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I licked and rubbed my genitals against my Mom's feet when I was younger

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- Sun, 22 Sep 2019 17:54:42 EST gOXD9Pcj No.531857
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When I was 13 I was still sleeping in the same bed as my mom. At some point I started licking her feet when I thought she was asleep. It wasn't long before I started masturbating as I was doing it. It became a frequent practice over the several months this lasted. At first I would strategically pick times when she was drunk so that she wouldn't notice or wake up. As time went on though, I got more and more sloppy. I would do it even when she was sober. I wasn't even trying to be much careful anymore. I would wait to hear her snore and I would keep asking her if she was sleeping yet. If she told me no then I would wait some more and ask again until I heard no reply.

On several occasions she was awake or at least got awoken. One time she prevented me from doing it by moving her feet back and forth really fast, to keep them away from my reach. I chased them for a minute hoping she would keep still. She didn't so I eventually gave up for that night.

After cumming I would always experience a lot of shame and found the whole thing disgusting. So I would spit on the carpet when I was done. One time she heard me and asked why I was spitting. I told her I had a hair in my mouth, to which she merely replied "Okay" without confronting me further.

The final step was masturbating while rubbing my genitals against her soles and between her toes. I had OCD and a voice told me if I didn't do it I would get bullied really bad during gym class the next day at school. That kind of justified doing it in the moment. I don't remember how many times or how long I did that for, but not for very long. I would think 2 or 3 times over a couple weeks. Shortly after that I stopped touching her feet altogether. Around one year later as she was drunk on the couch, I masturbated while glancing at her feet. I didn't cum. I sneakily took pictures of her feet but deleted them later that night, feeling very ashamed.

Every time I think about it, it's like a nightmare that I pray I can wake up from. But this is real and irreversible. I feel like the worst human being that's ever existed. I live in constant fear of being found out for who I really am. I want to hide from the entire world, and I do. Karma got me good because now I am so messed up I can't form a bond with anyone. I have no friends anymore, barely ever did. I'm emotionally distant to my family. At 32 I only ever had one relationship which was a mess. I was unable to get intimate with her both emotionally and physically. Again I constantly feel like I'm acting like a nice guy which is nothing but a cover. I'm on disability for bipolar among other things. Since I can't work right now I'm back at my mom's place. She's the only person I got left and does a lot for me which makes me feel guilty. I eat dinner with her and do a bit of chit chat here and there when I see her, but that's it. We both have always acted like nothing ever happened. I don't think I can ever forgive myself. I wish she would have stopped me so bad. I resent her for not doing anything about it. I swear I would have stopped. I wouldn't be this horrible person.
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Molly Hocklewin - Sun, 22 Sep 2019 22:25:43 EST DEG8JTSI No.531865 Reply
>>531861
I often give this advice to people:
If you hate something, and you actually have the power to change it and you choose to not change it - then I never fucking want to hear you complain about your situation in life.

You could fix this, but you're wallowing in self-pity. Grow up. You'll still be 'that person' until you get some goddamned help. And it's certainly not on your mother for not stopping you, that's all you bud.

Get. Help.
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Augustus Crunkinmut - Mon, 23 Sep 2019 01:22:12 EST 888281Kn No.531867 Reply
>>531857

She asked you why you were spitting. After you usednher feet to jerk yourself off. Your spit isnt what woke her up.

You entered into a sexual relationship with your mother at a young age. An acloholic woman, sleeping in the same bed as her teenage son sends up a red flag of incest, even before you realize she continued to sleep in the bed, even after awakening to you licking her feet. It sounds like sexual abuse.

Incest happens a lot more than you might think. What you written here doesn't make you a bad person
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Phoebe Chodgelock - Mon, 23 Sep 2019 10:02:41 EST tR57carO No.531868 Reply
>>531865
Calm yourself, lol... Getting cartoonishly angry at strangers on the internet isn't a good look.

What would you do?

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- Sun, 22 Sep 2019 10:21:31 EST Ii08on6m No.531850
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I have several problems with my skin. I can't be in the sun, but I also can't be in the cold because when I move from a cold environment (outside) to a warm environment (indoors with heating, for instance) I have a severe reaction.

I know the only possibility for me to live a somewhat normal life is to move to a country with a year round warm climate and live at night, basically.

I'm not really asking for advice. I just feel like it's a big hurdle to jump. Anyway thanks for listening.
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Hamilton Crenkinhon - Sun, 22 Sep 2019 11:55:58 EST tR57carO No.531851 Reply
That sucks man... You ever get high and jack off?
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Shit Nerrynick - Sun, 22 Sep 2019 13:17:15 EST XHgC+rDf No.531854 Reply
>>531850
Ah, me too. I get physically ill from UV exposure and have temperature regulation problems that can lead to all kinds of stuff. I do basically go out at night, and I have a very fancy sunscreen collection and use wash-in sun protection powder on all my clothes. Plus sunglasses, umbrellas, and UV index tracking apps.

