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420chan is Getting Overhauled - Changelog/Bug Report/Request Thread (Updated July 26)

I didnt fail, everyone failed me

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- Sat, 01 Jun 2019 14:32:05 EST SnMldkwK No.529681
File: 1559413925667.jpg -(347983B / 339.83KB, 1920x1080) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I didnt fail, everyone failed me
I really just dont know what to do. Here is my situation in a nutshell:
I am a 27 year old male living at home with a possibly excessively attached mother, my sister, my drug addicted homeless aunt and uncle, six cats, and a dog. I am still stuck here because we live miles from anywhere I could work and noone in the house has a car. Walking is so far its impossible to do daily. I have no money, few possessions, no friends, and after a few bad relationships I have give up on them all together. Mom keeps talking about how she is going to move and we are all going and how that will fix everything but its been 3 years and ive seen very little if any progress in that direction. My question is.. Should I stay and wait or just pack a bag and start walking to see if I can get my own life together? I love my mom and sis, but Im 27 years old and have never even got a foot out the door. Do you think its wrong to abandon them? Due to situations, if I did leave, I would probably never see them again and that weighs heavy on my heart. Ive been thinking about how to handle this for ages and cant come up with anything better than being homeless for awhile. Please help
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Ernest Buzzhall - Thu, 06 Jun 2019 19:27:00 EST kAEKpfyQ No.529752 Reply
How does your family get the money they need to live if no one has a car and you don't live within walking distance of any businesses?
Barnaby Wuddledock - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 22:57:43 EST kr1gms69 No.530151 Reply
How do you let shit get so far out of fucking control this long?

Probably a fat greasy fuck who wears those cringy wolf t-shirt. I wish I felt bad for you, but in reality you're an unskilled lazy faggot who's time has run out


All I do is work

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- Mon, 01 Jul 2019 04:18:31 EST EDme/XXe No.530121
File: 1561969111636.jpg -(212194B / 207.22KB, 2048x2048) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. All I do is work
I dont even like coming home, sometimes I'll just go lie on the hill at the park.

The girlfriend doesn't seem to have the sparkle she used to when we spend time together, shes spending more time hanging out with her buddies.

The trap friend is drinking hard liquor and dissasociating, wont even talk to me.

My best friend is busy taking care of his relatives kids.

Me, I work.

It's the only thing I'm any good at.

Fridge's empty.

Milk went a week ago.

I've been eating staff room food and drinking Monsters.

I'm a mess.

Im lonely.

At least I have you, internet stranger.
Reuben Seffingsteck - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 09:10:45 EST wRA+5tPD No.530122 Reply
Don't be like a little kakashka, change your lifestyle and get some new inspiration and interest.
Priscilla Sondlehudge - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 17:06:22 EST JG3hr5FL No.530140 Reply
>dump gf
>become and ultra professional
>make friends with career fuckfaces

>you are Remy Danton

I belive that the right career can give more validation than almost any ol' bullshit
Beatrice Mullykere - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 20:03:24 EST mx986IvR No.530144 Reply
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Yeah I think I'm just gonna go work for the national passenger train line. Try setting roots in vancouver and get to Japan and fuck around there. Hell I might even try shooting for a job there as a railway dude. Make grandpa proud.

another drunk depressive bemoaning about lost love

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- Sun, 30 Jun 2019 00:15:45 EST z5mjYXr2 No.530085
File: 1561868145805.jpg -(53468B / 52.21KB, 480x368) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. another drunk depressive bemoaning about lost love
was lonely
met girl on tinder
started dating
fell in love quick
she was affectionate but never verbally
left the country for several months
updated her tinder bio with that country’s language and new pics
tried talking to other girls, got some flirty exchanges but no willpower or motivation or real desire to date them

just sad and drunk. stewing in depression. i was motivated for a while but I just wanna sink back into the depths for a bit and sleep there
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Walter Pindershaw - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 14:46:16 EST +cDBckoC No.530134 Reply
Why would you defend that kind of attitude? Please explain, I'm curious. That guy comes into a thread where OP is sincerely opening up because he's sad, strictly to be an asshole and attempt to diminish OP's problem by making his own sound larger.

