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Do you think they will create sex bots

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- Sat, 13 Nov 2021 22:34:15 EST Xoi03vMJ No.541128
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Or robot wives..there's no way as a deaf man i could get a non deaf woman.
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David Buzzville - Fri, 19 Nov 2021 22:33:31 EST qxHlraK/ No.541207 Reply
There were a ton of girls at my community college that took ASL just for the hell of it. Just saying.
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Edwin Honeyville - Sun, 21 Nov 2021 06:07:37 EST 00KbcawF No.541217 Reply
I'm a power chair user with like, transient mutism from having serious mental problems and I still have casual or long-term relationships, with abled people or not. I recognize for some deaf people there's a language barrier, or a language-low-fence, anyway, but hearing people do know ASL and you clearly can write English.

Is there an issue with dating deaf women outside of rarity? I actually prefer dating disabled people because they automatically understand some things and have a lot of equanimity.

afraid to leave my house

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- Mon, 23 Aug 2021 21:06:41 EST IayoLn9n No.540300
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I'm afraid of leaving the house. It's not agoraphobia, I love nature and open spaces. It's not social anxiety, I can talk to people perfectly; however my social skills suck and I do have that feeling telling me that everyone is judging me.
But my problem is the act of leaving itself, my mother used to be really possessive and didn't like me being away from her. Leaving the house was a big deal, she asked so many questions and going just for a walk or to the store for a candy bar was unacceptable; if I wanted to get out I had to have a reason for leaving the house.
Now I can't leave, I feel dread and anxiety at the door. Once I'm outside I feel fine.
Help me, I run out of drugs and even food constantly because going for groceries requires so much mental energy and often I have to get drunk to do it, I'm trapped.
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Martha Fanridge - Sun, 14 Nov 2021 18:34:44 EST UHpV6JPb No.541138 Reply
How 2 stop judging others and thinking they are judging you?
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William Tootdale - Sat, 20 Nov 2021 02:02:41 EST XxwKwgwZ No.541209 Reply
>>540300
Look, this will even you out a bit.
NO ONE GIVES A FUCK ABOUT WHAT YOU GET AT THE GROCERY STORE.
You're narcissistic if you think otherwise. Tell me, how often are you thinking about the people that you saw at the grocery store? Realize that the people you aren't thinking about is equivocal to the the people you aren't thinking about not thinking about you.
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Doris Sellyhane - Sun, 21 Nov 2021 01:37:35 EST qxHlraK/ No.541215 Reply
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>>540300
>It's not social anxiety
>my social skills suck and I do have that feeling telling me that everyone is judging me
>I feel dread and anxiety at the door

>It's not social anxiety

How to communicate love when love has come before

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- Tue, 22 Jun 2021 11:31:06 EST UuASd/Tk No.539689
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There are places I'll remember all my life though some have changed — some forever, not for better — some have gone and some remain. All these places have their moments with lovers and friends I still can recall. Some are dead and some are living — in my life I've loved them all.

But of all these friends and lovers there is no one who compares with you, and these memories lose their meaning when I think of love as something new.

Though I know I'll never ever lose affection for people and things that went before, I know I'll often stop and think about them — in my life I love you more.
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Charles Drovingstock - Fri, 19 Nov 2021 02:02:23 EST HsaA77+i No.541192 Reply
>>539781
>>539773
wrong monks get addicted to shit just like the rest of us, one of my favorite Bhante Vimalaramsi smokes cigarettes, and its often for monks to become fat from candy.
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Isabella Sorrypudge - Fri, 19 Nov 2021 22:29:39 EST NRkDBSgv No.541206 Reply
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>>539689
rip anon

i'm in a similar situation, i'm going back out into the world for work/housing and i find my self addicted to approval and social dominance. every time i wedge my way into a conversation with whatever my motive is, i get gratification. i think dependency on others for my thrills is going to be my end at this rate.

i have to stay around sane people, or else i absorb all the crazy rhetoric. i refuse to accept being so dependant. but no man is an island as they say.
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Henry Broblingdune - Sat, 20 Nov 2021 08:01:39 EST NcafDS17 No.541211 Reply
>>541206
You should know that when you're 33 and nobody wants to be around you, it's because you're always "on" and trying to be the center of attention.

You have been poisoned on purpose - eliminate the competition

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- Tue, 16 Nov 2021 14:31:46 EST Snz5K+Zw No.541164
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Best greetings to all of you, dear /qq/.