You very much get used to it, and you look forward to fall and its mild temps and low UV levels. Good luck frand

lyin ass hoe

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- Mon, 09 Sep 2019 20:39:04 EST Y/IBjRot No.531622
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>have female friend
>Not super close, went to a music festival with her and a group of friends once, thought she was pretty cool tho
>She starts dating this dude last winter
>meet him maybe 5 times, he seems pretty chill
>he gets to know some of my friends, eventually gets in at my work
>Start working with him daily, hes a good guy but the epitome of beta
>out of shape, does nothing but complains all day long about everything, liberal, games alot on his free time, talks about how in love his is w his girlfriend

Now I see his girl on tinder. Should I tell him? I'm thinking no. He won't believe me anyways and it will just cause drama. He's a good dude but I think he's clueless about this kinda shit, and he has to find out the hard way, just like I did and so many others though. He deserves to know.

I didnt screenshot it but I should have.

and no, i'm not going to fuck her. I'm not attracted to her in the slightest and even if I was. I've always wanted to be a player, but theres some things that are just inappropriate and off limits.
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Cornelius Nomblenot - Wed, 18 Sep 2019 17:46:50 EST JCATCBbz No.531801 Reply
You should tell him you fuckwad. Wouldn't you want to know if your girlfriend was tryna get some tindr dick on the side?
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David Bundale - Fri, 20 Sep 2019 08:07:43 EST arJ9K9Yx No.531826 Reply
>>531622
Just to clarify I canceled my tinder and reactivated years later to a lot in my inbox and realized my profile must have been active when I wasn’t even on it.

gewa

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- Tue, 10 Sep 2019 23:37:25 EST XG4SjYIg No.531646
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Damn dude. I wake up with apocalyptic world ending depression. I hit snooze 4-10 times every day. I leave bed and climb through the heaps of clothes into the aisles of our apartment decorated by my high tier hoarder of a mother. She's sick and diabetic so I have to get her breakfast - navigating the kitchen isn't an option. I also have to feed my unemployable, depressed younger brother. Sometimes I cry in the shower, like actual sobbing just loud enough that it almost cant be heard over the water. Sometimes I don't shower because I don't care.

My job is quite easy - mainly cleaning shit thats 90% clean already. 50% of the time I'm just trying my best to look busy. Everyone at the job respects me and treats me decently, to my face anyway. Except 1 guy who strives to make my life hell. He fears I will take his job and he envies me. Just short of setting me up to fail, he accuses me of every trifling thing under the sun, and tells on himself constantly. Anyone who even knows what psychology is could see that he epitomizes the concept of "projecting" - making way left field remarks that expose what he thinks of himself. I don't want his fucking job. He allows himself to be treated like a slave and they are trying to do the same to me if I don't speak up for myself.

My actual boss is incredibly nice guy, but so awkward to talk to and be around that I can't stand to let him down or quit. Why would I quit a decent paying, easy mode job? I can usually keep that one guy off my ass with some simple psychology, but the burning holes in the back of my head and pouncing every little mistake I make is still irksome.

The complication - I have been constently in therapy for more than half of my life, dealing with my neglected childhood + abusive relationships. I have done just about everything. I have the skills and wisdom to not dare discount the progress I made. Part of me fears that I have lowered my expectations too much for treatment and time was wasted. And that is the root of the problem. My biggest existential problem that drives my eternal depression locomotive. I want my pain to not be for nothing. I want some magical being to part the sky, quantify my suffering with a calculation, and present to me some reward that would make everything up till now worthwhile.

Meanwhile, after feeding my family more fast food, I come home in the evening, and play video games. Desperate to escape to a world where the damage we receive is quantified. It can be mitigated, avoided, or dealt with. Ive yet to see a game where we struggle to hide our low health and willpower from our own allies.

I don't know. I'm flirting with nihilism. I just had to get that out. In a few minutes I'm going to check my phone to see if I was fired for calling out of work - I couldn't pull myself together this morning.