Do you sincerely consider this to be defensible?
Walter Pindershaw - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 14:55:25 EST +cDBckoC No.530136 Reply

Don't bother replying, just looked around and saw what kind of person you are through your posts in other threads.
Beatrice Cerryhatch - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 21:18:48 EST 2dpbGRKS No.530149 Reply
don't ever catch feelings for people using dating apps

Getting a better self steem

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- Sun, 30 Jun 2019 22:02:15 EST vPXIYoJk No.530115
File: 1561946535449.png -(246765B / 240.98KB, 500x239) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Getting a better self steem
How the fuck is one supposed to get a better self steem?
This last months, i realized more and more how many of my "troubles" and situations are because i have overall a bad view of myself.

Thing is, how do i get this better? I exercise a lot, i started boxing which is something i love, i've been trying a lot on my projects and feel i am overall a talented person, im overall a smart guy, i am what most consider attractive, i constantly notice people glancing at me when im on the street.

Yet, i feel no matter what, if i for instance was the best athlete, the best artist, all my projects went perfectly, i would still find others to compare myself, i would still feel im not enough.

I didn't grew a good teenager life, i was kinda ugly and ultra shy as a teenager, i didnt had a healthy way to develop myself, i was into punk groups who would constantly get into road fights, im the end i leaved the whole scene when a friend of mine died stabbed and i felt i wasn't there to protect him.

After that point, i feel i've been trying constantly to get better, to be strong, smart, beautiful and "enough", but its never enough for me, i always need to have outside approval i guess, i've been in bad relationships and friendships during the beggining of my adult life, just to feel approved, and of course that didn't feel good for me long term, i can't deal with loss, cause i feel losing a friend or love, is losing all my self approval, i can't deal with people having a negative view of me, normally if i know some person thinks something bad of me, i over exagerate that bad aspect to the person as a kind of punshiment, say someone tells me im impatient, i start acting more and more impatient with that person, and on the end it only hurts myself.

I 've been way worse, after sometime i've been able to realize the problem, and try to deal with it in a healthier way, yet i don't feel it will get better, i don't see myself being able to approve myself, at some point i got into this idea i should seek all my approval from others, and im never really able to get satisfied with it from them, its egostical and incomplete, yet i don't know how to start approving myself, how to be able to look at myself and think this is good enough, that i am were i should be and im doing my best, i always feel this "other", as if there are people doing better, them im not doing my best, and therefore im horrible.

Like a pendulum, i feel like the worse human being ever, get some stupid feeling of love and feel great, until this feeling is not enough and i change back to feeling the worse, a constant loop of seeking myself in others, and i just don't know how to escape that.
Phyllis Gellydale - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 16:19:39 EST vPXIYoJk No.530137 Reply
I don't know, i like art a lot, i think about animation, i like boxing, i like olympic lifting, but i don't feel a lot of this would hold on if i had nobody to show it, i feel art itself is important to me, but at somepoint i started seeing it as a means and not a end and that bugs me.

i keep fucking up

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- Mon, 01 Jul 2019 12:49:58 EST F9uPG3pa No.530126
File: 1561999798550.jpg -(3373632B / 3.22MB, 4000x5000) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. i keep fucking up
Like i'm not even sure how or why or when, but it just keeps happening. I need to start doing work for school because i've got the last final on friday and everything happening now just brought my will to 0.

i don't really want any of what i have or what i'm trying for, it just seemed the best route through life. i mean i thought i wanted it, but i just don't. The effort doesn't feel like it's worth it. Fuck i miss being a loser. I hated everything and everyone and i was alone but there was no responsibility and if there was i didn't give a fuck.
George Grimwater - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 13:06:13 EST dZnLdogk No.530128 Reply
Okay stop panicking a moment. Stop trying to achieve huge things. Just break down what you need into tiny steps. Do 15 minutes work, or one chapter. When it's done you will realise you can do just one more. Repeat until you need to break. Then resume. Just do it a step at a time.

