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- Sun, 30 Jun 2019 09:43:59 EST 1IaPv+if No.530097
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Am I the only one who was raped as a small child???

The neighbor who would babysit me after elementary school having me suck him when I was like 6 (i was in first grade)... and it went on for wayyyyy to long.....
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Ally - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 10:08:13 EST 1IaPv+if No.530099 Reply
>>530098
How the fuck am I supposed to relax when it creeps into my thoughts any time I have too much to drink
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Cornelius Greenshaw - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 10:12:04 EST dZnLdogk No.530100 Reply
>>530098
Just because you wish you could facefuck a small child, it doesn't mean that it's actually okay no matter how hard you wish it was. Actual first world problems is when you're someone who would molest children but is stopped by the law. Or having done so many drugs your brain doesn't work properly, you're too dumb to realise it and can't even remember to use/not use tripcodes consistently, that's a first world problem. Child rape occurs worldwide so it's literally not a "first world problem" any more than dying.

Depending on how violent or not, and how unpleasant or not it was it may have lasting effects. This sort of thing can change how people view things like sexuality and themselves. OP has given us 3 "sentences" to go on and from that we don't know. I'd guess from the main complaint being "It went on too long" that OP got away lightly. Or alternatively they're waiting for someone who's experienced it before they say more.

OP I've definitely seen the odd thread about it. What happened to you is something most people don't experience but is far more common than most decent people would want though. There are others even on this community.

I had a relationship with a girl who I think suffered something but I'm not quite sure to what extent she was intefered with as a child (or if she was old enough to understand). She never told me and I think she might have told me most of the surrounding story but the bit where the incident happened she slightly altered the events. She said she sort of vaguely remembered the guy touching her feet and then he was arrested, I think she was testing the waters and one, maybe both of us failed that test. But the way she was about a lot of things was weird. It was only after our relationship the penny dropped. She was a really nice girl and it didn't ruin her life but it definitely affected the way she approached sex and intimacy.
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Ally - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 10:43:37 EST 1IaPv+if No.530101 Reply
>>530100
I guess it's my own fault you were confused about whether or not I was telling the truth or a pedo trying to cryptically express their guilt. It was something that happened to me when I was a kid, and far too long was just in reference to the fact he abused me for well over a year and it only stopped because he moved away. It's something I've never really talked about but bothers me whenever I have too much to drink and my emotional guard is down or when my bf wants me to give him oral. The second circumstance doesn't really happen anymore because I'm pretty sure he's picked up on what happened to me from that and the fact I was so hesitant with touching in the beginning (he's the only guy I've ever dated) despite never bringing it up with him, or anyone for a matter of fact before.
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Cornelius Greenshaw - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 11:18:59 EST dZnLdogk No.530102 Reply
>>530101
Oh no, I was only confused about how badly it affects you because you said so little. Depending on the details that shit can tear people up much worse than you are but it's still a burden you shouldn't have to carry.

Look at the post I linked. Awe god, awe, or in that case walter has the highest ratio of self esteem to actual intelligence I've seen outside of politics. He dismissed your issue as if it were someone bending their badminton racket or having to deal with fuckwits (like him) on your free internet board and showed so little empathy or thought that if I didn't know it was him I'd be shocked.
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Ally - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 11:42:49 EST 1IaPv+if No.530103 Reply
>>530102
I mean I guess it could be worse. It can always be worse. Just gotta look on the bright side of life, cause when you look at it, life is utter shit. Still, idk how I could move past it, considering it always lurks in the back of my mind whenever I get intimate or intoxicated. I mean, do I talk to someone about it? My boyfriend? A therapist? Would a therapist have to involve law enforcement because I remember who it was? Maybe its just better of to keep my shame private.....

Also I haven't been on here since I transitioned in my teens, the sarcasm is real.
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Cornelius Greenshaw - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 13:46:26 EST dZnLdogk No.530106 Reply
OP I don't know how the legal side works but I'm pretty sure you can go to a therapist without pressing charges. It was a long time ago and what evidence do you have? There won't be a legal requirement to take action if there's hope of putting a case together. Such a law would be fucking stupid and a huge waste of resources as well as denying people help.