Thanks for letting me vent I guess.
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Jenny Hazzlenot - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 00:05:24 EST 2dpbGRKS No.531647 Reply
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move out
nice album
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Martin Duckwell - Sat, 21 Sep 2019 01:51:25 EST zXYjKqIG No.531837 Reply
> I want some magical being to part the sky, quantify my suffering with a calculation, and present to me some reward that would make everything up till now worthwhile
When i catch myself aimlessly going through my phone sometimes I wish their was a website called yourlife.com that could show me what I should be doing instead of wasting time. But then I realize that's egocentric and I could die tomorrow and most certainly regret it even though suicide is a romantic fantasy of mine and I try to transmute that negativity into something unique and tangible to further myself. What I do when I'm feeling dull is go into nature and try to reach higher states of existence in sober meditation.
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Eugene Gosslechut - Sat, 21 Sep 2019 08:21:36 EST jTGkEsHU No.531838 Reply
>>531837
What have you put effort into to improve your mental health?

My breakup.

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- Fri, 20 Sep 2019 23:33:13 EST UuASd/Tk No.531833
File: 1569036793950.jpg -(59318B / 57.93KB, 848x564) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. My breakup.
My girlfriend had just started a new job. I was so proud of her. I never got to see her anymore because of her hours. I received a text from her. In it she told me that she was a bad person, that she had cheated on me. She said I deserved better. I tried everything to convince her that she wasn't. She did not come home that night.

I said that we should at least try couples therapy. She agreed to go to an emergency appointment I scheduled with my therapist. In this appointment she told me that she loved me and that I was a great guy. She confessed that she had been cheating on me for the past three months with several partners that she had met over Tinder. I was completely devastated.

She believes she has a sex addiction and that she needs to address these problems separated from me. This happened on August 8th.

I am dealing with it but have been completely zoned out. She got her own apartment and I let her come by to pack up her things while I was at school. I continue to respect her boundaries. I would be lying if I said I wasn't going through a self-destructive phase between now and when this happened. I've been numbing my pain with a lot of drinking and have been going through through the different stages of grief.

I almost convinced myself to download Tinder but I stopped short. I am getting to the acceptance stage and I want to continue to process this breakup with my therapist before I put myself out there.
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Jenny Dreffingfoot - Sat, 21 Sep 2019 00:59:33 EST wIKq1PyM No.531835 Reply
Any girl that would cheat doesn't love you and never did, now you can take that two ways. You can consider it a blessing she showed her true colors and you didn't end up marrying her or worse dumping a child in her and being bound forever to that shit. Or you can be a mopey faggot and worry about what some woman who doesn't give a fuck about you is doing. I'm not going to tell you to get back out there and try to fuck but you have to let her go if you want to make progress on healing yourself. Never ever take a scandalous cheating ho back ever. You'll be good just watch how much you're drinking and make sure you are taking care of yourself first.
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Rebecca Buckleshaw - Sat, 21 Sep 2019 01:28:42 EST lOgPoSCR No.531836 Reply
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>>531833
she was right. she's a bad person

now shit down her throat with success, have make up sex and make her feel as empty as you felt when you found out. dont feel bad what's the difference anyway shes gonna feel that way either way after smanging another guy.
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Martin Demmerridge - Sat, 21 Sep 2019 08:26:44 EST znvZPHVt No.531840 Reply
>>531835
People cheat for reasons but it's never the right choice. The extent OP's partner cheated and the options she had available then yeah I agree. I think there may be cases where if the person cheated on can say "I can still trust you again one day" it might be worth finding out why the cheating happening, sorting that out and healing the relationship. But this is no where near such a case and even then it would rely on those feelings and even if you drop the hatred and resentment I'm not sure how many people can truly trust after cheating, especially someone as massively trangressive as this.

OP. Dump her. move on. Take Jenny's advice. She never discussed this. She could have brought this up worked out what it was these strangers give her that she doesn't get and if there's a way to get it without fucking another guy and if there isn't then consider changing the terms of the relationship (or ending it if that's incompatible with OP. I know I would have to let a partner go if they needed polygamy or an open relationship)

befriending a female

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- Fri, 13 Sep 2019 17:06:35 EST 67oTrBBI No.531694
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I know it's a very broad question and that it comes naturally to most, but I'd really appreciate some pointers, specially from the ladies of the board.

Can a dude ask a woman to go eat a burger or watch a movie without romantic implications?

How do I even approach her so as to not fuck this up?

Should I even try to do so while carrying the burden of a white-hot burning infatuation?

I say hi to her and we have several mutual acquaintances but that's about it, there has never been a single actual conversation or anything.

In case you need background about me I've been a shut-in my entire life and have always had trouble relating to people in general, but more importantly I literally have zero experience of any kind with women, seriously, I'm a level 31 kissless wizard.