Its your last final. You might as well just get past Friday and then worry about your direction then.

Can't come during sex

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- Thu, 13 Jun 2019 18:36:57 EST Y+eN58b0 No.529849
File: 1560465417972.jpg -(34443B / 33.64KB, 366x550) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Can't come during sex
Been with my gf for a couple months. Have slept together many times, with P in V sex about 5-8 times now. I have never orgasmed with her, but made her cum many times from oral and combos of oral and PinV.

I went for like 2 hours yesterday. felt really close, but it didn't happen then. I can go slow, steady rhythm, pound fast, etc, switch up positions etc. No matter what I can't finish. Haven't came for over 2 weeks now, even masturbating. though I could probably come from masturbating, I want to with her.

What are my options?
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Martin Grimforth - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 05:20:24 EST sK+XFiKK No.530091 Reply
People have been masturbating for thousands of years.. millions? That's why our arms are exactly that length (probably, who knows). It is NOW that young people are going to doctors and sex therpists, that never happened before. It's now that more and more young people aren't having sex (actually a good thing when it comes to people under 18, teen pregnancy is waaaaaaaaaay down). It's free online porn that is making the difference. Masturbate all you want, give up porn. You are not alone, seriously this is a HUGE problem affecting millions of men and it didn't even exist like 20 years ago
Martin Grimforth - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 05:22:30 EST sK+XFiKK No.530092 Reply
(well it existed, but for older men) if all this stuff doesn't work then yeah OP sex therapists are awesome. Get someone with an undergraduate in clinical psychology or something though because anyone can proclaim themselves a sex therapist
Lydia Sinningwit - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 12:41:52 EST USUZpST+ No.530125 Reply
>People have been masturbating for thousands of years..
Who? Aren't they sore?

Job interview

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- Wed, 26 Jun 2019 20:42:28 EST w8rdUIS2 No.530030
File: 1561596148939.jpg -(45811B / 44.74KB, 720x720) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Job interview
I applied for this job and got an interview invitation. It seems like something I’d want to learn and I’m slightly interested. One problem.

The woman who interviewed me had a name who looked familiar. I realized it was someone I got very drunk with a few years ago, probably smoked pot with too, and tried to have sex with. She rejected me.

She’s also had me on Facebook for years where I post controversial political discussions and dialogue that most people disagree with, mainly right wing stuff.

I’m wondering if it would be a waste of time, my roommate suggested that she could hire me and than just fuck with me or fire me. My gut tells me this might be true, but I am extremely broke and need a better job
Phineas Trotgold - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 00:26:39 EST VxtSuD4E No.530034 Reply
The reasons you shouldn't do it are the reasons you should try. You'll probably get rejected or something but itll make the job interview after this seem boring in comparison and you'll have a good story
Albert Fanstone - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 20:15:20 EST 5vzjK7AG No.530113 Reply
Whatever your past with her, I doubt she would hire you "just to fuck with you". Expect her to be professional. Just treat it like any job you're interested in and hopefully your past with her won't even come up.

>I post controversial political discussions and dialogue that most people disagree with, mainly right wing stuff [on facebook].
This will catch up with you sooner or later. Facebook is very public. I wouldn't be surprised if a company decided to not hire someone because they frequently post controversial political anything.

To demotivated to work

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- Sun, 30 Jun 2019 04:51:04 EST EnWZVPJW No.530090
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I have this really shameful shitty job I hate and I always wonder if it's bad doing so that contributes a lot but still. My job is what seperates me from white trash I was destined to be white trash. Drama sadness poverty everyone around me is stupid poor trashy as fuck arguing drama working shit jobs to raise kids and shit.