Before I start my message, I apologize for this post during the global pandemic. Many people are concerned not only with the limitations of normal life, but also with the loss of their jobs.

My aim is not to bother or disturb you, but to share information that, at least in my eyes, is important. I would love to mention two points at the beginning, provided that this is permitted.

First of all, this writing is not about theories such as the so-called QAnon movement, fairy tales called political ideologies, or fear-based beliefs (for example that ancient groups and organizations such as the Knights Templar, Rosicrucians, Freemasonry, Rh negative blood / descendents of Atlanteans, ruling class, Sumerian and Babylonian "deities" control the game of life).

Rather, they are large companies such as Monsanto, Bayer, Dow Chemical, Syngenta, DuPont and many more.

If that is allowed, I would like to briefly quote the American comedian George Carlin, as his sentences go really well with it.

"It’s never gonna get any better. Don’t look for it. Be happy with what you got. Because the owners of this country don't want that. I'm talking about the real owners now, the real owners, the big wealthy business interests that control things and make all the important decisions. Forget the politicians. The politicians are put there to give you the idea that you have freedom of choice. You don't. You have no choice. You have owners. They own you. They own everything. They own all the important land. They own and control the corporations. They’ve long since bought and paid for the senate, the congress, the state houses, the city halls, they got the judges in their back pockets and they own all the big media companies so they control just about all of the news and information you get to hear. They got you by the balls. They spend billions of dollars every year lobbying, lobbying, to get what they want. Well, we know what they want. They want more for themselves and less for everybody else, but I'll tell you what they don’t want: They don’t want a population of citizens capable of critical thinking. They don’t want well informed, well educated people capable of critical thinking."

"They’ll get it. They’ll get it all from you, sooner or later, 'cause they own this fucking place. It's a big club, and you ain’t in it. You and I are not in the big club. They don’t give a fuck about you. They don’t give a fuck about you. They don't care about you at all -- at all -- at all."

"It's called the American Dream, because you have to be asleep to believe it.”

Second, you will find a summary at the end of this message, as not everyone has the time and / or interest to read everything, which is perfectly fine.

My parents came to the western world from Eastern Europe in the early 1990s to enable themselves and their children to have a better life (financial security, more opportunities, jobs and protection). However, those times are long gone. An incredibly high rate of mental illness, severe loneliness among all age groups, no sense of community, little to no cohesion, broken families or single parents, hopelessness in everyday life and much more.

I have been working in the social field for a long time, especially in various nursing homes, psychiatric clinics and sheltered workshops for the disabled (both with adolescents and adults that have physical and / or mental disabilities). What I experienced every day is hell on earth for patients and residents, literally.

People wait several months for a free therapy place and want help, but in many cases only psychotropic drugs are administered and meals, consisting of the cheapest and nutrient-poor foods from the supermarket.

Many of them are mostly just lying in their bed and waiting to die, at least that is my experience as an employee in this professional sector. My own father was heavily alcoholic in his lifetime and when he went to the clinic he was completely psychotic, unfocused and distracted. In childhood and adolescence, such people were zombies for me without emotions and feelings, as silly, impolite and disrespectful as that may sound.

Millions of people trust doctors because they have graduated from university. But reality shows again and again that it doesn't matter which illness or defect it is, strong psychotropic drugs are usually administered. Many grow up with an attitude of taking a drug to solve any problem. The truth is, suicide rates are increasing and getting worse every year, psychiatric hospitals are full of patients (waiting months for a free place in therapy), elderly people in nursing homes wish to die every day, and no one knows a solution.

I hardly know anyone (regardless of whether they are students, workers or job seekers) who is free from antidepressants, benzodiazepines and / or other drugs.

The term "genetics" is used very often for various problems, diseases, deficits and deformities (cancer, height, face shape, physique, hair loss and much more, to name a few examples), but is that really the only factor?