I might be wrong but you can always check. You can talk to your other half but if you're not going to do much about it you shouldn't expect too much from them except perhaps a little patience when you hesitate. I knew someone who for whatever reason couldn't have penetrative sex without pain. She refused to do anything about it. Her partner would have been patient if she'd tried to do something with it but her solution was just "lets not have sex". It's not ruining your life so unless it's getting worse you probably do have "don't worry" as an option. If it's bothering you a bit therapy might make it less bothersome though.

Personally I drink less because in general it was bad for my mental health. I drink when I know my shit won't bother me but don't otherwise.

>>530105
Sure but your first reaction was just to dismiss it out of hand and not check what it was. It doesn't sound like it's completely ruining OP's life but it's a problem and could probably be dealt with/improved.
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Phoebe Givingtock - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 17:19:19 EST YP6C8Yub No.530109 Reply
I think you should talk about it OP, it's obviously bothering you, and talking about your issues is usually healthy. I'd say you try talking to a therapist. Abuse issues are always really tough to talk about, and having someone experienced and with a thorough understanding on how to help you will probably do you more good than just telling your boyfriend.

I had a girlfriend who had had some abuse issues, and I didn't really know how to help her other than to be dear for her and not pressing her on the stuff she didn't feel ready to do. But she did go to therapy and her therapist actually could help her a lot. So I say you start by going to therapy and talking it out, and if you feel like doing also sharing it with your boyfriend.

Also, I've known several people who were abused/raped when they were kids, you're far from being the only one, and far from being the only who has trouble talking about it.
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Shit Susslechidge - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 02:49:16 EST 2LqvWgzN No.530118 Reply
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I've never been raped (well a fat girl took my virginity while I was wasted as fuck and couldn't comprehend what I was doing after walking in a park on my birthday so I guess some people would consider that rape)... but I know an uncle who got molested as a child and that's the type of emotional thing that seeps out of you when the alcohol gets the best of you and your inhibitions loosen.

There's a theory that some people turn gay due to molestation. I'm sure most of you will say that is not true but then again it's obvious some people get fetishes due to small incidental things that they saw as a child. If a kid could end up wanting to fuck horses because of My Little Pony why couldn't they end up wanting to fuck men because of getting molested by a man?
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Clara Buzzlefield - Sat, 06 Jul 2019 18:56:28 EST iVFZDVNZ No.530254 Reply
OP here, I just wanted to say thank you for the kind and helpful replies when I was drunk and upset. I think I'm gonna take some of the advice and see an actual therapist about what happened, maybe doing so will help me deal with it enough that I no longer need to make a drunk 420chan post in the middle of the night when I'm having trouble coping.
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Fanny Seblingsten - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 13:57:56 EST vOBNA1J1 No.530382 Reply
>>530118
The truth is that most molestation victims are girls, but passing on abuse is associated with male gender and not female gender. That's why so many men who are molested struggle with whether they're gay, because they had sexual relations with a man normalized for them at such a young age. It's confusing, because they don't see themselves as victims often, they see themselves as participants in the abuse (same-gender role models are the most significant) and the shame of the act would be shared between themselves and their abuser.
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Hedda Gindleway - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 18:43:21 EST xfo/UUC+ No.530389 Reply
>and it went on for wayyyyy to long.....