I've had an insanely intense crush for her for at least the past 6 months, and prior to that it had already happened about 2 years ago when she was new at the company, but I realistically know I don't stand a chance and I'm 80% sure she's into another guy anyway.
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Archie Tootbanks - Fri, 20 Sep 2019 10:45:21 EST UazQZPcT No.531828 Reply
OP gonna rape some girl he hasn't even done anything but say hey to.
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Hannah Mammlelock - Fri, 20 Sep 2019 11:19:29 EST WMON++jb No.531829 Reply
>>531819
That's fantastic... What do you think she's like during sex? Do you think she takes control?
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Shitting Mickleson - Fri, 20 Sep 2019 14:30:20 EST DGoOj1Bf No.531830 Reply
If she is hot as hell, it would be very hard if not impossible to have a completely platonic interaction, not only because of what she expects from guys, but because you would feel the sexual dynamic in the relationship anyway, which would simply translate in your words and body language, actions. Your mind wouldn't be able to ignore the elephant in the room. Unless you are pro actor and want a fake relationship. If you feel sexually about the person, you don't have to act on it explicitly especially if the person indicates that she isn't open to that dynamic, but don't feel apologetic for how you feel, if you start being apologetic about who you are it's a surefire way to sell yourself out and loose all self asteem. Be curtious and humble, but it's no one's business who you are on the inside, it's one land where you do whatever you want and be whoever you dare or imagine, don't sell 1 share of that land anon. But just as you would like respect from others in this regard, respect the others as well, if she doesn't like you or just doesn't like you sexually respect her attitude, she is entitled to it just like you are entitled to finger her in your mind. I mean she may like you, but if you view that as a necessity you have lost before the battle.

Confessing feelings for other people to your significant other

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- Wed, 18 Sep 2019 08:05:41 EST seDwlbfD No.531789
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What’s up guys. I have a really stupid long relationship problem for you. If you want to read all this cool. Otherwise ok.

Been in a long distance relationship with this girl for four years. We are both 27. We live 120 miles apart, about an hour and forty-five minute drive. Over these past four years we had typically alternated driving to see each other, spending about 2-4 days together on average every two weeks. We text throughout the day and talk on the phone for about an hour any night we are apart.

I love this girl. She is hot, intelligent, funny, but utterly insane in a myriad of ways. She is oddly selfish and unwilling to make sacrifices or ever do anything she doesn’t want to do. I am the one who puts ~80% of the work into the relationship and make compromises often. She has a huge ego and frequently talks about how hot or amazing she is (fucking weird). She is FANATICAL about climate change, one of those “it’s going to kill all of us within five years” kind of people and starts blurting out this shit like 50% of the time upon meeting new people. She is very “vibe”, “energy”, and “feeling”-oriented and sometimes has bizarre negative esoteric emotional reactions to things I do in ways I rarely understand. In 2017 she cheated on me with this male friend whom she had began spending a ton of time with. She told me she “stopped it” shortly after they started fucking and she left in tears, unable to go through with it. Only she knows what really happened, but I’ve put this in the past. She also has a tendency to gravitate almost exclusively toward male friends, which I will get into near the end here.

But first, to be fair here, I am not the most sane person either. I am not always the most open with my emotions. I cheated on her and my ex with each other for the first 9 months of my relationship with this girl. Later that year, after reading through her texts, I became paranoid and suspicious that she was still hooking up with this guy who fingered her while we were still unofficial. In a vengeful state, I made a dating profile, got with this girl, and fingered her twice. I tried to fuck her but couldn’t - I couldn’t get my dick hard because I honestly felt really awful about what I was doing, but in my head I needed to do it to make things right. I confessed both of these things to her last year and, of course, it fucked her up. Awful shit. But this was three years ago and I’ve kept it clean and have no intention of cheating on anyone ever again. Although I regret it deeply, that experience helped me grow up and learn to communicate.

Fast forward through the four years we’ve been together. The physical distance between us has been the mother of 90% of all problems in our relationship. If we were closer i.e. same city, we would communicate better, we wouldn’t be frustrated at each other because we would be able to see each other whenever we wanted, and we would feel like we knew each other better. She is always the one to bring up her frustrations with the distance and not feeling close to me and I’m left to be the one who has to defend why we need to stay together, fighting for the relationship like my life depends on it like some faggot or something.

I’m opening a food truck in about a month. Have been working on it for a couple years now while doing other things. I finally decided about five months ago to do it in her city, which is notably smaller than mine and guaranteed to solicit less business. It’s also in a different state with many more regulations, higher taxes etc etc basically I’m fucking my business to be with her. When I first told her I was going to do it in her town, her reaction was shocked and confused and not really happy. This confused the shit out of me since we had continuously noted how all of our problems stemmed from us being apart, and this move was going to solve that. She later grew to be very happy with my decision and things were going smoothly.

