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420chan is Getting Overhauled - Changelog/Bug Report/Request Thread (Updated March 22)
I honestly tried googling this but i couldnt find it by Nathaniel Penderfield - Thu, 08 Nov 2018 18:28:49 EST ID:xBssPwJc No.527655 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Which may be because I didnt know what to ask.
So I'm asking you guys.
As of recently, I'm kinda hanging out with this girl and my buds. Long story short, I think i'm in some sort of cakefart. I'm not sure. I don't get it. I don't know. I'm not even sure it matters.
But from my end, the more (platonic)intimacy I have with her, the more I feel compelled about her. I think about her... all the time.
But it's not a nice warm feeling. It's not lust either. Like, yeah she's attractive but my thoughts seem to be driven to...have her. To shape her. I envy her shit when if x y or z went through the same i would've never envied it, i feel "jolted" over trivial things on her habbits or past or whatever, whch i had long accepted, if ever i had a problem with them
And it makes me feel like absolute shit. I can't really stop seeing her easily because, well, she just hangs around wth my crew a lot. And yeah I do like her.
I think i'm absolutely fucked, I know my dad had a similar, much stronger behavior towards my mom - I'm just fortunate to be able to realize it?

I don't have much going on for my life, could that be it? I don't know what the fuck this feeling is.
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Nigel Buzzford - Sat, 10 Nov 2018 05:35:30 EST ID:Hu5948WJ No.527669 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I meant to respond to OP
Fucking Blackway - Sun, 11 Nov 2018 20:13:23 EST ID:b2U4Jslk No.527688 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Like, yeah she's attractive but my thoughts seem to be driven to...have her. To shape her.
Fucking monkey.
Molly Pozzledock - Mon, 12 Nov 2018 14:09:10 EST ID:xBssPwJc No.527705 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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OP here.

Just wanted to thank everyone for all of your comments, your shared experiences actually helped me a lot to see this through.

Definitely wasn't aware about limerence. But it explains me to the T.
Not happy about it, but knowing my shit is definitely half the battle.

I got the cold shoulder I needed and well, now I can be half happy to say I must move on.

Thanks, it's not like I recognize i'm fucked or anything.

Became attracted to coworker by Esther Foffingkure - Sun, 11 Nov 2018 04:07:52 EST ID:92zfrRzZ No.527673 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I have been working a retail job for about 6 months now and it is going great in terms of the job itself. I work with 3 other people (2 in the back room for administration + services and 2 in the front for sales (me + coworker). At first I liked my coworker as just that, we get along fine and have somewhat same values. But like 2 weeks ago she changed her hair (cut it short and dyed it) and that triggered my fetish or preference whatever you call it. So now I find her really attractive in every way, it's difficult to be at work because I keep looking at her and thinking about her. What do I do to make work normal again, or not feel like this while at work?
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Ebenezer Suzzlesatch - Sun, 11 Nov 2018 17:40:52 EST ID:+Tof+qQ/ No.527683 Ignore Report Quick Reply

So in 2 weeks you've went from just friends to completely enamored? I guess if you see her 5 days a week or whatever, but damn. I'd ask her out if it were me, and if she rejected me I'd just play it off like no big deal and try to get on with it. Rejection tends to make you even more obsessed, though, so you'd have to be ready to deal with the pain and try to reduce contact to only what's necessary after that happened.

The alternatives: Find another job and ask her out, find another job and don't ask her out and move on, or just wait and eventually she'll end up with someone else and you'll get hurt anyway.
Angus Goodbanks - Sun, 11 Nov 2018 18:43:10 EST ID:nPd6ds7Q No.527685 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I don't know what I'm gonna do, but thank you for the advice.
Lillian Blatherville - Mon, 12 Nov 2018 12:40:59 EST ID:wVwbY1G3 No.527700 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Rejection tends to make you even more obsessed
I've found that having that hope squashed is actually pretty liberating. You can't think about the ifs or maybes and feed the limerence and can get on with shit. However if you do act, act quickly before its a big thing and make it relatively low key, make the move low key, and if she shoots you down be ready to just talk about something else as if nothing happened.