I have this job and I was really good at it I made a ton of money. I can do it whenever I want so I have to force myself to do it. I find myself getting more defeated doing it then ever before because it's really hard. I just can't do it anymore. I'm so fucking lazy and demotivated and my life sucks no matter what i do that's why it's hard to do it and I hate my life too I'm so depressed I'm completely fucked

I took a few days off and took up a new hobby and now I don't want to do it at all/ I've just been trying to have fun and realized how shitty it was working all the time and not enjoying anything but working non stop. After taking a few days off it was hard as fuck to get myself to do it again and I instantly feel more defeated doing it because it's hard, not wanting to do it, giving up easier, doing it for less time.
Cornelius Greenshaw - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 07:38:53 EST dZnLdogk No.530095 Reply
What demotivates you about your job? Can you find a similar function in an organisation that does good? My job is one that some people do to further the gains of the most despicable humans on the planet but I do it so vital services that save lives are provided.

If it's the hours can you find something that gives you more time to breathe?

If you want to get out of your lifestyle rut what are you doing with your money?

Your mentality and the way you define yourself is pretty dangerous. You know what you DONT want to be but not what you want to be. I was like that once and it lead to a lot of stupid short term decisions. Is there something else you can skill up in?

You are working to avoid a bad fate but you have nothing that you're actually reaching for. All you're doing is fighting to avoid the bad thing and in the long run that's a miserable existence. All you're doing is looking back at the bad place and your life is still defined by it. You need to find and set some positive future goals and that will instantly make your job and life less awful. Maybe they'll be things like getting the skills or experience for a career change or even just a new job doing something similar.
Hamilton Sasslelock - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 09:42:48 EST Lny7/LNo No.530096 Reply
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Shitty Job thread? Shitty job thread.
>My job is what seperates me from white trash I was destined to be white trash. Drama sadness poverty everyone around me is stupid poor trashy as fuck arguing drama working shit jobs to raise kids and shit.
Mostly the reason why I haven't quit mine even though I would sell an orphanage worth of souls to find something better. The guy who's the manager of my workplace (and the oldest son of the owner) is a complete fucking failure. In his 40s, no one really likes him except for his drinking buddies (even then), he's divorced with two kids (who both have a shitton of issues) and his ex-wife married someone a lot younger than her. I've turned into the therapy talking guy for the company owner who never sees the manager becoming any kind of competent, the way he sells shit is a joke. Manager thinks he can take over the company and make it grow, in the meanwhile he's still watering down prices for whiny customers while all the other employees would rather see him dead.
Ebenezer Drocklenene - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 14:03:02 EST vFDzrbdS No.530107 Reply
Motivation is a false God. Do things that need to be done, stop looking for reasons.

therapeutic drugs

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- Tue, 04 Jun 2019 12:10:50 EST GIhHYQNG No.529723
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What drugs can I safely use if I have had a 2 year long depersonalizatikn / derealization period after just a little bit of weed.

Im diagnosed for depression and take meds. Also diagnosed with schizoid PD and schizophrenia (weird combo I know)

I want to make life liveable. I have good experiences with downers like antipsychotics and benzodiazepines and kratom. I want to try MDMA for the feelig of love, GHB to feel libido and lightweight psychedelics that will not induce dpdr. Im also interested in spiritually growing thru psychedelics.

I just want to make life liveable
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David Blatherstone - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 21:24:07 EST egiMesX2 No.530082 Reply
I don't think there's anything left if its for DPDR.
Everything else is just for coping. Maaaaybe CBD? But it won't give you insight or anything.

You talk about lightweight psychedlics, but weed is already a pretty lightweight psychedelic and I am really, really, really curious how much a "little bit" of weed is and wondering if you smoked or ate.
Cuz if you ate an edible, then your story is a little less insane especially if weed isn't legal where you are (i.e./or the portions aren't well-advertised/consistent)
David Blatherstone - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 21:26:36 EST egiMesX2 No.530084 Reply
Also by "a little" I actually mean "by a lot"...
There is a huge difference there.

always fucking broke

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- Fri, 07 Jun 2019 17:46:42 EST BItmAATh No.529762
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tired of being hungry and alone all the time
goddamnit guess i'll get a second job
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Caroline Gicklebock - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 13:35:12 EST 8lHs4ugJ No.530057 Reply
Bro just grow your own weed all you need. Kratom is pretty cheap and it works amazingly for me. I get like 500 grams for around 60 bucks. You can maybe get an addy script or a benzo or something. Just drink a lot of coffee or something. Beer is pretty cheap too I used to get yvingling bottles of beer like 13 bucks a 24 or 30 pack or something.
Angus Worthingford - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 14:09:55 EST wJWwXGAC No.530076 Reply
I repeatedly launch ships in 0xuniverse and then sell planets I find for internet moneys... and collect airdrops on /biz/... I make about $3k a month and am building up digital assets at the same time in crypto and other cryptogames that I play on another tab. I feel like I live in Jetsons world, just press button repeatedly... get moneys...


