idk anymore man. the last ten years of my life have been a trainwreck. im financially fucked after a LONG and BAD relationship with my probably soon-to-be ex-wife. we have a kid together whose a little over a year old and I love him, but my life with this woman is complete trash. she wants a divorce and is unhappy, but is too afraid to commit to it and keeps trying to keep things going. i just wish I could be eighteen again and getting stoned and posting to this board and have my whole life ahead of me. my marriage destroyed all my friendships, she's a narccisist and sabotaged every friendship and most family relationships I had. i have nothing. absolutely nothing other than my son. I put on eighty pounds in the last five years, have a 580 credit score, am about $35,000 in debt plus a mortgage, own a failing business, and am just completely unhappy and fucked. i kind of just want to move to new hampshire and start over, but I can't (and wont). idk. things are really shitty right now and im not looking forward to the next few months of being flat ass broke and celebrating christmas, her birthday, and our anniversary. i love this girl, but i cant make her happy and shes really mentally ill.