If she doesn't feel like it was a big deal then it won't be a big deal and everything will not be ruined. I guess it depends how you take rejection. You know this better than we do.

Really real by Michael - Mon, 29 Oct 2018 00:00:42 EST ID:AnKTZjom No.527473 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have depression, mania and I'm on 4 antipsychotics.

Sounds silly, but I stumbled upon some sensitive information and now I'm being watched for further ingress. Sometimes I can hear them talking about me.

No shit, this is actually real. It's with radiowaves. It's sort of like gangstalking but not bat-shit insane. I'm able to identify what is actually part of my illness and what is a transmission.

This all sounds so sci-fi. You'll laugh. This is my reality, I'm being watched and dissected in a sort of bored facism kind of way.

The problem is, I can't fully hear them and I'm wondering what they want. I live every day wondering if i'm about to be wacked or fucked by the psy-ops to become some crazy invalid in a wheelchair staring at the sea.

You won't believe me.

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Michael - Sat, 10 Nov 2018 12:27:56 EST ID:AnKTZjom No.527670 Ignore Report Quick Reply
In a moment of brilliance, I posted a conspiracy theory on /tinfoil/ that cut a little to close
Sophie Socklefuck - Sat, 10 Nov 2018 17:24:09 EST ID:SO4UJmhV No.527672 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I looked for ghosts when I was a kid and it could very well be why I have had visual hallucinations on larger doses of thc. I draw connections that aren't there and believe the craziest shit because of it. You're absolutely in saying "logic over everything". Lead me to stop thinking the idea is possible

It was overzealous of me to jump to that conclusion about their name
Isabella Shittingwater - Sun, 11 Nov 2018 16:48:33 EST ID:kaXN/tLq No.527682 Ignore Report Quick Reply

It takes a long time bro. Get there one victory at a time. In order to dismantle incorrect beliefs, you must be able to face/admit/recognise you are wrong. This can briefly sting but would you rather be wrong and fix it or wrong but tell yourself you are right.

Depends on how deep you’ve gone. I realised that a lot of my schizophrenic style beliefs were a result of beliefs I held that were “leading” me to these ridiculous conclusions.

Hopefully you handle it dude.

FWB is my only friend.... by Martha Sisslechatch - Sat, 10 Nov 2018 14:58:16 EST ID:XHixRq/i No.527671 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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OK so I have a FWB who I have been seeing for a few months, and all in all, it's going great. The sex is awesome and we get on really well with almost zero conflict ever. Despite this we have our own separate lives and neither of us wants to be more than just friends. However, there's something that bothers me about it. I am a socially isolated sperg with severe social anxiety who lives with his parents and all of my friends have moved far away or completely abandoned me. As such, she is my only friend in the local area who I get to regularly see and talk to about life and stuff.

To be clear, I really absolutely do not want to be in a romantic relationship with this girl. I had an absolutely traumatic relationship before her and the idea of having that kind of pressure absolutely repulses me. I know it would not work, the fun would end, and the misery and arguments would start. She knows this too. However, because she is my only local friend, I can't help feeling somewhat attached to the "relationship". Not because I have deep romantic affection for her, but because she is the only person I get to regularly talk to other than my family and express how I'm doing and feeling about stuff with. Like you do with a mate. I just feel refreshed being able to voice my thoughts out loud with somebody instead of driving myself mad with all this inner dialogue.

So what I'm getting at is that sometimes I feel anxious about her going off me because of something I did/said and it coming to an abrupt end. I know that the whole point of FWB is that it's no pressure and you're not supposed to feel attached to the person you're fucking. Given this, is this "relationship" (using that term in the loosest possible sense) fundamentally flawed, or is there something I can do to help avoid this dilemma? Let me know what you think.
Simon Crellercheg - Sun, 11 Nov 2018 10:10:23 EST ID:LQaVa7NA No.527677 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Same here, 2 year-GF turned into FWB, I lost all of my friends due to depression and pushing them away..
I'm constantly checking fb/phone for messages from her and it's pretty annoying but I have zero other contacts and my parents are unavailable to talk to. My father is drunk and can't even cope with his own feelings, mother never really listens and when I try to tell her about my problems she starts going off how good she feels/how bad she felt when she was my age and how it's all getting better..but she just got pregnant twice and had no time to think about anything else. Now she just eats and drinks at night until both fall asleep infront of the tv..

