is there a way to limit my weed usage when i'm addicted? i remember when i first started smoking i just was smoking a gram or whatever at the end of the night and me and my friends would hang out after school and smoke. it was a pain in the ass to get weed so i spaced it out and only had small amounts at a time and i was busy so i didn’t smoke much now weed is cheap and legal and i can get ounces of dank shit for 50-60 bucks and i always have weed. if i cut weed out completely i want to die and get angry as fuck at everything but if i have a big ass ounce of dank stinking me next to me all the time it's too hard not to smoke. over the years since like 2014 i've slowly been becoming more and more lonely and my life became shittier and weed became my main vice. i started to need it to sleep then i needed it to feel happy. i cant stop smoking as soon as i wake up and weed is like the only thing i look forward to. my love for it has died down a little bit but i still cant stop smoking. i have nothing to look forward to i have no friends or no one to talk to and the weather is shit here so im just sitting inside alone. theres just something about the trippiness of weed where every thought seems like it takes forever and sometimes it makes everything hilarious and i randomly laugh my ass off and it just makes everything feel trippy and surreal or i can zone out on stuff. the magics dying down though i used to be able to laugh my ass every time i smoked and now even being high is feeling depressing. i want to just smoke a gram or eighth at the end of the day. it makes me useless i cant get anything done, i just ignore everything for months, dont make important phone calls, dont do anything that requires effort but at the same time when i'm sober my life is a living hell full of nothingness and suffering. when i smoke i have to stay super stoned for as long as possible too because my friends used to smoke a shit load of weed with me when I started