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You lack motivation because you're spending all your time determining the outcome before they occur and believing you know it all.
>Nonsense about them offering me a new perspective and turning back from a depressing path can be put between fairy tales
Just because they can't know you as well as you do means they can't offer you a new perspective? You considering that nonsense and lumping it in with fairy tales is what's nonsense. The fuck are you, omniscient?
I had the same problem as you man, and I know people who have the same problem as you. I'm stuck arguing at a brick wall trying to convince them of something they're ultimately only going to be ever to see for themselves. It's fucking infuriating because I was the same way, but once I did eventually realize I had no clue what the fuck was going on in life, things finally started to improve.
Just like you man, I believed I knew the outcome of events without them even happening. I had myself convinced I knew what was what. Then I thought to myself one day, "if I know enough to know the outcome of essentially any and all events that can/could happen to me as long as I know it's going to happen before hand, then why the fuck am I still so miserable? why am I still failing at virtually everything in life? shouldn't this be like a fucking cheat code or a super power i've got?" This happened right after going to do something new for the first time in a long time and it wound up being almost nothing like I had imagined it being, which is what got me to reflect critically on this retarded habit of mine in the first place.
After that, I admitted to myself I had no clue what the fuck I was talking about. Yeah, I could guess what might happen in the future, but all kinds of shit happens. For all I know, on the way to see a psychologist, I get abducted by aliens or there's a wreck on the way that I help with that alters my outlook on life enough to change it radically for the better (or worse, the fuck did I know? no point in hoping it would get worse though because it was already terrible as is)? You have no idea what might happen to change you, but you're shutting yourself out from the possibility for it altogether.
If there is one[/] thing we can know about the future, it's that when we deny ourselves even the possibility of ever moving forward and improving by choosing to stay right where we're at, we're going to stay right where we're at. That's the secret here buddy. You are determined to stay right where you are. You are too afraid of failing if you actually put effort into something that you decide not to even do it in the first place. Don't believe me? Then why don't you ever try doing these things that are supposed to be able to help? What's the worst that could happen, you wind up staying just as miserable as you already are? At least if you try, there's actually a possibility you could succeed in doing something good for yourself. Logically, it's the only sensible move to take. Yet, you choose not to try and instead spend your time waxing philosophically about how psychologists and therapy are all bullshit because they can't possibly understand you and you don't want to talk to them anyway to justify not even attempting to get better.
I mean, life is a fuckin numbers game man. You're gonna lose more than you're going to win. Just because trying something a few times or even many times doesn't work doesn't mean it never will, it means you need to try it a different way. Change the conditions surrounding the process until you find some measure of success and build off of that, this shit isn't easy. Not trying at all is how you guarantee failure. As long as you can rationalize your failure it won't bother you as much as it would failing and having no (legitimate)excuse ready to explain it or any idea why at all even when you were genuinely giving it your best effort, right? As long as the ways to getting better all suck so much ass they they aren't even worthy trying, failing is at least something you can bear. Jumping off a platform trying to reach another distant platform and smacking your face and busting your teeth out legitimately trying to make it to the other platform hurts a lot more than expecting not to make it in the first place and bracing yourself to hit the ground below you. You've lost all the courage to bust your teeth out trying to get better, so unless some miracle occurs, you are never going to. You will be stuck wherever you're at until you're willing to royally fuck your face up trying to move forward.