i used to think that weed was the best thing in the world and the cure to everything etc but now i kind of agree with the schedule 1 listing. high potential for mental/physical abuse with no medical purposes. i've tried smoking the best weed on the planet and hash and shit and whenever i smoke i ALWAYS get a pounding migraine for hours that makes my life hell. every time i smoke i think "this is going to be a relaxed nice experience and i like this feeling" and then it turns into a nightmare where i just feel anxious and thinking about everything too much and feel like shit. and then i just say fuck it im already high and useless and smoke for the small amount of euphoria hidden behind a bunch of panic. i used to be able to smoke and just laugh at shit the entire time and i was with friends but i still had the same effects and i always came down into a huge headache. i really have to doubt why i smoke this shit. i think maybe im overdoing it? and really i need is 1-2 hits and not to smoke an entire joint but at the same time even half a joint gives me all of these effects. im thinking maybe weed is just some self induced toxin that we all lied to ourselves and pretend its good? i think people are looking for a drug they can abuse without "addiction" or "negative side effects" and then everyone seems to think that weed is healthy and nothing bad can come from it and it's okay to smoke as much as you possibly can any time of the day and even smoking 8 grams at once is just having a good time. but it seems like most people are experiencing these same negative side effects on weed. im trying to just keep it to a few hits before bed or something which feels fine but i get that preconceived notion that it's a healthy plant medicine and there's nothing wrong with smoking it and then i end up back with an 8 hour migraine writhing in pain after having a 6 hour panic attack. im just so fucking used to having the "thc feeling" before sleep and smoking all day thinking it was a harmless plant.