We both need other people to relate to and speak to, because it's human nature to share problems/reflect on them while talking to others. Go out, work on your isolation and challenge it every day. Be brave and smile at people, get to know them and if nothing helps, get some help. Hope you#re from some country with free healthcare, I get 5 sessions for free in germany and I might be putting those to use soon.'
Also if you're not doing it already, force yourself to physical exercise every day: start with walking for an hour, just switch up the routes and then after a few weeks/months you can up the heartrate and go for a jog/lift some weights(proper form>weight!). Exercise reduces mental stress and reduces flight/fight response of the brain in difficult situations, allowing you to be more collected when going outside.

My problem might be taking care of itself since she fell in love with her roommate recently and we won't be hanging out a lot but that just means I'm going into full isolation in a bit and thats even scarier since I can't handle shit at the moment..
Sophie Brinkincocke - Sun, 11 Nov 2018 18:21:26 EST ID:wVwbY1G3 No.527684 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>My problem might be taking care of itself
Until this bit I thought it was a good post. Both of you have the same problem. The problem is you have 1 friend. The whole FWB feelings danger is a symptom not the problem itself. You need more friends.
Betsy Bizzlespear - Sun, 11 Nov 2018 18:58:07 EST ID:Hu5948WJ No.527686 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'd probably tell her that you value her friendship for a start.

But yeah get like a therapist or counselor or whatever or join a group to meet new peoples etc. No point staying isolated. It will kill you and you don't want to be dependent like you are now on one person. It really strains relationships.

Badboys by Phyllis Pittwater - Sat, 03 Nov 2018 21:50:45 EST ID:+Dxwg5ZQ No.527581 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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It sucks to that the only way to evoke real primal desire from a woman is to go toe to toe with death in some way. Soldiers get admiration. So do murderers, fighters, gangsters and even serial killers.

The capacity for violence isnt enough now. Now you can't evoke the Real from a woman without incapacitating another man yourself.

A man who's killed another man in his life will give off a distinct vibe that women will pick up on and flock too instantaneously.

The risk to living the badboy lifestyle is dangerous. You act like a badass and someone could clip you and you're dead.

You can only go so far being a good boy. Clean criminal record, good school, good job well dressed in shape, developing "game", is just putting a big ribbon on an empty box. The substance; the gift, is to be violent and savage.

Is it worth it to walk this path to get grills?
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Edward Bardhall - Fri, 09 Nov 2018 11:06:16 EST ID:+Dxwg5ZQ No.527663 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Call me any name under the sun you want, I've actually been the Other Guy multiple times in my life (as in the guy who choke fucked some dude's wife/giflfriend/mother [i like milfs sue me]) and I've seen plenty of shit from the other side to know that all the "incel rage" you like to poke fun at has credibility.

Not 100% but the nerd male rage is justified and the Chad theory does hold weight in reality.

But go on, disregard me, call me a liar and continue to tell people online to be yourself. You can have the last word. Enjoy.
Charles Findlebury - Fri, 09 Nov 2018 22:55:15 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.527665 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Yeah but the main issue I have with it is the amount of sweeping generalisations. It’s like oh hey let’s make everything fit this one cutesy narrative that’s totally self defeating and relies upon a lot of *jazz hands* vague logic.

Half this shit just sounds dumb. You should know this if you’ve really been “that guy”. Unless you’ve fallen into some neurotic rabbit hole, in which case it makes a lot of sense.
Cyril Banningbury - Mon, 12 Nov 2018 13:58:03 EST ID:3A/9rSkO No.527704 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>i use retarded circlejerk tropes
>i'm totally the bull guys not the stallion

Cleaning Advice? by Betsy Bardforth - Thu, 01 Nov 2018 08:27:12 EST ID:LrhqCU1z No.527533 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I swear to god this is a genuine problem ...