Many of us live in this modern, western society and enjoy this "simple" life with various technological aids that can make things easier. Unfortunately, there is also a downside to all of this. The disadvantages:

  • low testosterone levels and catastrophic sperm quality due to endocrine disruptors (bisphenol A, PFOA / Teflon, PFOS, PCB, parabens, dioxins, phthalates, PFC), heavy metals (mercury, arsenic, lead, cadmium, aluminum, etc.), plastics and personal care products
  • neurotoxins (DDT, PBDE, PERC, ethanol)
  • environmental pollutants
  • xeno- and phytoestrogens
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Sidney Birrywater - Thu, 18 Nov 2021 07:54:11 EST 3WzGlzeO No.541181 Reply
>>541170
lol, i was in that thread when that pepe was made. It was a bloated cadaver that was salvaged from water
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Living with rejection

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- Sat, 13 Nov 2021 13:46:06 EST qP/l6WT0 No.541123
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So have been living with the most amazing girl since the start of the year. It took me a while to summon up the courage to tell her that I like her and would like to get to know her as more than a friend. She didn't feel the same way. Living with her is super awkward now and I just want to crawl out of my skin every day. Is there anyway yo relive the awkward tension or do I just have to feel like this until I can find a new place to live?
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Martha Pumbleworth - Mon, 15 Nov 2021 12:05:22 EST x5Ie0suH No.541150 Reply
You gotta move ourt
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Molly Brishwater - Thu, 18 Nov 2021 17:08:20 EST BXtKp+cn No.541186 Reply
>>541123
Act like nothing had happened, focus on something different.
Probably you just got a bit horny for a long time from not having sex, go out find some hot chick or call for a hot escort and have a sex few times. After some sex session you will completly feel comfortable in front of that girl.

How would you handle this?

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- Tue, 27 Jul 2021 10:21:46 EST 196j6t85 No.540051
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Sorry for the long read. I cut out several things that aren't important but it still turned out pretty long.

>be friendless NEET who orders drugs through the internet
>meet someone through discord server
>they actually live near me
>they actually have similar niche interests
>they are also experienced in using drugs, they have used DPH, DXM, opiates, acid, shrooms, etc.
>talk to them for at least 2 weeks through discord
>meet up, eat lunch and smoke some weed and walk around in a park, it goes well and I like talking to him, find out we have even more things in common
>we decide next time we hang out we're gonna trip on AL-LAD and chill in a park near his place, 30 minutes walk from where I live
>says it would be cool if we go to his place if we need to use the bathroom or get water etc. (this is important later)
>we each take 300 ug, my blotters
>I've never done blotters before, this is only my third time doing acid, other times were microdots, following his lead because he is more experienced with acid, hold the blotters in my mouth until they disintegrate like he says
>it kicks in, I start feeling uncomfortable, as I always do on the come-up of any hallucinogen, not just come-up anxiety but a feeling of general physical discomfort and confusion
>all going well so far though, I expected this, happens every time
>it starts REALLY kicking in, and there are fucking fractals everywhere, AL-LAD really is way more visual than other lysergamides
>basically blind with fractals
>still feeling uncomfortable but it's fading
>also have to take a shit, not sure if this is an effect of the drug or not, or if it will go away
>he keeps saying "WHOOOOAH MAN LOOK AT THESE FRACTALS DUDE IT'S SO TRIPPY" and stuff like that
>I just say things like "yep it certainly is" in an increasingly irritated voice, trying to not be a dick and tell him overtly to shut up but just hint that I would like him to hold his tongue if he doesn't have anything new to say
>we're sitting in front of a lake, where there are ducks, a heron and two birds I would later learn are called caspien terns, the caspien terns are fishing by diving into the water, it really is magnificent
>he smokes a joint
>keeps loudly saying "WHOOOAAAHH MAN THESE FRACTALS HOLY SHIT" etc. every few minutes, says it even more now
>I'm just trying to look at the birds and the visuals while dealing with the lingering discomfort, AL-LAD does have a longer come-up it seems as people say
>I have to take a shit and I don't want to hold it the whole day, so I decide to get us walking back in the direction we came from
>I'm walking several feet ahead of him, walking like a normal person as the come-up has finally finished for me, he's stumbling around, sits in the middle of a bike path at one point again loudly pointing out the fact that he is seeing fractals
>really fucking annoyed with him and want to be alone at this point
>tell him I have to take a shit and can we please go to his place so I can use his bathroom
>he just ignores me
>he's super quiet and awkward all of a sudden
>keep telling him I have to use the bathroom
>"......"
>"Well I'm going then, are you going to be alright by yourself?"
>he says he will be
>he seems kind of depressed maybe
>thinking maybe we both just want to be by ourselves and introspect so whatever
>"If there's something you need to introspect about, don't be afraid to think about it, y'know?" I tell him before I leave, figuring maybe he will feel foolish later for the way he acted and apologize
>walk home in 28 C heat while tripping balls
>finally get to take a shit, have a cold shower
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Samuel Brookfuck - Sun, 01 Aug 2021 19:27:44 EST x9U1lk46 No.540142 Reply
id help the guy who went to hospital look for his backpack i guess?
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Charles Drovingstock - Fri, 19 Nov 2021 01:53:26 EST HsaA77+i No.541191 Reply
this is why i dont do drugs with people before observing them do drugs tbh (or theyre free)

