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Advice needed. Addiction and impulse control

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- Tue, 10 Sep 2019 20:30:44 EST 6uv4LKA5 No.531640
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I need help. I don't know where to ask. I am sorry for asking this here.
  1. Im addicted to blitz chess. I have a hard time controlling my impulses and spend much more time playing chess than I should.
  2. I put a lot of effort and concentration, but I usually lose. Im at 30-35 percentile. I only play with better players. I experience a very strong despair when losing. I ask for rematchs, and sometimes lose several games in a row. once threw my phone and broke it.
  3. I am kinky/into BDSM. Losing arouses me. I masturbate to that feeling and to very humiliating and selfdeprecating thoughts ("he is probably an engineer", "look how fast he got it, and then he did this and that", "look how much of a loser you are, late at night, wasting your life at chess... losing like that"). I don't think that is healthy.

The three problems started two years ago. The second one has improved mildly, but sometimes it strikes me hard. The third one has gone slightly worse.
I don't know what to do.

>go se a (((psychiatrist)))
The last time a social services psychologist talked to me, he hinted I might have Asperger. I don't think that true and I dont want to see any of these people again.
Thank you for reading/your time.
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Jenny Bomblefig - Tue, 10 Sep 2019 20:35:12 EST 6uv4LKA5 No.531641 Reply
>>531640
To elaborate on the last part, I have been depressed. Im not depressed anymore. I have some OCD traits, but I keep those in check. I dont think I need drugs. I dont have the courage to talk about this with anyone face to face.
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Jarvis Bunway - Tue, 10 Sep 2019 20:41:03 EST jSD6JfHq No.531642 Reply
>I don't think that true and I dont want to see any of these people again.
>Im not depressed anymore. I have some OCD traits, but I keep those in check.
>I dont think I need drugs.
>I dont have the courage to talk about this with anyone face to face.
Youre fucked then. You are in deep denial and need professional help. Until you get past that, you can't be helped because you are insulating yourself with the whole "I dont want to see any of these people again" and "I dont think I need drugs and I dont have the courage to talk about this with anyone face to face."
Also why the 3 parentheses around the word psychiatrist?
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Jenny Bomblefig - Tue, 10 Sep 2019 20:48:04 EST 6uv4LKA5 No.531643 Reply
>>531642
The parentheses is a joke/meme. Its ok. I dont even believe that meme has any ground of reality.
I have sone personality traits: shyness, perfectionism, lack of empathy... I dont feel like telling here my whole story. I know some aspies and Im not like them. I want to solve these problems I mentioned and move on with my life.
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Jarvis Bunway - Tue, 10 Sep 2019 20:52:05 EST jSD6JfHq No.531644 Reply
>>531643
If your core view of psychiatrists is that they are some Jewish conspiracy and a bunch of quacks and that's why you won't go see one, you are just beyond fucked.
> I want to solve these problems I mentioned and move on with my life.
>"I dont want to see any of these people again"
>I dont have the courage to talk about this with anyone face to face."
Do you see the conflict you find yourself in here ?
You claim to want to solve your problems and get help yet are resisiting/insulating yourself from the solutions with this spurious retarded reasoning that "protects you" from having to do so.
I'd say get off the Internet for a start as it has clearly rotted your brain in to believing some warped shit that is removed from real life.
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Walter Hocklestuck - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 07:16:51 EST memh83fR No.531648 Reply
>>531644
Bruh. OP literally clarified in the post above you that they don't actually believe in that shit.
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Graham Nedgefun - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 10:23:31 EST x/8+sQUW No.531650 Reply
>>531648
I believe some people are legit crazy.
But if you are healthy but bear strong personality traits (yet not strength as a personality trait), it will do more harm than good in the long term.
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Lydia Hammledale - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 10:58:12 EST LQ4VvGPH No.531651 Reply
so you enjoy your hobbies, that's not a crime. Go and lose some chess and jack off in shame if that's what floats your boat.
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Ernest Hurrybanks - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 13:02:18 EST iuRtzqfz No.531654 Reply
>>531651
I want to quit chess, but I spend a lot of time on my computer or commutting and lichess.org is too tempting.
Sometimes I binge chess, I lose games and feel a lot of frustration. I play more chess and as I play I furiously masturbate, maybe several times in a row. I end tired and full of dark and negative thoughts, and often cry. Those are not good thoughts or healthy habits.
When I have some problem, I play chess to concentrate on it and forget my problem.
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Cedric Dennermodge - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 16:13:07 EST Je9nm5wp No.531656 Reply
>((()))

you deserve anything that comes to you
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Edward Blacklock - Thu, 12 Sep 2019 10:54:05 EST USUZpST+ No.531667 Reply
>>531665
lol yeah and so's the racism on the future. all those "ironical" shootings
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Beatrice Himmlechutch - Thu, 12 Sep 2019 14:28:51 EST gRfiHg3a No.531672 Reply
>>531667
>>531666
I have posted I have weird psychological problems.
I need advice and help.
I am sorry if that joke offended you
If anything, the joke is on me.
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Lillian Shakeworth - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 09:39:58 EST 9VfcrdC9 No.531687 Reply
>>531674
Why does it bother (((you))) so much?
It is not the topic of my thread, which is a question anout a personal issue.
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Jenny Pockcocke - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 13:56:24 EST dSPy0yiU No.531690 Reply
>asks for help
>makes sure to alienate people in the same post
nice one
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Sophie Bezzlesten - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 16:49:16 EST R8FFgZAJ No.531692 Reply
Tbh, it sounds like you might have a mild case of aspergers
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Augustus Summletig - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 07:09:35 EST 2n8Af4lk No.531709 Reply
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Today I relapsed.
I was beaten two times with the Halasz Gambit. I beat my soul but didnt beat my meat. It might sound funny. But this is very sad. This does not feel good.
I wish I could root my (((phone))), block that (((webpage))) via hosts and end this madness.
Serves me right for allowing my father to buy me a (((Samsung))).
>>531690
Can (((we))) please ignore that (((meme)))?
FFS there are not even jews in my area. Im Southern European.
The amusing part is that you just add some parenthesis and people make up complex theories and double meanings about what you intended to say and label your post as hate inducing.
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Nell Hoddlechat - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 10:14:52 EST pfQYdJPP No.531710 Reply
>>531709
They don't make up complex theories, they just see someone repeating the same language used by murderers. That's what's happening. It's not really seen as cool and funny and fun here as it is on that one website. It's just, if it turns people off and expresses something you don't want to convey and it takes extra effort, then you kind of look like a fool for doing it. You may disagree with the social order or even the idea that one exists but it does and that's what your problem is with it.
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Hugh Chevingtad - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 11:07:52 EST R8FFgZAJ No.531712 Reply
Psychiatrists and/or psychologists listen like your friend, and then dispense advice that is a distillation of society's desire for you. If you're playing around, it makes sense to put psychiatrist in the triple paranthesis

I think there is a word that means "self-righteuous exaggeration of impact", but for the life of me I cant think of it. I wanted to use it to describe the reactions to the jew detection meme in this thread

I mean, come on. The language of murderers? You mean english?
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Shit Femmlelork - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 12:55:27 EST Je9nm5wp No.531713 Reply
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>>531709
>you just add some parenthesis and people make up complex theories and double meanings about what you intended to say

uh-huh, whatever you say
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John Turveyforth - Mon, 16 Sep 2019 18:52:50 EST iuRtzqfz No.531753 Reply
>>531710
You seem to be more interested in discussing my (((presumed))) ideology rather than helping me.
I encourage you to go to visit /pol/itics-related imageboards.

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