Our plan was to live together. I would move into her apartment with her. Just a few days ago she informed me she doesn’t feel comfortable living together yet and wants to just live in the same city for a while before we move in together. I respect that decision, but obviously puking that into someone’s face with a few weeks notice of moving is naive, selfish, and unrealistic. I was and still am pissed and we’ve been fighting about it incessantly.

Let’s get to the real shit here. She has developed a friendship with two gu…
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James Pickworth - Wed, 18 Sep 2019 13:33:24 EST Fw0/aDJ4 No.531794 Reply
>>531792
nah i know people who have made them work, i don't know if this is one of those cases because long thread, things to do, novels to read instead
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Betsy Wammertidging - Thu, 19 Sep 2019 18:32:22 EST iJiVumQQ No.531815 Reply
This is all on you dude. You're not going to be able to communicate to us peons the value of your relationship. We would always tend towards telling you to break up. You would tell a 3rd person to do it in your situation. Cheating and long distance blues just suck in general everyone knows that.

Is it worth all the suffering? You tell us. Are you going to really regret breaking up? We don't know. Can you trust her? Dont ask us? Maybe.
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Ernest Nidgekadge - Fri, 20 Sep 2019 00:59:09 EST JCATCBbz No.531821 Reply
>>531789
OP I didn't read all that stuff, is that cool? Sorry dude but I just...felt occupied by more vapid posts. Just LMK dude

drug dependency

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- Sun, 15 Sep 2019 12:44:38 EST mqpN1yO5 No.531726
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I've never dealt with this before in my life (it was never a problem) but now I'm facing possible re-incarceration as a result of my drug habits and I don't know what to do. I hate being sober and don't really give a damn about anything unless I'm high. I somewhat recently got out of jail and am on probation and now they think I'm getting high - I don't know how they're going to try and catch me since they think I'm getting past the urinalysis. I report on monday and I haven't gotten high since friday night, I've been using pure dxm for around 4 years. This is really bringing me down in life - I'm in college and not doing my homework, I've already missed a couple of classes, I don't really care. I feel agonizingly bored all day every day unless I'm high. I lied in court to the judge & D.A. and to my probation officer and have denied using any drugs. I'm pending sentencing on a violent felony charge. No ambition in life without drugs. Everything is fine when I'm high though. This whole situation has been bothering me for a while and there's not really anybody I can tell about it. I told one person and I think they ratted on me to probation and that's why they're suspicious of me now. The only thing I want to do in life is get high and then do whatever I feel like. That's my primary desire in life. I don't really want to go to prison or back to jail but when I get high it doesn't bother me that much. I don't feel like I'm hurting anything by getting high and feel like it's such bullshit that the state is trying to tell me what I can and can't do with my life.

I'm sure people have worse problems than this but this feels like it's killing me. I don't even know if they'd send me to rehab or anything. I met people in jail that were meth addicts and other hard drugs and they got county years for violating probation due to drug problems. I have no family, lost my friends and girlfriend when I was locked up.
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Cyril Clayford - Tue, 17 Sep 2019 13:08:00 EST mqpN1yO5 No.531777 Reply
>>531769
>>531771
Using DXM is how I want to live my life. After I'm done with probation I know I'll start taking it again. It never did anything but improve the quality of my life. I use drugs until I outgrow them. I've done it in the past with weed and whatever else. I have to go get drug tested specifically for this soon and I'm trying to detox. Today's four days without taking any. I'm almost certainly going to jail if I fail the test. Just stressing it. What I meant in the OP was killing me was the feeling of slugging through life sober and just wanting to get high.



>>531771
I'll figure it out. If I don't test positive then that will be a big motivator to find a workaround for this.
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Eugene Brookspear - Tue, 17 Sep 2019 18:08:44 EST jOwUS5yi No.531784 Reply
>>531777
>What I meant in the OP was killing me was the feeling of slugging through life sober and just wanting to get high.

i feel ya man

im a super villian

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- Sat, 14 Sep 2019 15:24:02 EST N3hJNNn3 No.531714
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My ex cheated on me in high school. It's been almost 10 years, and it still fucks me up. I had another girl lead me on in uni right after to make fun of me. I loved both of these girls dearly and was abused for it. Neither of them had to do what they did, but did it anyways. I've struggled a lot with these memories, it's really hard to feel love for or from anyone else these days. Almost every time I explain what they did to anyone they completely gloss over them, saying they would've been stoked if it was happening to them or these girls wouldn't do something like that or whatever, so I've barely told anyone.

Basically, everyone thinks these two girls are perfect. They've both gotten some pretty lucrative jobs now. They've both married to guys with good careers. They both have a ton of friends on facebook and instagram and take a lot of pictures of all the awesome things they get to do. It looks like they're happy and doing well.