So i have this rucksack that I really like... I didn't use it for a while though, and I forgot that I had a bag of lemons in the rucksack. Anyway, for a few weeks, this bag of lemons had been thoroughly enjoying the dark and warm coniditions of my rucksack in the corner of my bedroom, and when I went to check it last week, 2 of the lemons had turned a muted, furry green colour, and when I reached inside my bag my hand emerged afterwards covered in a fine green dust. So naturally, I freaked out, put it in a plastic bag, and kept it in the corner. Then today I dumped all the contents in another plastic bag outside and threw out the contents, basically, and as I was doing so I could see the fine dust emerge as a sort of fume from the bag... I should've probably worn a mask or something... ANyway, now my favourite rucksack is sitting in a binliner, its inside completely coated in dust mould... my question is, have I inhaled the dust fumes and am now about to die? Also, is my bag beyond saving? Is there a way to reliably clean the mould spores out, or should I just throw this bag out? I'm pretty broke so I don't want to just rely on my work bag all the time if I need to carry more shit... Also, can my immune system handle the weeks of spores I have been breathing in as these lemons have been rotting in my room? It's a really nice bag btw. :(
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Simon Sungerwater - Sat, 03 Nov 2018 12:49:26 EST ID:LrhqCU1z No.527578 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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OP here, I actually really appreciate all this poo literature, since I have a very troubled digestive system, so I have all the time in the world for this - the truth is, my rucksack is still sitting in a plastic bag, and since it has some leather panels, a nice lining etc I'm really not sure if it's machine washable. My farts smell absolutely vile, I think it's the pasta and bread I eat, and I've decided I don't want to poo into my rucksack. I just want a cleaning regime that'll work for me. I should probably handwash it in a basin with some detergent, but I don't want people to think I'm a fag. Guys I think what I need is some moral support
George Bardstone - Wed, 07 Nov 2018 06:28:11 EST ID:jAv9QH/b No.527646 Ignore Report Quick Reply
-post that is irrelevant to poop but on topic of thread-

Try not to smoke for a bit, maybe a week. If you're concerned about your lungs, try not to bother them with hot smoky air.

As for the rucksack, toss that shit in the laundry with some bleach. What I recommend: pour detergent in the empty machine first, then take the bleach and literally just pour a cap-full in there, that's all you need. Then maybe put some white garments in first so the rucksack doesn't make direct bleach contact and get stained. Then toss the rucksack in and run the washing machine, try to use a rinse cycle that's about 5-10 mins longer than usual. That'll kill the mold.

For extra caution, once the rucksack has dried, store it in a freezer for two days. Mold n gone

I'm surprised no one has actually responded appropriately to this thread yet haha
Unless I just got seriously woooshed
Frederick Wumbleput - Wed, 07 Nov 2018 20:04:52 EST ID:0aX0aAMP No.527653 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thank you so much, this is what I was looking for. I am a bit nervous about putting it in the washing machine... but it's time I took action. I have let this go on long enough. I hope I don't get cancer from using this bag

Cheating by Matilda Clayworth - Sun, 04 Nov 2018 00:41:48 EST ID:5AoDrYu2 No.527586 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I had an anonymous person contact me on Facebook about my wife cheating and immediately blocked me.
This is the second time since April something like this has happened.
So, I checked my wife’s Facebook and there is a message from her demanding to “delete this photo immediately” along with a deleted photo that she sent to them.
I clicked their profile link and she has that person blocked now.
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Samuel Fashlock - Wed, 07 Nov 2018 10:17:33 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.527649 Ignore Report Quick Reply

No rules in warfare other than your own self imposed ones.
Betsy Bupperdutch - Wed, 07 Nov 2018 13:46:34 EST ID:4bb9WlSZ No.527650 Ignore Report Quick Reply


You're just being paranoid. She definitely isn't cheating at all, no reason to worry my man, this could be a simple cover up of a drunken photo that she finds embarrassing, and if your wife were cheating on you, what would this anonymous tipster gain by informing you. If it were a friend, they would contact you directly, no, this is no doubt some attempt at slander, or an attempt to break you up by a jealous ex. All the signs are there, the anonymity, the idea that she would even put any kind of picture on facebook that implicates her in infidelity, I mean why would she do such a thing. These sort of things happen on facebook, and if you put too much faith in facebook my man, it can make you paranoid.

