever gives me an opportunity to prove myself. On top of that, I can't stop thinking that my coworkers are but peasants. I have no friends but even if I had, I have no free time since I work six days a week. I have no hobbies and I feel I'm gradually turning old (turning 27 soon), having no life experiences and no important achievements whatsoever.
Graham Lighthood - Thu, 21 Feb 2019 21:20:18 EST ID:MnhSzLT7 No.528156 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Just smoke a lot of cigarettes like me and hopefully we wont have to live to be like 90 or something.

I think... by Jarvis Duckcocke - Sun, 09 Dec 2018 00:13:19 EST ID:EDcy2Khy No.528034 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have some issues with self esteem. I kind of need a thread to vent and just write shit out i guess. Im trying to work on it, have been looking into self help recently. I am trying commit to meditation but its not the easiest.
Like right now i was wondering why i feel this need to be part of a big social group when actually i dont want to be part of it. Why do i feel such a need to be included? I am just trying to be conscious of my emotions and feelings. I feel like i have everything i need to be happy at the moment but still i am not enjoying it and i feel lonely as hell. I have plenty of people around me but they are boring as hell to me for some reason and just tiring to be around. I dont really want to give too much detail of what im doing and where i am but its basically its shared accommodation for work and im living with a big group of twenty somethings. Theres next to no privacy and i feel like ive built up this wall around me to not let anything in, but actually i barely know my inner self. I feel like ive been distracting myself with shit. Boring stuff like shit video games, youtube, masturbation, chan sites, weed, porn. Sometimes i like it but right now it also seems that im forced to be with myself and i hate it. I guess accepting yourself without judgement is the best way forward.
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Shitting Blythestock - Wed, 12 Dec 2018 14:36:02 EST ID:M+35kcYu No.528104 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Im not a big believer but yes, i am pisces, bday end of february.
John Sebberdale - Thu, 13 Dec 2018 01:33:28 EST ID:O739WB4J No.528124 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>self help and pop psych
>not the domain of hipsters
top lol nb
Ernest Pellybick - Fri, 14 Dec 2018 05:18:44 EST ID:LxgzPLXv No.528145 Ignore Report Quick Reply
About 5 days later. I think im dealing better with my personality, i accept myself more, im not so different from other people but maybe im not the hero i want to be either. Do i even want to be? Again, i just feel myself longing for a social group, maybe just a good friend. Should i just be myself? What is the self? If its just my nature im just a bit of an introverted guy, maybe destined to be alone because of the way my brain works. I have a bit of social anciety probably, which i could work on but i dont think i can change myself radically, only progressively and that requires more than working on the personality which shows itself in these situations. Maybe there is no self, just instants of an apparently continuous human being. Time has shortened to an anxiously short term frame. Is this living in the moment or ignoring the future, maybe im just not 22 anymore and i havent realised it. Maybe life here is just shit the way it is, maybe there is a better place to be, better way to be. Introversion means that being around a big group of people drains me, i need time to recharge from socialisation. I should just respect that amd not try to hide.

Stream of consciousness feels good enough

ocd by Hamilton Dreddlebane - Fri, 14 Dec 2018 02:12:24 EST ID:ZNiUUzn9 No.528142 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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how the fuck do i help my obsessive compulsive disorder?

also anyone know the story behind this meme? is this real life? i wasn't around when it was a meme...my ocd wants to know
Lydia Bruffingwell - Fri, 14 Dec 2018 04:41:30 EST ID:MNHclNNX No.528143 Ignore Report Quick Reply
are you actually obsessive-compulsive, or are you one of those people that mistakes being impulsive and being also rather compulsive in nature as being OCD? I ask because there is a difference between the two nearly as distinct as night and day.