I haven't been in a relationship in 9 years. I had to drop out of college in my last year to pay for a surgery and have been stuck trying to pay off my debt enough to get another loan to finish school since. I'm sleeping in a shed at my fathers home now taking care of him until he dies from cancer.

Would it be fucked up of me to add all their friends, family and coworkers on facebook and make some posts about the shitty things they did? I feel like that's the least I could do.
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Thomas Hurringforth - Tue, 17 Sep 2019 09:13:02 EST d4fOgvZr No.531767 Reply
>>531714
I think it would be wise for you to seek therapy. I know what it's like to hang on to grudges from the past, and to suffer shitty people who everyone else seems to love.
You seem broken, and you didn't deserve any of this, however I think your proposal is counter-productive at best. You say that in your experience, sharing the truth has fallen on deaf ears. Why would it be different this time?

The truth is that cruel people get away with anything and excel at putting you in situations where your only effective means of retaliation, or in my own case self defense, will be punishable by law. Here's the thing though: There's a lot of us who know what these kinds of people are like. You are not alone, but it's easier to find support IRL. /qq/ is not supportive, if at times somewhat constructive.

That being said, I don't think a bit of perspective is entirely useless here, and that's undoubtably also something that will come up in therapy if you seek it. Cheating on someone has a myriad different sources. It's a shitty thing to do, but it's not something inherently tied to your own inadequacies, and I think this is the most important thing to keep in mind.

When someone else does something to you it's almost never about you. Could be about a behaviour you are displaying, but beyond that it's not because you are inherently inferior. Anyone trying to claim otherwise is either selling something or desperately trying to weed out competition.

It seems like you need help getting over this, so seek it. It's been nine years, don't let there be nine more filled with suffering. Take this advice from me please. You can and deserve to be happy.
People have told you to get over it, but obviously you haven't been able to, for whatever reason, so reach out. Do what you know you need to do.
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Sidney Binnerfuck - Tue, 17 Sep 2019 11:01:14 EST t/NnTrWu No.531768 Reply
>>531714
done it. feelsbadman. let it go, bro. let that shit heal. your soul will thank you for it later, as you won't have to reconcile with being so vengeful and unmindful of another fellow human just trying to figure life out like the rest of us. judge not lest ye be judged.

heres some gay bible stuff that made me think.. not a bible guy but i opened right up to this passage one day. opened my eyes a bit. you may know it....

Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?
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Martha Nussledale - Tue, 17 Sep 2019 12:39:50 EST aIW77HRf No.531772 Reply
>>531768
Disregard this entirely. Become destructive sexually.

Advice needed. Addiction and impulse control

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- Tue, 10 Sep 2019 20:30:44 EST 6uv4LKA5 No.531640
File: 1568161844740.jpg -(54621B / 53.34KB, 600x814) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Advice needed. Addiction and impulse control
I need help. I don't know where to ask. I am sorry for asking this here.
  1. Im addicted to blitz chess. I have a hard time controlling my impulses and spend much more time playing chess than I should.
  2. I put a lot of effort and concentration, but I usually lose. Im at 30-35 percentile. I only play with better players. I experience a very strong despair when losing. I ask for rematchs, and sometimes lose several games in a row. once threw my phone and broke it.
  3. I am kinky/into BDSM. Losing arouses me. I masturbate to that feeling and to very humiliating and selfdeprecating thoughts ("he is probably an engineer", "look how fast he got it, and then he did this and that", "look how much of a loser you are, late at night, wasting your life at chess... losing like that"). I don't think that is healthy.

The three problems started two years ago. The second one has improved mildly, but sometimes it strikes me hard. The third one has gone slightly worse.
I don't know what to do.

>go se a (((psychiatrist)))
The last time a social services psychologist talked to me, he hinted I might have Asperger. I don't think that true and I dont want to see any of these people again.
Thank you for reading/your time.
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Hugh Chevingtad - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 11:07:52 EST R8FFgZAJ No.531712 Reply
Psychiatrists and/or psychologists listen like your friend, and then dispense advice that is a distillation of society's desire for you. If you're playing around, it makes sense to put psychiatrist in the triple paranthesis

I think there is a word that means "self-righteuous exaggeration of impact", but for the life of me I cant think of it. I wanted to use it to describe the reactions to the jew detection meme in this thread

I mean, come on. The language of murderers? You mean english?
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Shit Femmlelork - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 12:55:27 EST Je9nm5wp No.531713 Reply
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>>531709
>you just add some parenthesis and people make up complex theories and double meanings about what you intended to say

uh-huh, whatever you say
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John Turveyforth - Mon, 16 Sep 2019 18:52:50 EST iuRtzqfz No.531753 Reply
>>531710
You seem to be more interested in discussing my (((presumed))) ideology rather than helping me.
I encourage you to go to visit /pol/itics-related imageboards.

