|>> || 1566249625822.png -(343504B / 335.45KB, 1414x854) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. OP I hope I don't insult your intelligence by assuming you haven't already heard about the Dunning-Kruger effect, but I'd still like to remind you of its existence. You seem to be stuck on Mount Stupid. I know this sounds like a juvenile insult but it's actually just the description of your state of mind right before falling into the Valley of Despair. |
There's no shame in it, because phenomenon affects everyone. We're all guilty of overestimating our own capabilities.
At least, that's the impression I get from reading your posts.
Do you know why they want you to do assignments and produce non-creative writings, which seems so mindless and repetitive and totally not worthy of your time? Because you haven't mastered the art yet. The key to mastering any art (be that making music, writing, painting, movie making,...) is practice. And if you wanna get anywhere in your chosen art in this lifetime, you need not blind practice but directed practice. A mentor is not absolutely necessary, but they do help in directing you to practice efficiently and effectively.
You can pick up a guitar and start playing random notes from day 1, but just fucking around on a guitar isn't going to produce many masterpieces.
It takes training, mindless drills, and playing simple children's songs to even get past a beginner level. And then it's more mindless drills, and ear training, and note reading, and tab writing, and even more drills and more practice and always practice and practice beyond the point of fun and why am I even wasting my time oh god I could've learned about general relativity instead oh god I'm so bored....
I've stopped believing I'll be a millionaire rockstar someday, not because society is against me succeeding, but because I don't want to practice 8 hours every day, live in poverty, pour my heart and soul into an album that gets noticed by maybe 35 people and be judged poorly.
You want to write creatively? You gotta practice that, though. And you probably need a master to show you just how little you think you know about the art.
You're trying to inform us of your capacities, instead of showing it. You keep expressing your beliefs that you are superior to the college professors in community college, so why don't you prove it? Show us your work. Have you even published your writing somewhere online? Is any of your work open to be judged by the world?
I know if I truly felt my work to be so enlightened without a higher education, you can be sure I'd be trying to publish it everywhere. Anywhere. "I managed to do this without a degree goddamnit! Look at what I made on my own!"
...But you're not.
And it's probably because you don't truly believe in your own superiority. You're just afraid to be judged poorly. So you don't try because you're afraid of failure. So you have nothing, and crushing your inflated ego would crush your entire world. You'd just be average like the rest of us. And gone would be your last hope of getting out of an "average" existence.