Always wanted a drug road trip

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- Fri, 13 Aug 2021 23:00:05 EST iTbI+C5W No.540215
File: 1628910005602.jpg -(54751B / 53.47KB, 213x400) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Always wanted a drug road trip
>friend had a camper
>we always had fires smoking weed out there, making drinks, doing other drugs, playing old shitty Xbox games, smoking listening to music
>always fantasized about doing something similar with a camper or rv on the road with friends
>have designated drivers and the people in the back can just smoke and drink coffee
>friends camper had a coffee maker, fridge, electric stove, tv, Xbox
>wanted to drive down the coast and stop at cities and attractions
>at night sleeping under the stars with a fire and drinks smoking
>even had a plan of buying a bunch of benzo powder and making pills, and solutions that would be impossible to identify, and stopping and getting weed shipped to P.O. boxes

I still think it would have sucked when it came to showers, electricity, water, sleeping outside and drug laws would make it probably make it impossible, plus everyone needing a lot of money but I used to fantasize about it a lot getting drunk and high out there
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Charles Drovingstock - Fri, 19 Nov 2021 01:46:47 EST HsaA77+i No.541190 Reply
>>540215
bro pack a bag and buy some weed, stick out your thumb, i wasted 18-21 doing that, was good, but ive always had shitty hygene so

My wife is a biatch and I hate her

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- Mon, 25 Oct 2021 06:11:25 EST eR8QsEuG No.540978
File: 1635156685150.jpg -(145815B / 142.40KB, 1024x712) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. My wife is a biatch and I hate her
She's eaten away at my self-esteem little by little and I can't handel the depression caused by it.

I've tried to get her to leave me but she never does. jhere she comes so I cna't type anymore.
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Thomas Clattingshit - Sun, 07 Nov 2021 15:07:11 EST FfiZ9RPG No.541070 Reply
couple therapy?
or if shit is really bad, get advice from a domestic abuse hotline?
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Charles Drovingstock - Fri, 19 Nov 2021 01:30:23 EST HsaA77+i No.541188 Reply
>>540978
my buddy just told me this same shit

joe if thats u kick her drunk mean ass out lol reclaim ur house

Depression

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- Mon, 15 Feb 2021 11:17:19 EST LawFEndT No.538205
File: 1613405839693.jpg -(116455B / 113.73KB, 964x894) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Depression
I have been depressed since i was a kid. I started antidepressants at age 17 and it did a complete 180 on my depression, even colors seemed brighter, i was suddenly ok. Went off them a few years later. Got really depressed over the next 5 years and tried to blow up my life in various ways (not suicidal just self-destructive things). Then caved and went back on antidepressants. Got much better again. Got better to the point i convinced myself that it was just Society™️ that was the problem. Went off them. Got more depressed than I have ever been in my life maybe, barely even functional. Went back on. Feeling okay now. Whenever i feel okay i think about how what if it is just external/societal bullshit that makes me feel bad? Is it just that I can’t cope with that at all off antidepressants? A psychiatrist kind of scolded me last time and was like “you have a biological problem and you need to take medication”. And clearly, from my history, this is apparently true. I just have this feeling deep down that I can just figure it out and conquer it in another way. But I don’t think that’s true.

Thoughts???????

Pic is sand up close.
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Frederick Dartford - Wed, 17 Nov 2021 22:53:16 EST Cy8/A9XL No.541175 Reply
>>541173
dopamine fast is a thing, and its normal for people who are addicted to stuff to lash out at those offering possible solutions
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Wesley Crindlestatch - Thu, 18 Nov 2021 00:21:31 EST AhaUpFcx No.541176 Reply
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>>541173
>>541174

holy coping mechanism batman. the answer to your literal life is literally around the corner but you're going to stay huddled on this forum and not try this solution that will literally work LMAO

>ban dodger
holy making up lies to make you feel superior batman
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Lost attraction to a girl after seeing self harm scars

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- Mon, 08 Nov 2021 21:33:29 EST lYwVS2OU No.541078
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There is no way i can tell this without sounding like an asshole, but title resumes it.