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- Wed, 26 Jun 2019 03:08:15 EST giP7Of1w No.530013
File: 1561532895997.jpg -(44830B / 43.78KB, 720x960) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. MAN LIVES HUMBLE DREAM LIFE 2019 EBOY ALPHA
>P 1 OF 2
>Be me
>be 27>
>Good looking, gym at least every other day, personal luxury apartment gym shared with few people, fast alternate day and can work out infiinite times fasted
>27 yo, cripping anxiet disorder - monthly payments from the government, never had to work a minimum wage job and likely never will
>Have by far and large gotten better from diet and exercise tier newfound confidence, raw vegan diet with one - two cheat days per week, saving the maximum amount of my check via spending no more than ~$10 every other day when i eat
>Two side hustles that pay an average of ~100 per month
>Thanks again to the government, finally qualify for food stamps, will be getting roughly ~200 to fund my coming juice fast and ~200 every month for who knows how long for a food budget
>Total food and monthly surplus together added to take away money from hustling part time equates to ~500 to spend on literally whatever per month
>Biggest problem in life is wrecked credit score thanks to money owed from a family member and myself for an AT&T debt, oh and an addiction to cold brew coffee - which has the added beenefit of not negatively impacting my dental health - but doesnt cause sleep deprivation thanks to free benadryl from the doctor and provides an only minimal very much controlled anxiety thanks to my strict dietary rules
>Meet two young men who want to rent my apartment with me, currently paying ~600 for a half of a master bedroom, shared bathroom, have 2 other dudes in the living room + 1 other dude in the private room, we each pay ~6 each, private room guy pays ~12
~when new roommates offer to cover 4/5 of the total rent in exchange for them getting the master br and master bath to themselves, and i get the private room for the same as what i pay for a semi-private-at-best-shared-space, l feel all the envy for the man who currently rents the private room dissipate into the ether
~hysterically imploding in eboy
~now only have to follow up with the two men, if the plan with them falls through, then as an ABSOLUTE FINAL OPTION, i wont have it any worse than sharing a space with someone else for half the cost of living in the state i currently reside in
~anxiety disorder is genuinely crippling, although i am extrremely spoiled and am free to pursue higher education, also on the governments dime, for free, with private bedroom, shared actual living room - not cramped occupied living room bedroom, private bathroom included as there are two to my particular apartment
>apartment complex is actually a luxury property, located in the crime free part of the richest city in america
>apartment requires at least one resident to have a guarantor who makes ~100,000 k annually, thankfully have a smart and wealthy dad
>relationship with dad great, simple and to the point, but otherwise is a state of emotionally endless abuse w father frequently screaming at me and making demands and me not living up to his expectations
>Regardless my dad is very generous and takes me on multiple relaxing trips to see my grandma per month
>Since i am already definitively crazy, i also enjoy a very deep and permanently loving, selfish entitlement by being spoiled in a medley of ways in my life, grandfathers death didnt phase me, still talk to him in my head everyday
>one sister, who is bisexual, lliberal and uptight - has gotten on my case about not working before, but reverts fast to caring, humble, innocent young girl time after time
~sent wrong texts meant for best friend to her today, with homophobic abusive joke insults hurled at best friend, instead totality of the texts went to my ssister due to a simple google voice phone glitch
~sister happens to not even waste of breath being upset, proceeds to essentially ignore the entire problem, admit she is busy due to her high frequency work schedule
~not a problem in the world, i sit and i gloat over a California private bedroom and bathroom for ~600 a month, great new roommates who are doing very well financially., are mexican, 420 friendly, have to wait only til august to begin enjoying this, when we will all sign the lease
>Two vatos are a bit slow on getting back to me, but otherwise perfect friends and main one i talked with ( as i toured them both throughout my residence and introduced them to many ameniities) happens to teach boxing
>Great, active, wealthy roommates spoiling me, sister putting up with me no…
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Scourge of the West - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 03:07:17 EST SnZZ66OV No.530036 Reply
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>apartment complex is actually a luxury property, located in the crime free part of the richest city in america
>apartment requires at least one resident to have a guarantor who makes ~100,000 k annually, thankfully have a smart and wealthy dad