Take it easy, and don't do any more probing on facebook, it's not healthy, stop this before it escalates and you get trapped by paranoia.
Betsy Bupperdutch - Wed, 07 Nov 2018 13:48:04 EST ID:4bb9WlSZ No.527651 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Seriously, if you take your relationship seriously, no more facebook checking and dirty underhanded spying, it's seriously unhealthy, and downright petty. You're better than this.

No one takes me seriously as a drug dealer by Jack Deddlefid - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 09:53:25 EST ID:wJO/PM3g No.527613 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I get ripped off all the time, no one pays me back because I never chase them down. I even get ripped off by my supplier, so I make no money. I tried snorting crushed up Adderall off a knife once after watching breaking bad to try and seem threatening in front of a customer but I ended up accidentally cutting my nose and everyone laughed, and they left with the weed while I was in the bathroom. I live in a small town and they all heard about it, and I don't know how to regain my street cred. Someone tried to vouch for me by saying I did it deliberately to scare them off then chased them down, but that didn't work. Should I get someone to get the weed back for me? I'm skinny and not good at fighting.
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James Feppernetch - Tue, 06 Nov 2018 07:31:49 EST ID:wJO/PM3g No.527630 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I'm already working on getting the weed back. I lost three ounces. I don't want to go out with my nose bandaged in case they laugh more, so I'm going to sort of make it seem like I have Mexican connections or something as I know this guy who's part Mexican who sort of looks tough. Then when I'm back on my feet I'll start again and not make any mistakes.
Frederick Blarrywadge - Tue, 06 Nov 2018 18:59:00 EST ID:NJkLq9MW No.527641 Ignore Report Quick Reply
bro please cut your losses here. people treat you that way because of your demeanor and the sort of person you are. you can change that though. but fronting about that sort of thing is not the game you want to play
try the darkweb maybe
be safe
Martha Crozzlesut - Thu, 08 Nov 2018 23:01:51 EST ID:L4MaGvT3 No.527657 Ignore Report Quick Reply
this. Don't dig the hole any deeper my dude. Sell only to people you know will pay or find something else to do, you really don't seem cut out for this and that ain't a dunk. Not everybody is

Sanity and Burden by Jarvis Dartfoot - Wed, 24 Oct 2018 06:48:52 EST ID:RdCdZ/5c No.527415 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Anyone else here feel like they're losing their grip on sanity? I've had about 6 psychotic breakdowns because I was a shameless psychonaut and even though I still feel like it did more good than harm to me it obviously has taken its toll on my mental health (only 3 of those psychotic breakdowns were because of psychedelics fyi). Although it's not officially diagnosed since I'm doped up from antipsychotics, my shrink suspects it being schizoaffective disorder and I can't go under MRI because I have migraine and a family history of embolism. Now getting haldol shots every months, I got used to. I'm content with being a doped up plant because next breakdown won't be so easy. But honestly this ain't the problem because this last couple months have just been absolutely miserable and I could think of nothing but killing myself and honestly, after doing nothing but improving myself and being a better person overall for 2 years, this last year, I don't think I really have the balls to get better. I'm lethargic. I know I can do it but I just don't want to. I would be balls deep on heroin again if I had the chance too, but thank god it's completely out of my reach. Slightest glimpse of hope I have is basically change of scenery because I dropped out of Uni this year and will be applying for art school in an another country (Canada lel) and not because I want to pursue a career in art but I just want to get out of here and since I'm talented in art, I think this might be my ticket out of here. Not that I don't like where I live (even though any sane person would absolutely fucking hate it here) and but I just hate my ties here. I want to get away from people.