Been talking to the sister of one of my best friends for a week or so after i went to his birthday party, things got spicier and spicier in conversations, and we exchanged nudes.

Thing is, she has really a lot of really visible self harm scars on her leg, and i know its shallow and stupid to lose attraction to her for it, but i just saw all that and it was a huge turn off, im not gonna tell her its about those or say anything that makes her feel bad about those cause im not that much of a dick.

But i cant help but wonder how bad truly is to lose all the attraction i had with her because of it, i never was looking into something deep, and she being just out of a relationship probably is just looking for a hook up too, but i know gotta act in a way to slowly leave this, without hurting her or being a jerk, i like her a lot as a person too, and not to mention her brother is someone really valuable in my life too, so how should i go with this? I cant just ghost her or anything like this, and i always had this problem of never breaking up or cutting off contact cause i never knew how, meaning i always got in relationships i didnt want too, but that always ended up worse, and would end up worse in this.

Im sorry for all those with self harm scars, i dated people with them already, i know its shallow, but for some reason, hers were a huge turn off for me, and i cant think i can force myself to be attracted to her and that would make everything worse.
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Lillian Goodcocke - Fri, 12 Nov 2021 09:20:20 EST B351rbUG No.541108 Reply
wait are you unattracted to the scars physically or are you doing mental gymnastics like some of the posters itt?
in any case just say you're seeing another person or whatever generic excuse works better
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Charlotte Dacklelock - Fri, 12 Nov 2021 23:41:17 EST X6qCCLkQ No.541115 Reply
>>541106
>one of the biggest indicators of criminal behavior is evidence of previous criminal behavior
This is even worse, though, and attacks even more minorities. If employers followed your guidelines to life we'd have a perpetual undercaste that could never find gainful employment.

Oh wait. :^)
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Phoebe Dublingwater - Sat, 13 Nov 2021 16:38:41 EST lYwVS2OU No.541125 Reply
>>541108
Physically, i just cant look at it as some huge turn off, i dated people who had self harm scars, but not as apparent and strong as her, for some reason, hers were a huge turn off.

I Fucked up

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- Thu, 11 Nov 2021 20:19:01 EST j2LQ1RtS No.541102
File: 1636679941237.jpg -(44621B / 43.58KB, 401x354) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I Fucked up
I fucked up so bad guys! i fucked up! UwU
i was watching old photos of an old crush and i zoomed up her butt and gave it a like by mistake of course i instantly removed it, now i already counted on myself being a retard so before that i went into plane move and disabled wifi but a little notificacion said it would update once the internet came back, i then unistalled instagram from my phone in the hopes of countering that, WHAT DO I DO!? should i block her? will what i did work, i know about the whole "give like to the last pick trick" but i would like to leave that as a last resort. PLZ help me my life is shitty enough already
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Lillian Goodcocke - Fri, 12 Nov 2021 09:26:29 EST B351rbUG No.541109 Reply
what's wrong with leaving a like on your ex crush's insta?
grow some balls, kid
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Phineas Pickville - Fri, 12 Nov 2021 10:43:14 EST oC50rY27 No.541110 Reply
You left a like on insta?
And now you're all in a whirlwind over it?

This is an 18+ website.
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Frederick Fablingwell - Sun, 14 Nov 2021 23:52:24 EST jKn0uNBf No.541141 Reply
Social anxiety sun. Get on it