I stopped reading there. At first I thought you sounded like you were full of shit. Then I got to the above quotes and I knew you were full of shit.

>An apartment complex is actually luxury complex. Because in America apartment can be luxury. Just like American sitcom Friends.
>If you live in "the richest city in america" you wouldn't even mention that your luxury property is crime free. Us rich entitled Americans in our luxury apartments don't even mention crime.

Oh and the words you use. All wrong.

crime free part of the richest city >>>nice neighborhood
requires at least one resident >>>person that lives there
have a guarantor >>>cosigner
~100,000 k annually >>>100g a year
smart and wealthy dad >>>rich parents

So from the words you do use I'm guessing you come from a place that speaks English as a secondary language because you were a colony at some point. Normally that would be Indian because 20% of all people are Indian. But there's a lot of Africanase crossover language so my money is on South Africa. So I'd say cool fantasy bro but it's not. Keep watching those Friends reruns.
Angus Worthingford - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 14:04:46 EST wJWwXGAC No.530075 Reply
You're wasting your fingers on that spoiled teetotaler who will never listen to advice or have a real life. They exist to be ripped off by dealers who could use the money, nothinf more.

Terrified of venting feelings to crush

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- Sat, 18 May 2019 22:11:03 EST 2zv7wmvM No.529451
File: 1558231863949.png -(493822B / 482.25KB, 720x630) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Terrified of venting feelings to crush
>be me, late 20s fuckwit kind of lost in life goals but successful enough for what I am
>have chick that has been my friend for coming close to 10 years
>honestly she's basically one of my two best friends
>unfortunately she lives overseas now
>had feelings for her for most of this time, never really could do anything cause she's always in relationships
>she's finally single and I have the chance to say something
>she's excited to be single and going through a sort of self-realization period of life
>want to say something but also want her to better herself and better know herself
>want to say something but terrified of fucking up our friendship
>want to say something but know it's just going to be rejection because I'm just a brother figure probably
>want to say something but we're at different roads in life now where I don't know if I could even be with her even if she wanted me
>been unable to really sleep because I wake up with my brain thinking about it
>maybe 24 hours of total sleep over the last 8 days

I'm so fucked up about just telling her. I feel pathetic for being like this as I near my 30s, but here I am.

I adore her. Talking to her feels natural and requires no effort. Calls with her make me feel at ease, and when I'm in a shit mood she just makes me feel better. I'm always interested in her opinion and am able to talk to her about things I can't even tell my other closest friend. Even when she says something that makes me want to claw my eyes out, I don't feel that way for long.

I know the answer is basically just tell her and face the potential rejection or don't and deal with it, but fuck. The fear of ruining a friendship is so severe to me.

Been doing a lot of drinking tonight because of this.
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Fucking Boggleshaw - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 05:20:16 EST dZnLdogk No.530068 Reply
Maybe you just pick the wrong ones. You know how to actually initiate a relationship so you have an in. If you CANNOT get the better ones then maybe look at why? Or just continue being you and accept that's the price you pay. Relationships are probably the highest order want for most people but not a need.
William Bickleludging - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 09:54:24 EST 2dpbGRKS No.530071 Reply
this was a faliure from the start bro
meet more women irl, yes they will leave you eventually, everything is temporary
Cornelius Greenshaw - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 07:16:29 EST dZnLdogk No.530094 Reply
Worked for my dad.