Why wouldn't you just tell your parents? I'm pretty sure once you mention the baby sitter is making you suck his cock any reasonable parent would do something about it.
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Phoebe Bennerpare - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 18:44:25 EST bZjBiC2x No.530390 Reply
>>530389
Sometimes you do a thing and you don't really understand it. Or something you just feel you're to blame so you don't admit it.
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Shitting Senkinbine - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 01:03:57 EST E508VR5x No.530398 Reply
>>530389
yeah, you show that rape victim. Show him/her how it was all his/her fault.

fuck you.
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Phyllis Puzzleson - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 18:56:43 EST 3A/9rSkO No.530415 Reply
>>530389
>>530391
>why didn't this six year old understand consent????
Pedophile filth please execute yourselves in short order before you spread your pedophile genes onto another generation.
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Eugene Pobberfeck - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 01:05:34 EST 1IaPv+if No.530527 Reply
>>530389
Because I was 6ish and didn't really understand what was happening....

asshole
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Hamilton Fupperson - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 07:32:16 EST pfQYdJPP No.530532 Reply
>>530389
Children have malleable minds and I think you know that and you're trying to excuse pedophile behavior.
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Cedric Fallyridge - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 08:02:54 EST kAEKpfyQ No.530533 Reply
>>530527
How am I the asshole here when you're making light of people who have actually been raped by crying for attention and sympathy over something you probably barely even remember and didn't even think was a big enough problem at the time to mention to anyone or to try and stop in any way. Do you even know why rape is so traumatic to people? It's because they don't want it to happen to them yet it happens anyway. The whole point is that their agency is being ripped from them, their consent wasn't given and yet they're being taken advantage of anyway. It's an act of violence and pain. It's extremely unpleasant and makes you feel powerless. You experienced none of that. If you just didn't understand what was happening then you just didn't understand what was happening. You didn't get raped, you didn't get traumatized and acting like you did to elicit sympathy tears from people on the internet is just low, asshole.
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Eugene Pobberfeck - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 08:23:14 EST 1IaPv+if No.530534 Reply
>>530533
Sorry I didn't share all the intimate details of my abuse, so it didn't sound traumatic enough for you. Guess I should have written a short story about what happened even though this thread has been one of the few times I've actually broached the subject at all.
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Ghengis Dong - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 10:44:36 EST 0bwG3QoS No.530536 Reply
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>>530097
I haven't read the whole thread. I was raped by my own BROTHER for years until it eventually stopped when I was around 10. It fucked me up for a while, and to an extent still does to this day. My father even walked in once when he was forcing me to suck him off, and he gave him a brief lecture and we never spoke of it. Don't succumb to pain. It's best that we live and tell our stories because if even a single person is helped by knowing its not their fault, then it's almost as if it was worth it.
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Charlotte Hosslehood - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 11:58:22 EST aHkMrj9o No.530537 Reply
>>530533
This is one of those things you sit behind a keyboard and say but you'd never say irl.
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Charlotte Hosslehood - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 11:59:16 EST aHkMrj9o No.530538 Reply
>>530536
Not only is in not your fault, it's not normal, it's traumatic, it has life changing consequences, and you shouldn't do it to anyone else.
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Ghengis Dong - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 12:25:57 EST 0bwG3QoS No.530539 Reply
>>530538
I might be mistaken, but you seem to suggest my post implied that this shit is normal or excuses people to go about harming children themselves which I absolutely did not do.

I described my own traumatic experience because it was relevant to the OP and that's about the long and short of it.
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Charlotte Hosslehood - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 13:23:39 EST aHkMrj9o No.530540 Reply
>>530539
Not implying that at all. "It's not normal and don't do it to anyone else" comes out of modern social research on why abuse gets passed on by men and not women.
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Jack Blythefoot - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 17:57:04 EST 3A/9rSkO No.530542 Reply
>>530533
How much pedo coping can one creature produce? You're seriously sitting here on a drugs website stating a six year old can provide consent. I feel sorry for you and your parents.
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Ian Gurringladge - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 20:03:31 EST vnF9GinG No.530543 Reply
>>530542
And that's why men pass on abuse and not women. Shame means there's something wrong with you.
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Ian Gurringladge - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 21:41:49 EST vnF9GinG No.530545 Reply
>>530544
Did you reply to the right post?
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Clara Nindernark - Sun, 21 Jul 2019 04:08:21 EST 3A/9rSkO No.530547 Reply
>>530543
Sexism isn't a valid thesis.
>incoming correlational studies like a racialist would use
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Doris Duckhood - Sun, 21 Jul 2019 07:10:33 EST A8m11hb5 No.530551 Reply
>>530547
It's common knowledge that a child who is abused passing on their abuse as an adult to another child is associated with male gender and not female. It would not be something you could find modern literature or demographic studies to refute.
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Angus Simmlewit - Sun, 21 Jul 2019 12:57:01 EST UelVVgpu No.530556 Reply
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Not really.