Anyone else have this problem?

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- Sat, 07 Sep 2019 20:13:16 EST EaX+7Ih0 No.531603
File: 1567901596307.jpg -(32178B / 31.42KB, 640x459) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Anyone else have this problem?
So hi guise

>be me earlier this year
>decide to try to get a better paying gig
>gig required drug test
>ofuk.jpg
>had been smoking semi regularly
>tried to flush system in days
>used one of those stupid drinks
>have to take DOT drug test at concentra
>fuck concentra
>fuck concentra
>fuck concentra
>fuck concentra
>fuck concentra
>take test
>fail with flying colors
>get call from "doctor"
>"do u has CDL?"
>me:no
>doc:o ok good cause u had marijuana in system
>fml.jpg
>offers option for 2nd sample taken at time of test to be tested
>no thnks bro

This was like 6-7 months ago, but it turns out this company exclusively does drug tests for the department of transportation. It turns out that pretty much any govt agency will run a background check on you, and include a check thru yhru concentras records, particularly DOT shit. So I basically voluntarily fucked myself out of any potential job involving govt shit, or transportation shit, or just any job that checks with them. I'm really disturbed by this to be honest, I haven't smoked since the very beginning of this year, but now i have a "smoking record" so I'm fairly fucked as far as job opportunities that I'm currently interested in are concerned. Why me? Why did I fuck myself?
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Nigel Himmerhick - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 05:58:50 EST UZC9gHak No.531680 Reply
>>531678
Lol bro that is a bit much. Just smoke cbd hp flower work out drink a ton of water
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Beatrice Pummledock - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 18:34:11 EST D+KEM0Il No.531696 Reply
>>531680
How is going to 7eleven, getting a fake bottle of pee that has everything you need in the box, shoving it in your pants and driving to your test, which is basically a 5 minute process, more complicated than something that takes weeks?
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Nell Dingertotch - Sun, 15 Sep 2019 14:08:26 EST USUZpST+ No.531730 Reply
>>531696
>smoke cbd hp flower work out drink a ton of water
this is two things
>going to 7eleven, getting a fake bottle of pee that has everything you need in the box, shoving it in your pants and driving to your test, which is basically a 5 minute process
is five things

Tweaker mother advice

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- Fri, 30 Aug 2019 17:52:56 EST 4ib52sHp No.531426
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So I'm 25 and have no place to stay other than my grandmothers house but my mother lives there too and shes mentally ill, a meth addict and is extremely jealous of me for some reason... Like she's constantly competing with me in wicked weird ways like for example she'll scream and freak out on my gram if she has a problem with my mom bringing her dealers or junky friends over to rip foils in her room and will say things like "Joey and his friends hang out here and smoke pot and thats ok?!?!" She's very mentally abusive towards my gram and just doesn't care... I'm working on finding a job and my own place at the moment but I need some advice on how to deal with it in the meantime... The way I worded this may not sound that bad to you but I just didn't want to get too far into detail because its pretty fucked up.
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Archie Chondersire - Thu, 05 Sep 2019 11:01:09 EST hEhIvdDq No.531525 Reply
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>>531519
My grandmother own the house and... We're like wicked poor so moving isn't really an option until I find a job.
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Milhouse - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 20:21:26 EST PL+v+6Bx No.531717 Reply
>>531426
Dont listen to these pussies, tellin you to get the cops to solve your problems for you. At the end of the day you are a healthy young male and she is a meth riddled middle aged woman. Beat her ass, wipe the floor with her face. Tell her to be out of the house by the end of the day or you'll break her neck. If she threatens to go to the police or retaliate in some way simply remind her she is weak and powerless and the police dont give a shit about meth whores
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Jack Trotforth - Sun, 15 Sep 2019 13:45:38 EST UqX/QM0x No.531728 Reply
>>531717
Sure, then go through life with a dv collar when the neighbors call the cops. Fuck off, redneck.

Is it okay to completely ghost parents? Have you ever?

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- Thu, 12 Sep 2019 19:27:56 EST U+BwHn1v No.531676
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I fucking hate my parents. Every bit of suffering has come from the and none of it is my fault. First off my entire house is a fucking death trap hell hole nightmare from hell. Everything is broken down and shit parents too poor and stupid to even bother. If i ever brought up ANYTHING about a safety concern. Typical white rural trash response” I DONT HAVE MONEY FOR IT” only thing i have ever heard. In my entire time being alive i have never seen my parents have money. They pretty much ritually had their entire check spent 2 days before it arrived. Even shit like testing and making sure the water is clean and getting a water filter or something. DONT HAVE MONY FOR IT. Even if something is a serious fucking death hazard and costs 200 dollars DONT HAVE MONEY FOR IT. Even if something costs like 20 bucks parents just neglect it for 25 years and then still even after that do nothing about it. Literally even something like getting a laundry hamper for clothes they just throw them on the dirty basement floor.