In one case, you feel a desire to do or know something and not being able to do or know it bothers you, case closed. In the other, you feel a desire to do or know something, and not being able to do or know it is tantamount to the world ending. Not doing or knowing whatever it is means you are going to die, or even something worse. At times, there's never even a desire to do or know something, you just do it or pursue knowing it before enough time is allowed for the self-reflection required to become aware of needing to do or know it is possible. In other words, with the former, you have poor self-control and/or poor mastery over your emotions, emotional reactions, and desires. With the latter, you are obsessively and compulsively compelled to act a certain way, or else... and else is never an option. You act on it, period.

The reason I ask is because the methods of overcoming or (in the case of legit OCD) coping with it are entirely different. With OCD, you see a psychiatrist or specialist of some kind along with a therapist, and work with them about things (whether it's talking or medication). With anything else, the you can choose to see a psych/specialist of some kind and/or a therapist if you want, as well as take medication to treat it, but it isn't necessary. The biggest difference here is that with it not being legit OCD, behavioral modification becomes possible (or at least successful results, anyway), along with attitude and world outlook adjustments, and there actually exists hope of even not having to be so compulsive all the time any more and becoming pretty well-adjusted/normal/healthy. With OCD, the only behavioral modification that is going to help any will pretty much be made by the people who help take care of the person with OCD, so that the worst triggers for the patient can be avoided.

Don't know anymore by Wesley Domblehun - Tue, 11 Dec 2018 22:07:44 EST ID:PMiKxfAC No.528082 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I honestly feel like my heart has turned into ice and it's hard as stone. I have no love for anyone anymore because I feel so disconnected from reality and people. My life has been nothing but a black hell I've been trapped in since I was born. Nothing good has come out of anything I've tried to do for myself to improve upon my life. I don't even know who I am anymore. I become darker and darker as time passes. I don't love my own mother anymore even. I was physically abused for years until I had a nervous breakdown at 16yrs old and was diagnosed with full blown schizophrenia and depression. Things have just gotten worse for me over the years since then. I don't think I'll ever be able to recover from what the abuse did to my heart and mind. I feel so lonely and unwanted. Sometimes I wish I was never born and my mom did have a miscarriage with me like she almost did when she was pregnant with me. Why the fuck am I even here?

You guys are the only people I talk to period since I have no friends. You people are the only ones who I feel I can relate to. Other than that, I have nothing left in my heart except for darkness and hatred. I cant do anything to fix this. I've tried getting help and nothing seems to work.

Can someone help me?
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Molly Sibberstock - Thu, 13 Dec 2018 04:43:19 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.528129 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>I dropped out of school because I was bullied

Molly Sibberstock - Thu, 13 Dec 2018 13:17:21 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.528135 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>I don't think I'll ever be able to recover
>I feel so lonely and unwanted

Molly Sibberstock - Thu, 13 Dec 2018 14:34:09 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.528136 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>Why the fuck am I even here?


Welcome home.

my personal issue by Nicholas Fishpidge - Mon, 10 Dec 2018 06:16:53 EST ID:WcunFWgg No.528057 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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i came here to read about other peoples situations as a way to put everything into perspective. not to mock or insult or "feel better about myself" but to see what other people are dealing with, out of curiousty and misery wanting company

theres bullshit about girls and dating. Don't give a FUCK about that. so this baord is failing me. Help !
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Graham Trotwell - Wed, 12 Dec 2018 17:05:20 EST ID:WcunFWgg No.528109 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i feel you

appreciate your effort but not a fan of your posts
Alice Clunnernirk - Thu, 13 Dec 2018 02:49:20 EST ID:U99A5Mm4 No.528126 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I did read a lot of books but I cant abide pure philosophy. The purely philosophical shit was like myth of sisyphus and meditations of Marcus aurelius, but also a lot of fictional shit like dostoyevsky, satre, and a few gulag/ concentration camp accounts. But yeah basic stuff.
Ian Brandlespear - Thu, 13 Dec 2018 10:41:11 EST ID:WcunFWgg No.528133 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I would add EM Cioran to that list, hes one of my favs in that category

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