>heard and saw dad violently attacking and raping mom at young age
>molested by same-age classmate
>weird sexual abuse + emotional incest from mom as a teen
>groomed by older "boyfriend" with whom I had celibate relationship (I was 11, he was 22)

so no actual child rape. lots of other kinds of abuse not listed here, but still.

If you want to give someone push-pull relationship problems, universal trust issues, emotional flashbacks, chronic suicidality, future drug, self-injury, etc problems, and a lasting self-hatred, kiddly diddling is an A+ way to do it. My mom's mom and my mom were both raped as kids and they had/have serious fucking emotional problems, both, which their parenting and partner decisions reflected.

It makes me sad some people are so selfish that they'd despoil a kid's whole life, plant what is possibly a family curse, for an orgasm and a little sense of power
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Samuel Gellerkon - Sun, 21 Jul 2019 21:14:09 EST 3A/9rSkO No.530561 Reply
>>530551
>disprove my argument for me
Sexism still isn't a valid thesis.
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Frederick Panningpin - Mon, 22 Jul 2019 20:45:54 EST 3A/9rSkO No.530574 Reply
>>530571
Neither do your attempts to castigate male victims of rape with correlational studies that would make a /pol/mutant feel right at home.
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Nicholas Bemmlechedging - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 12:23:53 EST ZdyXyUcS No.530578 Reply
>>530574
Male victims of childhood sexual abuse pass on their abuse and female victims do not, though. Therefore it's important to focus abatement efforts (in terms of abused people passing on abuse) on male victims and not female victims, right?
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Fuck Bogglesin - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 12:41:14 EST Lny7/LNo No.530579 Reply
>>530578
>and female victims do not
Maybe not physically most of the time, but they sure as fucking hell carry it like a badge.
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Frederick Panningpin - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 19:04:13 EST 3A/9rSkO No.530583 Reply
>>530578
>Black people commit more crimes than white people on average. Therefore it's important to focus on abatement within the black community rather than the white community.
You're welcome to go back to the future at any time.
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Barnaby Blytheforth - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 19:07:03 EST J674FpLa No.530584 Reply
>>530583
This guy has a good point, black people -do- commit more crimes.
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George Hockledale - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 19:40:00 EST USUZpST+ No.530585 Reply
Don't read this spoiler text OP. It's just a tasteless joke.

>The neighbor who would babysit me after elementary school having me suck him when I was like 6 (i was in first grade)... and it went on for wayyyyy to long.....
Maybe he'd have cum faster if you put some enthusiasm into it
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Eliza Shakeman - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 19:56:12 EST rM9EOQD/ No.530586 Reply
>>530583
There are loads of crime abatement measures focused on the black community.
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Nell Gicklesutch - Wed, 24 Jul 2019 02:22:24 EST MPjsoBwd No.530588 Reply
>dear lord why did I read this thread brought up horrible triggers for me.
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Cyril Clibbercocke - Wed, 24 Jul 2019 15:23:38 EST 3A/9rSkO No.530598 Reply
>>530584
>>530586
>black people exist so segregation is okay
>males commit sexual violence at a higher rate so only targeting them with segregation practices is okay
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Archie Brirringtark - Wed, 24 Jul 2019 15:27:44 EST L671q8jt No.530599 Reply
>>530598
Do not engage with /pol/tards. If they insist on shitting up a thread with this garbage, just report them.

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