friendship fallout

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- Sat, 06 Nov 2021 20:44:08 EST qQlK1kDg No.541064
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Hello /qq been awhile since i posted last time. Its not to serious in comparison to some qq posts, but it still bugs me out very much. I have a problem with a ppl thqat i treated as my best friends. Im the person with very small friends amount, but I always treat/ed each one of them with much care. For last few years Ive been close with particular group of 4 ppl. Ive shared hobby with them but corona came and took a number on us. Ive tried to organize our meetups, but it turned unsucsesful in the long run. After few months of this Ive recived almost no contact from them. Ive managed to talk with them and say everything about the whole ordeal and that i think were falling apart. Noone but just one of them gave a damn. Frankly i would just stopped giving shit few months earlier if it wasnt for that one friend which i was closest to. Evenso, after our heartly talk, our contact still revoles around exchanging few words once a month. Were gone from meeting1-2 times a week to once/twice a year. All of them can act pretty enthusiastic, but from what ive heard all 4 of them talk regularly online. After almost an year of this im positive that one of said friends talked shit behind my back and somewhat helped with our fallout. At this point I just want to finish our friendship, because i just feel bad each time i think about it. Problem is I made a promise to myself to never ghost a friend, after 10 years ago my old friend has done it to me. In my case however, i spelled out my beens few times already, without any meaningful reaction from their side.
I have troubles when it comes to friend relationships, im a massive overthinker but those are ppl which i cared for aroud 8 years and still feel for them despite how it is between us atm. How should i resolve it, what would you do? Should i just stop responding? Should i tell my other friends to not give anyting about me if said ppl would try to reach for info? Or should i write my final mssg atleast to the guy, mentioning that i just dont accept the state of our relation?
I would want to dont give a damn but like i said i really cared for those guys and it pains me that people can do this kind of shit and dont care at all. I still have 2-3 other friends but stories like this only alienate me further from being friendly and open myself to anyone.
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Emma Badgedale - Sun, 07 Nov 2021 03:58:38 EST 286kncXx No.541067 Reply
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Friendships are are based on common interest. Without it, they fall apart and most people just accept this fact of life and move on. You remind me of myself. I too had a group of friends that fell apart like that. We were extremely close, shared everything. But the truth is, our friendship would never be without school and once we were out, it ended. We organized a meetup some 3 months later, then about 6 months later and finally I tried to organize it a year after the last one only to have one of them fail to show up, making us postpone for some other time...which never came. Haven't heard of them since then, it's been almost five years.
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Caroline Porrymere - Sun, 07 Nov 2021 06:33:48 EST qQlK1kDg No.541068 Reply
>>541067
Most people and friendships are like that, i agree, but in my expirience you also run into some long lasting friends which you treat like a family members. Im in my 30s and i dont search for superficial friendships, thats why i tend to focus on just few people and treat them as my family. I have few friends like this and we still talk and help each other in case of any emergancy, having no common interest. We only can meet like once a month, but we trust in eachother 100%. Meanwhile i treated those guys in similar fashion but I guess they saw it differently. Im just curious if the last guy really do care or just have guilty feels. I know im kindda hopeless but thats the way i am, i really do give a shit for ppl that i chose to befriend and have issues with being treated as noone after our journey. I seek help of how to deal with a fallout because I have a problem with leting people go.
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Twoahanaem Wumbleworth - Thu, 11 Nov 2021 00:19:06 EST XlUX5dnl No.541092 Reply
>>541064
Check it OP...
Friends as family in a nutshell. Anything short of a midget just won't do ;)

Signs of mental illness

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- Mon, 08 Nov 2021 02:16:52 EST K6sWG489 No.541072
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At least twice now I've had pretty unpleasant allergic reactions from breathing in spores from the mold growing on old food in my room.

Does that mean that I should see a therapist or something?
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John Choffingsen - Wed, 10 Nov 2021 12:04:45 EST FfiZ9RPG No.541089 Reply
you don't need a therapist you just need a freezer in your bedroom that you can put old food / dirty plates in . lol kidding you need a therapist. and a freezer.

if you are using some substance it might be the substance
if not
if not it might be depression
if not it might be catatonia (can you move?)
if not it might be ADHD
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Molly Blunkingold - Wed, 10 Nov 2021 16:54:01 EST LQ4VvGPH No.541091 Reply
I would see an allergist doctor. They can give you shots that will take car of most allergies. You just have to lie and say you have someone who can administer the shots and then just do them yourself unless you want to deal with the hassle of going in all the time.
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David Buzzville - Fri, 19 Nov 2021 21:49:35 EST qxHlraK/ No.541205 Reply
>>541072
>unpleasant allergic reactions
>therapist
lol this motherfucker