suicide safety

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- Fri, 21 Jun 2019 00:18:48 EST syDN5d68 No.529934
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Why do they give you guides on suicide safety like if you're feeling safe, remove the guns and sharp objects from your house.

don't make any fucking sense
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George Pedgehood - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 08:55:04 EST 07Vg7xvy No.529997 Reply

Jarvis Norringwug - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 05:17:28 EST d4fOgvZr No.530051 Reply
You might as well say you don't think guns cause suicide.
It's not like bottles of Jim Beam and Glocks are parading around, stealing people's money and fucking their wives, and surprise surprise, that's not what people are claiming either.
Caroline Gicklebock - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 11:26:39 EST 8lHs4ugJ No.530055 Reply
They only care about drugs. Don't know why. Every single hot tip line is about drugs. Every poster about safety I see is for drugs. They only don't want blacks to have guns that's the only time they go after it.

fucking tired

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- Wed, 26 Jun 2019 11:54:13 EST q/2IPlbf No.530018
File: 1561564453696.jpg -(5339B / 5.21KB, 294x172) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. fucking tired
>always tired as fuck feeling
>need 12 hours of sleep or I feel like fucking shit
>eyes are completely black blue and red undereneat my entire eye lid going to my cheek
>always look sick dying dead pale and zombie like with cancer
>eyes sting and burn all day long as soon as I open my eyes
>bottom eye lid feels stinging and burning from being so tired
>if I get less than 12 hours of sleep I feel like fucking dog shit
>as soon as I wake up just roll over and try and go back to sleep no matter how long I slept
>always feels like I slept 2 hours
>my 7 hours of sleep is like a normal person getting 2 hours of sleep after doing 2 all nighters in a row
>get fresh air exercise diet fresh air sun and dont touch anything unhealthy drink tons of water no cigarettes
>get sick and headaches all day
>eyes always feel tired
>need to sleep 12 hours a day plus lay down for 4 hours 2 times a day and spend the rest of the day relaxing with 2 hours of having energy
>my eyes sting and burn 24/7 even when they're closed
>i am constantly tired it feels like im running on like 20% energy
>my eyes fucking STING underneath my eyelids like burning and shit and its completely black
>my bottom eye lid is like completely red blue black and purple going all the way to my cheek as far as it can literally always stinging and burning
>feel like shit any time i get out of bed
>i tried coffee and caffeine it will make me feel like 10-20% better and i even try chugging
>i tried going months and months without caffeine and it didnt help so trust me its not the caffeine
>I ALWAyS have to sleep 12 hours or try to and 11 hours is like the best for me
>ive tried sleeping 6 hours 7 hours 8 everything and that didnt work either so its not too much

I live in a really old shitty house and thats the only thing i can think of but I dont think ive ever seen anyone just completely look and feel like garbage and death just because they live in a shitty old house i dont think it should be this bad. For some reason without any fans or anything in my room it feels a lot worse but if i run the air conditioner on cooling mode I feel some of the symptoms go away and it feels a little better

for some reason the weidest thing about it that I cant figure out is alcohol completely solves it. like i need to drink a shit load and it only works a few hours before i crash but alcohol solves everything. my anxiety goes away my eye bags go away i feel awake i can actaully walk run play sports talk to people go out and i lose all my shitty feelings if i drink like 6 or 7 beers at least. Like i normally cant even take a selfie i look like shit my hairs a mess my eye bags are fucking huge i feel fucking tired i just want everything to be over with if i drink alcohol im like taking selfies my hair looks good my eye bags go away im like dancing around happy as fuck i go out and talk to people i do shit im like 100x more physically active.

if anyone reads all of this shit thank you. and before anyone says it I eat healthy, i go outside every day, moderate amounts of sunshine, fresh air, always get fresh air in my room, i ride my bike and walk, i eat vegetables and fruit every day, i always have water next to me and im drinking it. im worried my fucking water pipes are made of lead or some shit
Eliza Channingwell - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 18:48:37 EST K974Ph6X No.530029 Reply
You probably have sleep apnea. Do a sleep study.

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