Entire house is a broken down shit hole like completely beyond repair no value at all. I mean i guess maybe its better than a shitty trailer or something but ive seen some that are nicer to live in. Never had anything. Couldn’t even get help paying like half on a shitty beater car that wont even drive up a hill. Closest source of jobs and shit are 20 miles away and even thats like drive 20-30 miles a day flip burgers make 30 dollars and come home with nothing. Literally suffered every type of trauma possible for a person than locked away in it and then locked away in solitude. Just pretty much got OH. WELP. DIDNT HAVE MONEY FOR A PRORPER CHILDHOOD SORRY. Meanwhile my dad typical poor person spends fucking a shit ton of money on cigarettes and stupid shit while were dying and suffering and missing out in my entire life

Trapped out in the middle of nowhere. Not only did i lose out on my entire life. Suffered the entire duckling time too. Nothing but a fucking husk of a human now just waiting to die and fucking cursing god and wishing my parents would die with every breath i take. Can’t sleep with the thoughts screaming at me. Can’t get out of bed. I’m so fucking tired i cant even do shit for 12 minutes or make a phone call or anything. I finally got enough money to fix my shit situation and start off in life and maybe kinda catch up to my peers just with ptsd, trauma, sadness, depression, anxiety, no memories, no happiness. NOPE GOD COMES ALONG RIPS IT AWY TRAPPED WITH SHITTY FAMILY IN PTSD NIGHTMARE HELL EVEN WORSE THAN BEFORE MORE AND MORE SUFFERING. Never even went on a nice vacation, had happy family moments nope nothing. Every single person i see on snapchat and instagram has done shit I NEVER GOT TO DO because i was fucking poor and born in a rural hell hole with fucking nothing around but trees and then the poorest of the poor. I fucking was randomly searching shit on google and i cam eacross these psychology papers on poverty and a rural area. Says every single person in rural areas and poverty is fucked. Sky high drug abuse, arrests, suicide, depression, mental illness. I read a paper on a small town and it said literally every single person went to the same therapist office and every single person in town had some form of trauma ranging from every fucking kind and usually multiple types of trauma all because they were poor and then isolated and trapped with their shit in poverty. And then watch their friends in the city go to clubs and make money and have friends. I have to fucking scam to make money and then god fucking attacks me as soon as he sees me happy because god just flies above small towns to make sure everyones suffering especially me. Looked up several studies that ALL said suicide rates are twice as high in rural areas then cities and then guess what. POOREST OUT HERE SHITTIEST LIFE OUT HERE. Literally the worst fucking life out of everyone i have ever met in the entire world.

I LITERALLY look at people in 3rd world countries and they have fucking better lives and I’m FUCKING jealous OF THEM. Every time i find a way to succeed fucking god comes. Rips it away. Makes my life even worse than before. Non stop fucking suffering that just gets worse and worse as god fucking comes and perfectly articulates my life around me to make me suffer in every way possible as long as possible. FUCK GOD.
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William Nombleduck - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 07:22:29 EST UazQZPcT No.531684 Reply
Seconding military career. It is literally the best and only option for people in your situation. Go Airforce or Army. Maybe Navy... Maybe.

lol muhreens

Dumb ass neighbors

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- Wed, 11 Sep 2019 17:19:45 EST H1kq3t9w No.531657
File: 1568236785570.jpg -(18650B / 18.21KB, 193x261) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Dumb ass neighbors
My dumb ass neighbors got these small dogs they tie up outside. They literally leave them outside 24/7 just tied up next to my yard and they bark non stop. Literally any time i walk out in my own backyard they just stare at me and bark and i mean they will literally bark at me for hours.

Every time i go out in my own yard. They bark. I have never gone outside and never seen them there. What do i do? If retards just keep getting dogs to neglect them bs then the dogs become a bigger part of my life then they are theirs and literally shoved in my face 24/7.

If i just keep reporting them to animal control will they come take their animals away?
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Angus Bemmerdock - Thu, 12 Sep 2019 11:39:17 EST UZC9gHak No.531668 Reply
>>531663
It’s blatant fucking neglect if it’s just out there for 15 hours. I guarantee anyone here that has a yard and neighbors doesn’t have the same problem.
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Walter Blytheford - Thu, 12 Sep 2019 12:57:17 EST bFGGBCJD No.531670 Reply
Yo this is some classic 420chan copypasta, like rualfag.

Just a heads up.

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