I'm a solitary guy so I know how retarded it sounds but I think it's more about space. I can cut my ties here (at least to people) right now and still live here but I don't want them to think that I'm abandoning them on purpose (even though that's what I'm doing). I mean I hate my mother, but I don't want her to realize that I don't like her because I feel like I have a responsibility towards her. And I probably do all things considered. I don't hate her because she abused…
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Lillian Gallerfit - Sun, 04 Nov 2018 09:57:36 EST ID:PMiKxfAC No.527598 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Also, he runs his mouth quite a bit which is why he almost got his head blown off point blank by someone who was fed up with his bullshit trash talking. He did the same thing to someone who was letting him sell his supply of opiates and threatened to kill his family because my brother went and took every opiate he had to sell from this dude and couldn't make up for the lost money. So, this guy came to our house twice looking for my brother because of the threats he was making to this guy. Bottomline, he should've gotten the fuck beat out of him which he almost did, if not worse. I'm so sick of this cocksucker telling me what I'm going to do. Fuck this 300lb+ fat slob piece of shit.
Thomas Wumblebury - Sun, 04 Nov 2018 19:01:02 EST ID:9MjKk5zz No.527602 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If you're sick of being a haldol vegetable, ask your doctor for clozapine. It will let you keep more of your cognitive functions.
Samuel Goodhall - Tue, 06 Nov 2018 13:55:49 EST ID:awW8B2Hc No.527634 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Wouldn't that just make me more veggie?

Depression + Meds by Shit Purringcocke - Sat, 03 Nov 2018 17:02:02 EST ID:5U3zHBw9 No.527579 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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For as long as I remember, I've had some sort of alcohol problem with depression and I've decided to take a break from the alcohol and focus on myself; especially since now I'm starting to suffer academically and just generally feel at an all-time low. A while ago, I went to the doctors and was prescribed sertraline 50mg.

My friend who's on the same shit said it was great, helped them a lot. But I've read a lot of stories about people coming off it saying they felt worse than before they started etc.

I guess what I'm saying is I'm apprehensive about toying with anti-depressants and want to hear from someone who has been on them before and if it helped them etc.

Picture is a baboon skull, if you're into that sort of shit.
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Isabella Hallerfatch - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 11:04:34 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.527616 Ignore Report Quick Reply

For me now, I just vape very small amounts (0.05g - 0.1g) of weed in the morning to help lift my mood and get my "vibe" on track. But I get a feeling of confidence, safety and balance from taking this drug daily and have a bumpy time coming off of such minimal doses because I believe it is what is helping.
Cyril Sickleham - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 14:57:44 EST ID:ZU125YhK No.527618 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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SSRI's made me manic. No other real way to explain it with out a eall of text. My therapist dodnt notice I was manic which enabled my manic behaviour. Eventually I got in a position where i could no longer get the meds, 50% usa healthcare nonsense 50% me being competlety insane. While going off them I had crippling anxiety and paranoid hallucinations for about a month or so.

After that whole experience I realized that actually it could be worse and am getting on with I guess what you could call a life, but uuh ymmv
William Buzzlehed - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 16:12:00 EST ID:kQMpBd21 No.527619 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP is bipolar so there was chemical imbalance you bigoted pile of shit. Neck yourself.

Dating by Nell Clurrysteg - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 00:17:11 EST ID:dJEw/uJZ No.527605 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I don't really get a chance to date at all.. I've had one relationship I didn't really enjoy much and I want to be ready in the future when I meet the right girl and know EARLY if she's someone I want to spend possibly years with. What are some signs that a girl likes you? Also I fall in love pretty easily so I don't want it blocking my judgment.. what are some qualities or features of a girl's personality that are red flags?