Pulling yourself out of a hole

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- Thu, 14 Oct 2021 14:00:37 EST CKNcaQhp No.540916
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How many of you have successfully turned your lives around after being a mess? Did it take being rock bottom and which habits honestly cemented your change?
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Thomas Clattingshit - Sun, 07 Nov 2021 15:25:36 EST FfiZ9RPG No.541071 Reply
huberman has got credentials and he has done podcasts about dopamine fasting, does seem to be a legit thing MAYBE. definitely worth trying, what have any of us got to lose? seriously? watch the humberman videos on it though because he has very specific instructions on how to do it and lets you know about the studies that support or don't exactly support what he is saying
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Eugene Mosslebury - Tue, 09 Nov 2021 14:38:14 EST Fm8HNrgN No.541081 Reply
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It's weird to think about because I look back at what actions were pivotal to me getting my life together after trying for so long and I can clearly identify them, but not to take credit away from my accomplishments, it just seems like a matter of chance that things happened the way they did for the better. Now that I'm out of the fog I was in I can clearly see how close I was to dying and I know the things I have to do to not be there again and it's much easier now that I'm on the trajectory that I'm on and have some momentum going, but my last overdose for instance the thing that actually made me quit drinking and abusing prescription medications for good, I was on God knows what along with downing almost a fifth of liquor over the course of half an hour, I was in the habit of blacking out for days to weeks at a time during this period so I don't know why exactly I chose to do this, but I also cut up my arms a bit too, nothing needing stitches but quite a bit of blood and a couple years later just some very feint scarring you can only see in the light if it's pointed out, so I'm lucky in that regard but anyway after doing this I called my brother who called 911 on me. Or maybe I called 911 on myself after calling him. I don't remember.

I remember getting onto the ambulance and then waking up in detox a few days later. They told me that I blew a .4 and that if I hadn't been put on life support there's little chance I would've lived. I was severely chemically dependent on alcohol and if a drug was in front of me I would take it. I needed a few shots to wake up in the morning and I'd clear a 6 pack at work before lunch. Ultimately I spent 7 days in detox and then to psych. Had DTs so bad I'd just sit straight up from a deep sleep and scream, I had a seizure so bad I threw myself out of the bed ripping all the equipment out of me, I don't remember any of this of course being on as much Ativan as I was, I just remember waking up with a minder next to me under 24 hour surveillance until they could take me to psych. The thing is, I have no clue why I cut up my arms also, and if I hadn't it would've been just another night of drinking and drugging for me, but it would've been my last. Why did I get to live? Not to mention the fact that even if I had survived I would've still been on the path to certain death if I hadn't stopped drinking, it was just luck I cut myself and it was just luck that this scared me enough to power through the first few months and now I just don't drink it's not a part of my world and it's something I'm sure I'll never do, because I like living now finally.

I also in a way had the perfect storm of things working in my favor after quitting, because when it happened I had been spiraling down for a couple years and had spent the past year prior in and out of psych wards, I have bipolar and obviously substance abuse issues, and I probably would've gotten it no matter what given my family history, but the severity definitely stemmed almost entirely from my resistance towards my sexuality and then a little later gender identity. When I OD'd I had already identified this as the problem or at least the principle and reached out for more help through my therapist who then referred me to one more equipped to handle my issue and I was just starting the process of doing it and I was excited but the stress made my drinking worse and landed me in the hospital that last time.

When I got out though and just so happened to get sober and started HRT a few months later in January of last year all of us sudden I had this perfectly clean slate and my life opened up like this project and I had something concrete that I could always be working on on which I could pin the more all-encompassing existential dread and sadness and uncertainty about reality that came with my mental illness and for the first time in my life I felt real hope for the future, every step along the way my past got a little further way and at this point I might as well be a completely different person, physically I guess I am, in a way my old memories could have just as well been implanted in me my way of life as a mentally ill addict in and out of psych wards and a man seems so alien to me now, that at times it feels like I basically just all of us sudden started existed in the form I do now out of nothing, and there's unfortunately not much I can bring back in the way of meaningful advice, especially for people who don't have this specific set of circumstances.

I think this thing maybe can be any sort of self-improvement, learning an instrument, losing weight, bodybuilding, whatever mine just so happened to be what it is and now I'm happier than I could have imagined, I look great and blend in well, I get to dress and act how I want, I started reading more and went back to school, I taught myself how to play the bass, I have a job that I really like, I'm in a loving relationship with a guy who I care about and who clearly cares about me, I get to experience so many things most people take for granted for the first time all at once and I'm making up for lost time really well. I've carved out a really nice life for myself in the end and I'm excited for what comes next, I just wish I could tell you how.

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