Thanks, I figured people here would be more neutral and unbiased than any of the other sites.
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Isabella Hallerfatch - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 03:56:00 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.527610 Ignore Report Quick Reply

My red flag collection

>self identifies as “fucked up”
>believes themselves to be too “complicated” to be read
>emotionally unavailable
>makes excuses for ditching dates with 24hrs or less
>still does heavy drinking / drugs
>has a history of abusive / dysfunctional exes
>stuck in a dead end job
>maintains a group of same majority male friends since school and prioritises male company
>self harm history
>has had a lot of casual sex in the past few years
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Isabella Hallerfatch - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 03:58:54 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.527611 Ignore Report Quick Reply

That’s a very relative question. At the time, yes. But I wouldn’t choose to go back to them now. They were good people, showed me a lot of love, we never argued and I held onto their memories for maybe a year or two after the break up. Good times were definitely had and it was a welcome relief from my issues at those timed of my life. The question is made more problematic by the fact by both times I ended up in a mental for a psychotic break within 6 months of them ending. This complicates my side of the deal.
Isabella Hallerfatch - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 04:06:46 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.527612 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Here is my GOOD flag collection (I have no word for this)

>similar background, culture and interest
>conversation flows
>mutual sex drive
>mutual levels of “life experience”
>someone you can fuck like a whore but embrace like a wife
>can make good cakes
>done with the partying and slut phase but had one

My current girl is the best times I’ve ever had. I’m very happy to have met her. For a long time I was with girls that were a bit “off” relative to my lifestyle. I needed to meet someone that was a good match for my current roles in life. I used to be prettt wild and had kinda backed out of a lot of old behaviour to mature. But I never became boring. A lot of chicks aren’t into a Friday night cycling up a hill to watch stars and listen to hip hop while smoking weed in their mid 20s... as opposed to partying or spending money I don’t have to go eat or holiday etc.

>my best advice is to focus on the individual tho, people can display a few red flags and be great, this chick included, she has a few of the ones listed but we’ve had a real character arc together over the past 5 months
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How do I start to improve? by Phineas Bungerspear - Sun, 28 Oct 2018 00:13:54 EST ID:nCu7zJMB No.527460 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I lost several chess games and i feel ive failed an iq test. Im bored, tired, and increasingly cognizant of my mediocrity. Its sometimes hard for me to care to help myself because I know I’ll never be the person that I dream of being. I wasnt in private music lessons at 5 years old, and my IQ is 120 at best. Its probably something quite average, actually. I think I’m probably an average person who was made to read too many books. How can I be happy as one who lacks talent and any type of social grace? I refuse to tell my coworkers I have a degree because I know I dont belong in the environment that I work. For six months ive worked at a store full of poor immigrants where my boss refuses to pay anything. I have no idea where I can go with this. Its extremely difficult for me to be happy unless I’m at work, and that apparently is because when I’m on the clock, I dont have options and cant constantly question whether or not my chosen activity is worth a damn.

Having options is a source of unhappiness. I hate having free time because I never feel that anything I choose to do is worthwhile. These hobbies are forced, and most often remind me of my own limitations in ability and passion. Passion, as it relates to my depression and discontentment with my liesure, can be discussed here as well. It is difficult for me to feel much passion unless two conditions are met, one being that I have had a reasonably productive day, and secondly that I am drunk and high. I want to feel impassioned, but even when the aforementioned conditions are met there is no guarantee that I will. Half the time I meet these conditions I just end up ruminating on how little control I have over my life.

I want to live in a new environment where I can be myself around new people, but I know that it will likely fall to shit within a few months. I cant drive, and the only two serious friendships ive ever had have come to an end because whenever I would drink, I would talk to these guys in the way that I wanted them to rescue me from my stagnating life. Im just stuck in a small town with my semi-hermetic parents who have never been proactive about helping me to succeed.
Clara Sashmick - Sun, 28 Oct 2018 01:47:15 EST ID:U+ev/SQc No.527461 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Wesley Guzzlewetch - Sun, 28 Oct 2018 05:31:39 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.527464 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Imagine you are lost at night in a desert. You only have a few metres of true visibility and then it’s pitch black, but on the horizon you see the glow of a distant city.

You can only get there by heading roughly in the right direction and handling the few metres before you. You don’t know what that city actually looks like, what’s there, what you’ll do or where you’ll live but you know you wanna be there because it beats this cold, dark desert.

Just handle it, get there, one step at a time. Fix your attitude, do the things you want, become the person you wanna be and move the fuck away. Don’t blame parents or hide behind elaborate excuses generated by the knee jerk reaction your self esteem has to your shortcomings.

Truthfully mate if having a high IQ and being a musical/chess slayer were your goals in life then you’ve onviouslly got some issues. This is the kind of attention seeking high achiever stuff that is usually forced upon children by parents who don’t understand what being happy looks like and instead opt for being “special” by virtue of achievement.

Get a job that uses your degree or find a job with a career ladder and begin working on feelings of competence. Work on your social skills, avoid drinking and begin finding things to do with your time that feel engaging and fun, rather than just going through the motions. If you really do wanna learn a musical instrument, do it for you, rather than you relative to what others will think. Work on your neurosis.
Shit Dallybury - Sun, 04 Nov 2018 23:54:00 EST ID:J+KC8e10 No.527604 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>Having options is a source of unhappiness.

“If I were to wish for anything, I should not wish for wealth and power, but for the passionate sense of the potential, for the eye which, ever young and ardent, sees the possible. Pleasure disappoints, possibility never. And what wine is so sparkling, what so fragrant, what so intoxicating, as possibility!”

aesrdtfyguhjhuigyftyd by Ernest Clottingbed - Sun, 04 Nov 2018 17:25:27 EST ID:3DJiiPdH No.527601 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Not to ramble but I usually just keep everything inside. I feel exactly this way. Anyone got advice how to overcome it? Also, on how to have a stronger sense of self and opinions. I just go with what other people say for the same reasons as in that post, but it's not a conscious decision... it's like a people pleaser thing I learnt to do in order to avoid conflict and ease the serious fear of getting into trouble growing up in an abusive home. I passively convince myself I agree with my friends' opinions as if they really are my opinions when they're not. I feel like if I don't do that, or if I speak my own mind, they won't like me anymore or will respond in a way that confirms my worthlessness. I have very low self-esteem obviously, but people pleasing is like a band-aid to protect myself from the imaginary scenario of getting hurt. It doesn't really help though, it just makes me feel walked over.

I'd like to know how to be myself no matter who I'm talking to, instead of changing who I am in order to fit their personality, trying to bond with them, entertaining them to ensure they like me. In regular conversation I literally avoid the use of "I" all together and am just a soundboard... it's like I only exist to accommodate other people's feelings and don't want to add in what I really think because I'm certain they don't care and I'm wasting their time. It's kind of awful trying to be neutral and sucking up to others all the time like I have no identity, especially because nobody has the same consideration for me.

Any hint of opinion I do share isn't even considered or respected -- it's either outright ignored (which makes me feel terrible) or trampled all over because my friends have very strong, firm characters. It can be a bit cold and brutal to be on the receiving end of, like what I say isn't valued. They're not very affectionate and give no signs of caring. It really feels like they don't care about my opinion by how they respond sometimes. But if they really didn't like me, they wouldn…
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hooked on meth by Alice Sinnerwater - Sun, 04 Nov 2018 16:54:06 EST ID:dBTG+jdV No.527600 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've been telling myself that I'm going to quit for the past year and a half. I've made no progress in that time. I've neglected my relationship with friends, burried myself in debt and made myself look like a total fucking tweaker more times than I can count.

I'm stuck back at home in my mom's basement. I fuck off work when I feel depressed or tired. I have no car, although I have about $700 saved so I'm close to having a beater.

I have so many talents and potential, but I let this motherfucker control me. I've been on one for a couple months now and I know this comedown is going to suck so bad. I have a quarter gram left and I need to make it to work this week or I'm fired.

tl;dr don't fucking do meth
William Buzzlehed - Mon, 05 Nov 2018 16:17:19 EST ID:kQMpBd21 No.527620 Ignore Report Quick Reply
This is why I tell you retards to not binge, stop chasing highs, use small doses. You never listen. Enjoy the brain damage duder

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